99 Questions

Sorry if I'm annoying you guys with all this spamming, but ... I DON'T CARE! I am bored, and procrastinating, and this is my blog, so I will do what I want to do! Mmkay??? :3


1) Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Whatever way they are, really... I'm not fussed!


2) Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from the hotel?
No. Mostly because I can't be stuffed, and I don't see the point.


3) Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Out definitely! I can't stand tucked in sheets. I love sticking my foot out from under them, so if they're tucked in it just irritates me. :P


4) Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No. But now I am tempted! :3


5) Do you like to use post-it notes?
I do, when I have some... The last time I owned post-it notes I lost them instantly which was irritating, and I haven't gotten anymore since.


6) Do you cut out coupons, but then never use them?
ALL THE TIME!!!


7) Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
Hmmm... Probably bees... That way I have a higher chance of survival!


8) Do you have freckles?
No.


9) Do you always smile for pictures?
Ha! No. There are more terrible photos of me pulling some ridiculous face then there is of me smiling and looking somewhat decent!


10) What is your biggest pet peeve?
People who claim to be against bullying, but you know they talk about you behind your back.


11) Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Sometimes. Depending on what's happening and what else I could be focused on.


12) Have you ever peed in the woods?
Who would honestly care? No.


13) What about pooped in the woods?
Seriously. =.= No.


14) Do you ever dance even when there is no music playing?
All the time! :D


15) Do you chew your pencils or pens?
Used too. Thankfully gotten out of that habit!


16) How many people have you slept with this week?
Which slept? Doesn't matter, cause it's zero either way! :P


17) What size is your bed?
Queen, bitchez.


18) What is your song of the week?
Hmmm. Would have to be Zo Verliefd by Laura. It is sung in Dutch by this cute girl who entered Junior Eurovision. If it weren't for [Tenuto Tuo], I would not have fallen in love with this song... I mean... Come on guys... She yodels! It's adorable! :3


19) Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Of course it is. Anyone can wear whatever they want! It's whether or not they suit, that's the issue! Some guys do, and some guys don't. Just like women.


20) Do you still watch cartoons?
No, because they are so bad nowadays. Cartoons have worsened since my childhood years.  Shame on them, I say!


21) What's your least favourite movie?
Ooooh. I would have no idea! I seriously can't think of it right now...


22) Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
If I tell you, you'll go get it! =.=


23) What do you drink with dinner?
Mostly water. Unless I'm out at a restaurant then I could also have Solo or Sprite. If the food is insanely spicy, I run and get a glass of milk. And at Christmas, I have what we call "non-alcoholic wine". :3


24) What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Tomato sauce. Duh! ^.^


25) What is your favourite food?
MEXICAN! *Drools*.


26) What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Ace Ventura... Jeff Dunham... Harry Potter (ALL)... Lion King (ALL)... Tangled... That's all I can think of at the moment! :P


27) Last person you kissed/kissed you?
[Riot!]... :)


28) Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
HELLS YEAH! In Adelaide with [Pinnuck!]. :3


29) Would you ever strip or pose nude for a magazine?
LOL no. What magazine would want me? :P And, just, yeah, no...


30) When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper.
The 13th of July, 2011.


31) Can you change the oil on a car?
Hahahahaha! No.


32) Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Na! Too good ;)


33) Ever ran out of gas?
Nope! Still too good ;)


34) Favourite kind of sandwich?
Oooooh! Ham, cheese, cucumber, onion, and salad dressing! Om nom nom.


35) Best thing to eat after breakfast?
Nothing. Breakfast is just fine with me!


36) What is your usual bedtime?
I don't have a usual bedtime! I go to bed at different times every night! But I guess I could average it to around 11pm?


37) Are you lazy?
Yes. Very much so.


38) When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
Have never dressed up/gone trick or treating for Halloween. Unfortunately.


