So today my mother decided to remind me of a situation that is most likely going to cause a lot of worry and possibly (but hopefully not) regret...
I'm talking about the event that all Year Twelves receive in the holidays after sitting the test that decides the rest of our lives... The formal.
I've barely been single for two weeks, yet I'm already beginning to feel stressed out about things that are related to being in a relationship... I mean... [Carl] has pretty much already told me that he wouldn't like it if I kissed, let alone date, another guy... Even though five minutes before he told me that; he was telling me that he had playing spin the bottle with 3 girls the night before... This started out with cheeks, then it led to the girls kissing him on the lips and each other on the cheek...
What if I wasn't keen on the idea of him kissing other girls? Well, it clearly doesn't matter because he can go off and do whatever, while telling me what he doesn't want me to do... Basically talking his way into getting me to do what he does, or doesn't, want... He does this a lot; and I'm over it.
In all honesty, I don't care what [Carl] does, because we're both single people who can do whatever they want without having to worry about what the other one thinks or how they'll react. But the irony of that situation made me laugh, yet also get extremely annoyed... After all, he did pretty much say I can't date anyone because he won't like it...
So yeah, back to the issue regarding the formal...
I don't know whether or not I will have a boyfriend by then... If I do, then I will most likely be taking him... But if I don't there could be a major problem...
I could still take [Carl], because we are still good friends; but I know from experience with previous events that it may not end well... Or I could go by myself, but risk being unhappy with the fact that I was dateless on my own formal night... Some girls are okay with this, but I'm not... Of course I wouldn't be alone... I have my amazing group of friends! :) I guess I just love the idea of heading out to the dance floor with my date and slow dancing to at least one song... Even though I could do this with one of my girl friends; or even one of my guy friends; I guess I'll just feel as though it isn't quite the same... Plus the fact that I have a feeling my friends and I wouldn't take the slow dance very seriously... :P
I guess I just want the perfect night... Though I don't know one girl who doesn't! The fact that there is also a timeline to decide who (if) I'm going to go with also puts more pressure on me than I'd prefer...
Well, I was intending to vent a lot more on this topic... But when it comes to blogging there's always a million things I want to say and only 100 of them actually get onto the page... So I shall finish it here... For now.
~This gift, or this curse, I have inside... Maybe at last I'll know why~
3 comments:
Aww Jade! =[
I'll always be here for you! Things will work out, trust me. :)
Don't stress, there's no benefit in it.
You should talk to [Carl] if you feel uncomfortable about the issue.
Just, hang on there babe!
I loves you! You can go with me to the formal. :D
:) Tuo you always know what to say!
I shall take your advice!
I love you too! But aren't you going with your boyfriend? Hahaha
:D
Always here for you! If you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me. :)
DO NOT STRESS. :) There's no point.
Just talk to people about it, take their advice, take it slow and things shall resolve themselves. :)
Umm. It's called a threesome? One hot threesome, too. ;D
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