39) What is your Chinese astrological sign?
I am a rooster! :DThe Rooster is the strutting peacock of the Chinese Zodiac! These quick thinkers are practical and resourceful, preferring to stick to what is tried and true rather than taking messy, unnecessary risks. Roosters are keenly observant. It's hard to slip anything past a Rooster, since they seem to have eyes in the backs of their heads! This quality can lead others to think the Rooster is psychic, but that's not generally the case; instead, this sign enjoys a keen attention to detail that makes it a whiz at anything requiring close analysis. Roosters make great lawyers, brain surgeons and accountants, to name a few of this sign's possible occupations. Above all else, the Rooster is very straightforward and rewards others' honesty in kind. Roosters aren't shifty or cagey and have no interest in hiding behind a facade. They are the proverbial open book, telling the truth and keeping their word. If you show your hand, the Rooster will respect you for it. This kind of trusting behavior can tempt tricksters to pull a fast one on the Rooster, but that would be a bad move! Remember, this sign doesn't indulge in flights of fancy and keeps those eyes wide open at all times. Roosters tend to be perfectionists and expect to be in control, especially over their appearance. Primping and posing for the Rooster can go on forever! (Uhm, I disagree here, jus' sayin'). Being noticed and admired is an aphrodisiac for Roosters, and they can go a long time on a few kind words. Roosters also adore being out on the town, especially if they're in the company of adoring friends. The Rooster will also be the best-dressed one of the bunch -- style counts with this sign, regardless of the cost. Roosters also expect to be in control of their surroundings, including whoever happens to be in those surroundings. Roosters keep an impeccably neat house and expect their lovers, housemates and family members to maintain the same high standards of dress and conduct as they do. This can cause problems with other, more relaxed types who just want to be accepted as is. The Rooster needs the right partner, one who understands this sign's basically conservative nature. With the right person, the Rooster can be the most loyal, trusting and supportive mate around, one who bends over backward to please its loved ones. Some signs may just end up feeling hen-pecked, however. Roosters need to learn to value their heart and soul as much as their good looks. Their excellent people skills and sharp minds are qualities that others will appreciate as much as a pretty face. This sign would also do well to learn to adopt the philosophy of live and let live; perhaps an appeal to the Rooster's logic -- that it's inefficient to waste time nagging others -- will help this sign learn to let others be whomever and however they are. (Okay, some of the things in there, do not apply to me whatsoever...).


40) How many languages do you speak?
Fluently, only one. But I am learning Italian! :D


41) Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
No. ^.^


42) Which are better, legos or lincoln logs?
Uhm. I have no idea what they are...?


43) Are you stubborn?
Like an ox.


44) Who is better? Leno or Letterman?
Why are you asking questions like this?!?!?! RAGE!


45) Ever watched soap operas?
Yep. Didn't like 'em.


46) Are you afraid of heights?
Not really.


47) Do you sing in the car?
Of course I do!


48) Do you sing in the shower?
Who doesn't?!?! Let's face it. I sing everywhere, man!


49) Do you dance in the car?
Yes yes yes!


50) Ever used a gun?
No! *Cough unfortunately cough*


51) Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Does school count?


52) Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Some are... Doesn't stop me from loving them!!! :D


53) Is Christmas stressful?
Why would it be? I get presents?!?! :D :P


54) Ever eat a pierogi?
A whozawhatsit?


55) Favourite type of fruit pie.
Ew.


56) Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Vet! Always wanted to be a vet... But at one point I did want to be a jockey on the side... :3


57) Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes. After the stories I've heard.


58) Ever have a deja-vu feeling?
So. Many. Times! It's annoying o.O


59) Take a vitamin daily?
No... But I'm thinking I should start.


60) Wear slippers?
Hehehe. In Winter, yes :3


61) Wear a bath robe?
I wear a dressing gown...? Is that the same thing?!? :S


62) What do you wear to bed?
Pajamas. Most of the time...Ehehe.


63) First concert?
The Wiggles! And this was BEFORE they were famous guys. Mmkay? Yeah. I knew them before you all did! Bitch, what now?


64) Wal-mart, Kmart or Target?
Let's go with Target.


65) Nike or Adidas?
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. I don't care, so Nike.


66) Cheetos or Fritos?
What the...?!?!


67) Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Peanuts FTW!


68) Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
Nop. Never.


69) Ever take dance lessons?
Yes. Used to do Tap and Jazz. 


70) Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Yes... It's called housekeeping with me! Muahaha!


71) Can you curl your tongue?
Sort of... Depending on what you classify as 'curled'.


72) Ever won a spelling bee?
Why, of course! :3 In class... Not a major one o.O


73) Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
No... I don't think so... Not from memory.


74) Own any record albums?
Nope!


75) Own a record player?
Noooooooooooooooo.


76) Regularly burn incense?
Naaa. I'd probably get high off of it knowing me :P


77) Ever been in love?
Yes <3


78) Who would you like to see in concert?
Marie Digby, Jessie J, Lady Gaga, Eric Saade, Darin, Vanessa Amorosi, Tyler Ward, Avril Lavigne and Jedward!


79) What was the last concert you saw?
Paramore!!! :D


80) Hot tea or cold tea?
How about... No tea!


81) Tea or coffee?
Water, please.


82) Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Uhm, sugar...?


83) Can you swim well?
I believe so.


84) Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes. It's really not that difficult.


85) Are you patient?
Oh gosh no!


86) DJ or band at wedding?
Ooooooh... I might go with a band. :3


87) Ever won a contest?
Yis.


88) Ever have plastic surgery?
Hell. To. The. No.


89) Which are better, black or green olives?
Ewwww, neither.


90) Can you knit or crochet?
No... Disapoointed? :P


91) Best room for a fireplace?
Loungeroom <3


92) Do you want to get married?
Very much so. There's something so beautiful about marriage, I can't put my finger on it.


93) If married, how long have you been married?
Just over one year! *Sniff* [Phantomess]!!! <3


94) Who was your high school crush?
Well... My current one is [Riot!].


95) Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
Shamefully, yes, I sometimes still do this :P


96) Do you have kids?
Not yet.


97) Do you want kids?
Yes! I would love to have at least a boy and a girl! I mean, if I get two of the same gender I won't care, but yeah... I would love an adorable little girl in my arms... :)


98) What's your favourite colour?
Blue :)


99) Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes <3


~Cowboy take me away~

Random Facts!

The bold ones apply to me!

• I am a male.
• I am a girl.
• I am shorter than 5'4.
• I think I'm ugly.
• I have many scars.
• I tan easily.
• I wish my hair was a different colour.
• I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
• I have a tattoo.
• I am self-conscious about my appearance.
• I've have/had braces.
• I wear glasses.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
• I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
• I have more than 2 piercings.
• I have piercings in place besides my ears.
• I have freckles.
• I've sworn at my parents.
• I've run away from home.
• I've been kicked out of the house.
• I have a sibling less than one year old.
• I want to have kids someday.
• I'm in school.
• I've lost a child.
• I have a job.
• I've fallen asleep at work/school.
• I almost always do/did my homework.
• I've missed a week or more of school.
• I failed more than one class last year.
• I've stolen something from my job.
• I've slipped out a "LOL" in a spoken conversation.
• Disney movies still make me cry.
• I've peed from laughing.
• I've snorted while laughing.
• I've laughed so hard I've cried.
• I've glued my hand to something.
• I've had my pants rip in public.
• I was born with a disease/impairment.
• I've broken a bone.
• I've gotten stitches/staples.
• I've had my tonsils removed.
• I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
• I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
• I had a serious surgery.
• I've had chicken pox.
• I've had measles.
• I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
• I've been on a plane.
• I've been to Canada.
• I've been to Mexico.
• I've been to Niagara Falls.
• I've been to Japan.
• I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
• I've been to Europe.
• I've been to Africa.
• I've gotten lost in my city.
• I've seen a shooting star.
• I've seen a meteor shower.
• I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
• I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
• I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (Unintentionally!)
• I've been to a casino.
• I've been skydiving.
• I've gone skinny dipping.
• I've played spin the bottle.
• I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
• I've crashed a car.
• I've been skiing.
• I've been in a play.
• I've met someone in person from Facebook.
• I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
• I've seen the Northern lights.
• I've sat on a roof top at night.
• I've played chicken.
• I've played a prank on someone.
• I've ridden in a taxi.
• I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
• I've eaten sushi.
• I've been snowboarding.
• I'm single.
• I'm in a relationship.
• I'm engaged.
• I'm married.
• I've gone on a blind date.
• I've been dumped more than the dumper.
• I miss someone right now.
• I have a fear of abandonment.
• I've gotten divorced.
• I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
• I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
• I've told someone I didn't like them when I did.
• I've kept something from a past relationship.
• I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
• I've had a crush on a teacher.
• I've been kissed in the rain.
• I've hugged a stranger.
• I have kissed a stranger.
• I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
• I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
• I've sneaked out of my house.
• I have lied to my parents about where I am.
• I am keeping a secret from the world.
• I've cheated while playing a game.
• I've cheated on a test.
• I've run a red light.
• I've been suspended from school.
• I've witnessed a crime.
• I've been in a fist fight.
• I've been arrested.
• I've passed out from drinking.
• I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
• I've smoked.
• I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
• I've eaten mushrooms. (If we're talking about the normal mushrooms in food that is...)
• I've popped E.
• I've inhaled Nitrous.
• I've done hard drugs.
• I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
• I can swallow about 3 pills at a time no problem.
• I have been diagnosed with depression.
• I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorders.
• I shut others out when I'm depressed.
• I've taken an anti-depressant.
• I have been anorexic or bulimic.
• I've hurt myself on purpose.
• I've woken up crying.
• I'm afraid of dying.
• I hate funerals.
• I've seen someone dying.
• Someone close to me has committed suicide.
• I've planned my own suicide.
• I've attempted suicide.
• I've written a eulogy for myself.
• I own over 5 rap CDs.
• I own an iPod or MP3 player.
• I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
• I own something from Hot Topic.
• I own something from Pac Sun.
• I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
• I collect comic books.

~That was somewhat depressing by the end~

A Sizzling Rage

"WHAT ABOUT THE CHICKENS?!?!?!"

Hi guys :3

The first line was a quote from the hilarious Carl Barron by the way. That night was so much fun! We went to Sizzler for dinner, headed over to the beloved QPAC to listen to a jazz band play, before heading into the Lyric Theatre for an hour and a half with no laughing break! I think the maximum amount of time I went without laughing was... One minute? And that was because I physically couldn't laugh at that point my stomach and face hurt that much. I was sitting there in pain, but still in a laughing fit. It was an interesting site let me tell ya...

So, uhm, guys... I set myself the entire weekend (just gone) to work on my three assignments, right? So what did I do..? Go on Facebook, MSN, and listen to music the entire time... I did a teensy bit of Chemistry and opened up websites for English. But that was the extent of it. For some reason my brain just would not switch on or get even the tiniest bit motivated to work. It's never been this bad before! Usually, in the end, I can always muster up something to do some form of work;but not this time.

But it hasn't even fazed me one bit really. That's another concerning thing. It is clear that the sight of the finish line is powerfully demotivating. Oh, and the lovely inboxes I received from one of [Carl]'s friends on the weekend.

I have pretty much never spoken to this girl in my life. Ever. The last time we 'spoke' was another hateful inbox sent from her to me. Most of these inboxes involve the overuse of the word 'slut' and multiple swear words, and is to do with how I 'stuff' up everyone's life and how I'm mentally 'stuffed' up etc. My assumption both times is that she is referring to the current situation [Carl] and I are in. Which, in this current case, makes absolutely no sense.

I am not affecting her in anyway, and [Carl] and I are now broken up and happily friends... So what issue does she have with me? Clearly a big one because she continues to inbox me calling me pathetic for not replying or going to [Carl] in an attempt to make her stop messaging me. I haven't done a thing to her, and I am just being the stronger one not replying to her, but the thing is... Every time I see my Facebook tab saying "Facebook (1)" I feel a rush of terror flood through me because I instantly worry if it's another inbox from her.

To be honest, it just irritates me that she thinks she can talk to me like that. Then again, she only tends to do these inboxes when she is drunk. Yeah. She drinks a lot and does the most stupid of things when she's drunk. But does she learn? Of course not. But that's not my problem.

I'm trying not to be nasty to her, but it's hard to be nice or "see the nice traits in her" when she hasn't given me an opportunity to see anything nice. The only experiences I've had with her have been negative. And I, for one, am sick of copping everything from [Carl]'s girl friends who feel that they HAVE to run and tell him absolutely anything or everything [Riot!] and I do. I am not doing anything wrong. [Carl] doesn't care/want to hear it. So What. Is. The. Point?

Moving on...

Today marks the first day of Week 5 of Term 4... EVER! I have only three weeks left! Woo! LOL JOKES I still have three assignments and two exams... =.= I'm actually kinda worried about the exams only because nothing is sinking in... Well, Biology I generally understand the stuff, but none of it is really staying with me once I leave the classroom... And Maths... Oh Maths... How I dislike thee so. I just don't understand it.

The Chemistry assignment is boring me... It's alternative sources of energy! =.= The Physics assignment is alright, I guess. It's just that I know that there are a lot of calculations that are going to be involved... And the English assignment is just annoying. I mean, I chose the topic (deforestation of the Mabira rain forest in Uganda) so it interests me, but the genre is irritating and I'm feeling pressure from [Noodleton] to get a good grade because supposedly I'm "on the cusp" of B+/A- even though I've gotten one B+ this year, two A's and the rest A-'s. But it's "all about the criteria" supposedly. Sometimes when I feel pressured though, it makes me kinda shut down and not do the work. Which really isn't good! :P


Well... I don't feel as though there is any more to add currently and I have assignments to do, so I end my post here.


~Give us life again, cause we just wanna be whole~

Music and Ice-Cream and Pain, Oh My!

Guys... I strongly suggest y'all listen to a group called VersaEmerge. Especially the song Fixed At Zero. [Riot!] introduced me to them and, though I have only found two songs of theirs that I like so far, they are quite good and the music is interestingly different. Well, at least I think it is!

ANYWHO!

I must talk about this because the cheesiness of it is literally bursting out of me...
My boss and his wife are one of the most adorable couples I have ever seen! :3

When at work, I constantly see [Boss] give his wife adoring looks or she's feeding him food at random points... Even when they are fighting, it doesn't last long because it instantly diffuses between them!

#Random note# They want to open an ice cream / lolly shop! Asdfghjkl. They are so awesome o.O

Anyways... They got me in the mood where I stare glassy-eyed off into the distance thinking about things I would love to have in a relationship and stuff like that... Ya know. A girly thing to do :P
BUT I shall not go into that, because A) I can't be bothered, and B) It's a lot to write, and C) It would probably bore the heck out of you! Heh.

So I was just casually on the phone to [Carl] the other night when Adelaide was brought up and I suddenly started crying and babbling on about the things I missed, why I missed it, etc. [Carl] took this as I hated being here in Queensland and didn't like meeting him, memories here, etc. Which made it worse. Which was great.

I am tempted to write about everything I miss on here too, but I won't for the same reasons as above ^.^ I just wanted to mention it because I needed a little venting about it... I've been feeling really reminiscent lately, which has resulted in a lot of mood swings. I mean, a lot... o.O

So ... I actually have no idea why I started this blog post! I guess I just wanted to vent about my boss and his wife, ehehe. Too cute...

Uhmmm. School's over soon. Three weeks in fact. I have barely started any assessment... My motivation is so bad right now... But can you blame meeee? Three weeks left! Ahhhhhh! I am soooo excited!
I am trying to only be excited, because I know I'm going to get all sentimental and cry on the last day, and I'll look like a mess... So to save me some embarrassment I will restrain myself to that one day to make a fool of myself!

We have to vote for the school leaders for next year... To be honest, I couldn't really care. I mean, I'm not here so why does it matter? Teacher's have double vote regardless. And, to be frank, the current Year 11's aren't the best bunch of kids to choose from. I mean, yes there are some good kids in there, but overall... The group is kinda worrying. Then again, Year 10 and 11 are looking better than Year 9 downwards... Man... Generation Y/Z scare me. Well the youngest of Generation Y I mean. Because everyone round my age is so much better! ;D

Listening to For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic by Paramore. I love this song way too much... I have listened to it so many times, yet have not been bothered to listen to the lyrics as a whole and figure out the entire meaning of the song... Then again, I do that with most songs nowadays... I'm incredibly slack. :P
The line that usually strikes a chord in me with above said song is "I put my faith in you, so much faith, and then you, just threw it away".

No idea why to be perfectly honest with you. I guess it could be because you can sing it with so many different emotions and it would still apply. And I personally love adding emotion to a song when I sing it :3 Yeah... I have tons of fun haha.

So, I'm seeing Carl Barron tomorrow night at with [Carl] (LOL! THEY HAZ SAME NAME! Move on [Miss Invisible]...). I don't want to seem materialistic, but I am glad we stayed friends because we've had these tickets booked since April, and I really REALLY want to see him :3 When we broke up, his parents didn't want me to go and were going to look for someone else to go with, but he convinced them to let me go so... I mean, being around his parents is going to be awkward as heck, but still... CARL BARRON! WOO!
At least I know I'll always have his brother... No matter what happens between [Carl] and I, [Carl]'s brother will always be like my little brother. The annoying, funny, non-Aspergian brother I never had. :P We have inside jokes, and we get along really well which I like; but it has resulted in me adoring him and treating him as my own brother.

Woo! Domino by Jessie J! Heh. Sorry, I just really like this song. If I didn't have a sore throat I would be attempting to do those awesome high bits she does that I know are a lot more complicated than they seem. *Sigh* That is one thing irritating me at the moment. My throat. I mean... What the heck? I've had this for almost a year! I've tried antibiotics and the usual Betadine gargles... They normally work! But not this time...

I'm scared to go to the doctor's in case it's something insanely serious that could potentially involve needles or surgery or anything... I have never really had to go through much pain in my life. Never broken a bone, never done anything to serious to myself. Unfortunately, living this pain-free life has caused me to have an incredibly low pain-tolerance and a fear of anything surgical.
I know that I should go to the doctor, and I will... Eventually... Maybe after my assignments are due. I mean if I'm going to die or something, I may as well wait till I've finished my final assessments ever! :P

And I will finish this post here as it is almost break time, and I am hungry. Yes, I am writing this in a Chemistry class, but don't judge me. It's difficult to work on an assignment when the school's internet blocks most of the websites you actually need to complete it. =.=

~His blood is on your hands, now no one can save my heart...~

It's A Riot 'Round Here...

Just casually listening to The Lion King Musical, and failing at getting motivated to do my Chemistry assignment...

It seems that the more I tell myself to blog, the more I don't seem to do it... Hm. From now on I am going to try and not tell myself to blog as much as possible, and see how that goes! :3

Soooooo... The rest of the first week of my term was incredibly boring, and dragged on. That weekend I didn't really do anything either... YAY for boringness!!!

[Riot!] came back to school at the start of Week 2 loaded with presents for everybody (where the sudden generosity came from, I have no idea :P). That day I got (from him) two necklaces, a fan, a beautiful painting thing of a tiger, and The Sims 3. Funny story to that... I just so happen to already be getting it for Christmas! :P

You see... My mother hasn't been the best hider of late, so I stumbled across The Sims 3 and The Sims 3: World Adventures in the laundry cupboard. I found this while [Riot!] was in Thailand, so when he came back with it for me it was funnily awkward. But I still appreciate it, and will play it over Mum's ^.^ My sister can have the other one hehehe...
So all I have to do now is act all surprised at Christmas. Which is what I have to do with most of my presents every year anyway. Mum + presents = LOL!

Oh! That's right! I did do something the weekend before [Riot!] came back! (Excuse the shocking memory :P).
[Dancer] had her 16th birthday party!!! Happy belated birthday girl! Heh.

It was a masquerade/colour theme and I was given the colour red. My mask was ordered online and I wasn't as fond of it when I had it, and my dress was maybe a little too high cut for games such as balloon soccer... But Murder In The Dark has/will always be the best game ever invented! :D
So apart from having to go to work halfway through the party, 'twas good fun!

That reminds me... I has a job guise!

I applied for a kitchen hand position at the local restaurant by my place and was practically hired straight away. It's run by a family of people who speak both English and Hindi. So most of the time I'm casually (or hurriedly) doing dishes while hearing my boss behind me talking in Hindi while throwing in random English swear words in there. Ahhhhh, it's lots of fun to listen too :P But they're really nice as well, which is good. If I ever get any interesting work stories (unlikely) I will tell you guys! I don't care if you don't wanna know. 'Tis my blog bitchez.

The weekend after... I had another 16th masquerade party! This one consisted of more people, outside, lots of dancing and eating and general awkwardness at first. But the night turned out really well, and I had lots of fun. Especially on the ride home! [Riot!] would be nodding around about now...

Me + [Riot!] + [Riot!]'s friend's brother + [Riot!]'s friend's brother's girlfriend + awesome car + [Riot!]'s friend's brother's friend in another car = _______ <- Can't describe the awesomeness :3

Earlier that day I also got to spend time with [Riot!] walking around the local shopping centre fighting over what to get the birthday girl, running into people we know, annoying the heck out of each other, listening to music... You know. The usual! But it was really good because we hadn't seen each other in a fair while.
AND!
That same day was the very day that [Carl] finally came up to me and asked to break things off. Like, in his terms. Which made it the best day of my life! We've agreed to be friends, which I don't mind; it's good that way. I can't believe it finally happened! Yew!

School has been incredibly boring, but going by very quickly! o.O I mean... We only have four weeks left of Year 12 now! Two and a half weeks of work... It's insanity!

Anyways, this weekend just gone I was relatively busy. Friday night I worked an incredibly busy night. Saturday I cleaned my room (I don't think it had ever been that messy in it's life! It was pretty bad...), and then headed out with [Dancer], [Italy!], [Eliza], and [LongLegs] (Yes, I called you [LongLegs] heh) to curry for dinner. We talked, and laughed, and ate, and terrorised [SquishyEmzyTheWhore] (Not my nickname for her... It's [Riot!]s! They're friends) who works there. The rest of the night consisted of us walking home barefoot, almost picking up a toad ([Italy!]), almost stepping on a spider (me), getting honked at by a passing car, spooking at creepy shadows, and continually asking "Are we there yet?" "Is this your house?" "Is this your driveway / lightpost / dog / path?" ([LongLegs]). When we got back to [Dancer]'s house we crashed pretty quickly, then we woke up in the morning to watch Tangled and I got ready for the Brisbane Bands Festival where my band performed. We got a silver by the way! Quite proud of band this year... We did well.

After the BBF, I headed down to a local Jessica Mauboy concert with [Carl] and we had a generally good time. I was not jealous of [Phantomess] who was called into work (She works at the same place) and was told to hand out flyers to everyone there who were more interested in Jess than some random girl trying to give out flyers.

And so it is present day!

By the way guys, I am planning on writing some blog posts that don't just detail my life events, but I firstly need to keep up with those ones before I start writing the other ones :P The reason being is I don't want to bore people all the time. But I have absolutely no idea what I am going to blog about... Ideas anyone? :P Alas; I will figure it out one day!

SHOUTOUT TO: [LongLegs]! I know I said I'd blog about you, but I seriously don't know what to talk about..? When I find something to say about you I will write about it! I promise! :)

Until next time fellow symphony writers...

~And the drum beat carries on~

A Good Ol' Catch Up Rant

Hi guys! It has been awhile... But I've been surprisingly busy and Blogger was playing games, so I haven't had a chance till now.

I can't entirely remember where I left y'all so I'm just gonna wing it bitchez.

A couple of days after my Lunchtime -> Maths class meltdown I was meditating in RAVE class. No, I do not usually meditate; our teacher was teaching us methods of relaxation! Anyway, his method of meditation was relaxing... But it also brought up all the issues in my life right now so when we finished it left me in a bit of a sour mood. My teacher, of course, noticed this and requested I stay back after class. He's actually been pulling me aside a lot lately, which makes me realise just how much this is taking its toll in me, as I always used to be able to cover it up and was never really noticed.

So he pulled me aside and asked me what's wrong and I gave him a vague answer that was enough to get him asking questions about what I'm looking for in a guy. He asked questions like:

Are you looking for someone to care for you?

Are you looking for someone who wants you?

Are you looking for someone to make you feel special?

My answers to them were yes, and his reply to that?

'What I believe is, the reason why you are looking for these things is because you didn't receive enough of these things in your childhood, and you want these things, and are trying to make up for what you never really had, or felt you had' (Give or take a few words here and there).

That hit me, hard.

Not because it was a harsh thing to say or anything (quite to the contrary, he said it in the nicest way possible), but the fact that it was so true.

Growing up I always felt isolated from the world. Like I'd never truly fit in. And when my brother was born, I will admit myself to jealousy due to him receiving more attention because he was fully diagnosed, and I wasn't, meaning he could get help and I couldn't.

Before I met [Carl] I had gotten myself used to the thought that I would live the rest of my life on my own, and I was surprisingly okay with that at the time. Then [Carl] came along and gave me things which, at the time, I unknowingly craved! I loved every bit of it. I soaked it up! But I guess now I've gotten to the point where I've maybe had a bit too much? I mean... I had a life with what seemed like no care, or time spent on me; to having someone completely doting and loving. I'm not saying I didn't like that, because I did. I don't know. I guess I'm just trying to look for a medium maybe?

Anyways! After that, I had my last day of Term 3 and then two days later was my school formal. I actually didn't know how much I was looking forward to the formal, and how excited I was about it, until a couple of hours beforehand when my hair and makeup was all done up and ready to go.

The night, for me, was perfect! I couldn't imagine a better night. All the girls looked amazing, and all the guys looked incredible! The food was good, and the dancing was fun! I was surprised that my face wasn't torn in two with the amount of smiles I had to hold for the gazillions of photos that were being taken. Feeling like a celebrity is almost an understatement. Our limo driver was impressed and entertained with our 'Get Psyched Mix' which included a few classics such as; Hey Jude, I Wanna Be (500 Miles), Piano Man, You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth, Livin' On A Prayer, plus more...

And I felt pretty, for one of the first times in my life. I struggle seeing myself in that way, even though people compliment me here and there, so it was nice to be able to truly feel pretty for at least one night.

And then it was school holidays... I tried to get as much socialising in the first week as I could as most of the people I spend time with were going away in the second. The major outing for that week was going to the City with [Dancer], [Riot!], [Italy!], and [Singlet] ~Yeah, I ran out of ideas with [Singlet], but whatever~. We all caught up at the train station, and headed off from there. Eating chocolate, people watching, sitting on rocks talking, lying on the grass looking at a big shiny ball, eating ice cream, fighting over a newspaper, and basically just walked around. But I had a good time!

[Dancer] came over for a sleepover at one point where we played Mario Kart Wii, started learning a dance she choreographed for her party this weekend, began to craft devious plans, watched most of Easy A, and laughed into the early hours of the morning. I appreciated most of the time I spent with her during the holidays, because she was always there to talk to about anything; and she knows how to get me in a better mood, and even let a smile slip through. ^.^

Then before I knew it, everyone was gone. Most of them to Thailand actually (you lucky things), and I was left at home with not much to do. Well. Until a recently graduated student from my school contacted me. I shall call him [Sharpless]. So [Sharpless] contacted me and asked about having city in the lunch, and I jumped on the opportunity to get out of the house, though I was a bit apprehensive as I'd never met up with him outside of school before. But I went, and we had such a great time. He is an absolute nutter that one, but he made me laugh until my cheeks hurt, and walk until my legs were about ready to fall off... By the end of the day, I was truly happy and grateful because it was one of the most perfect days in my opinion with everything going on. Unfortunately, he's moving to Adelaide in only a few weeks so potential time to spend with him is short; at least until he comes back.

Two days later I, myself, was on a flight to Adelaide. I was to spend the weekend with my longest, and dearest, friend [Pinnuck!] to celebrate her 18th birthday. Getting up at 3.30 in the morning was no fun, and the plane trip there felt like it went on for hours! But as soon as I got there, [Pinnuck!] whisked me away and we went shopping together. The next day was the day of her party and it was filled with decorating, tying a streamer to her dog's collar and making her chase me around the place, playing The Game of Life, watching the footy (well she did, I went on Facebook instead ^.^ Can't stand the sport), and multiple trips to the shops to get any forgotten ingredients for food. And then the party began.

I'm pretty sure [Pinnuck!], myself and the kids were the only ones not drinking at the party. Now, for someone like me who has friends who are all younger and hasn't even hit 18 herself; it was a bit overwhelming at first. I don't drink, and I don't plan to for a fair while! But nobody was really 'wild' or anything, which was comforting. Except for [Pinnuck!]'s brother's friend. He had broken up with his girlfriend the same day and was drunk before the party had even started, and he has the same syndrome as me so he was very much in everyone's faces. He was still more entertaining than scary, or dangerous though. His cousin was there, and ... Yeah ... Let's just say he was the eye candy of the party. But the sweet thing was that, the entire night he was looking out for his cousin, making sure he had a good night after the break up. Believe me... I'm pretty sure he had a good night!

The party ended at around 1am when everyone had pretty much left except [Pinnuck!]'s brother's friends. They were sent home, much to all of our disappointment, and luckily [Pinnuck!] and I got to sleep through the morning after clean up! ^.^

I honestly can't remember what I did the next day which is frustrating, but I remember that on the last day we went down to Glenelg Beach which was exactly as I remember it, which I loved! We went shopping, had ice cream, and walked along the marina which was nice. Then we played a game for an hour so at [Pinnuck!]'s brother's friends place (yeah, the entertainingly drunk one), until we had to head back for dinner before I caught the flight back here.

Overall, it was a great weekend. The only thing I didn't like about it was when I had to leave... Going around the suburbs, I would literally smile or squeal with delight when I recognised a place/house/shop/road/etc. I miss Adelaide so much! It was my childhood home... I remember screaming and hating my parents when I found out we were moving... And nowadays all I hear is Mum complaining about how crap Queensland is... Great Mum, then why did you move here? The thing is, once you've moved to somewhere like Queensland, you can't go back to somewhere like Adelaide... The weather, road speed, and water differences are a massive adjustment.

But oh how I would love to be able to go down to Glenelg whenever I wanted again... To go to Tea Tree Plaza! Maybe even go down to the old swimming pool I used to go too... Oh! I would adore to go back to Adelaide to watch the Christmas pageant on TV. I have no idea if they still do it, but I sure hope they do... I remember looking forward to it every year, and dreaming of dressing up all pretty and being on one of those floats myself...

I miss having more family around me... I mean, sure, it's mainly my grandparents who now never see me unless I come down there way... But moving up here and having absolutely zero family or friends (at first) was hard... And for a 10 year old Asperger's to go through that kind of ordeal was tough. It changed me alright... For the worst. The path back from that one was long, painful, and still going...

It hurts when Mum keeps saying how crap Queensland is... It hurt to see her cry when we were leaving Adelaide because she already missed [Pinnuck!]'s Mum (her best friend). And for that moment, I couldn't understand. I couldn't understand why we moved. Why she ripped me away from my friends, and the life I was used too... Why she went away from her friends... Why!?! What happened? We moved to a place where Mum now has basically no friends whatsoever. At least no-one like [Pinnuck!]'s Mum... A place that is supposedly 'crap' according to her. A place where, yeah sure I grow up, mature, make friends, finally start making something of myself... But I could have done that in Adelaide... I don't know. I've now lived almost half my life here, so I'm quite used to it, and not really willing to leave the comfortable sunshine anytime soon... But at the same time, I have this massive ache in my heart for Adelaide. The mental torture I put myself through before, during, and after the move was insane...

So, ummm, yeah... The day after I came back from Adelaide I started my very last term of school ever. It's pretty average, ya know... All us year 12's want out and the teacher's are trying to get as much last minute learning in as possible ^.^ Except at the moment there are a fair few prac teachers and relief teachers around at the moment... I don't know who any of them are except for one Canadian lady, who gave me a headache within the first five minutes with her incredibly harsh accent! o.O

So I just finished Day 2 of Term 4, so there's not many stories to tell as yet... Except that [Riot!] is still currently on holiday in Thailand and I hate him very much for having pictures with tigers! :P Bitch better get me a good present to make me forgive you! ^.^ I'm kidding of course. I am not materialistic!

Just thought I'd let you guys know that at the end of the paragraph just above I had written 2,124 words. This is the equivalent that I have to write for my ExtEng assignment, except, I only have half for it so far and it's due Friday... Hmm... Then again, this is a lot easier to write ^.^


I have not much left to say now that I have caught y'all up, and besides, I'm sure you're all asleep reading this now! Ehehehe.


~We are broken, what must we do to restore~