The title of this post is a line in a song from the most amazing musical that could possibly exist (at least in my opinion...); this musical would be called WICKED. If you have had the opportunity to read blog posts written by my dear friends [Phantomess] and/or [Clearly Unfocused] then I am sure you would have read a couple of blogs dedicated to WICKED already. Anyways, this particular song struck a chord in my heart, particularly with that line. I still feel quite confused and lost at times walking around my school campus. Just little things such as continually looking up to where his lockers are where you're used to sometimes seeing his head above the wall, or walking along the hill... It's not like I accomplish much if I do see him. All that happens is that I feel awkward or I start freaking out about whether or not I should approach him and what everyone must think about us... I mean, we've broken up but we're still spending some time together. Though I certainly didn't want to end things badly and not see him at all because I would've most likely gone into shock after having two years of direct contact to go to absolutely none at all! Yes, I am happy with the way things currently are. It's a little awkward at times, but I know things will become a lot easier after time. :)
Anyways, back to the initial topic of this blog. Today, I was looking at different volunteer experiences that are available for school leavers to do during what's known as the gap year. (For those of you who don't know, a gap year is the time between leaving school and beginning tertiary studies such as University). Most of them were about going to an orphanage and helping out there, or helping to build a place for children to learn, or having the opportunity to teach children the English language for (on average) 3-6 months.
None of these really interested me... I have always wanted to do something with animals and I highly doubt anything is ever going to change my mind. But I did find one that caught my interest. Unfortunately my memory is terrible so I can't remember what the experience entails exactly or what I typed into Google to find it! I just remember it was somewhere in Africa and it involved lions... Which is one of the big cats which are my favourite animals of ALL time so of course I want that kind of experience! :D
It does cost a fair amount, but if I get a job relatively quickly I could probably raise enough funds to cover at least most of it with the possibility of my parents chipping in some...
I just love the idea of being in Africa so close to such gorgeous animals... This is the vision that came to me! Me, in the future, in close proximity to lions. Sometimes I imagine me actually touching them, stroking their fur with my hands, admiring every inch... And then sometimes it switches to just a safe distance... Because unfortunately, they are incredibly dangerous pussy cats so I may never get the chance to physically touch them... (Sadness!)
Either way... I feel like the happiest person in the world! I could never get that sort of feeling with anything else in the world... Just daydreaming about it makes me feel so elated and happy; I can't imagine what I'll be like when I do actually get the chance to do it... I just know it'll be absolutely amazing! :)
To have such an opportunity would also be great just to relax... School would be over for good by then! I'll be at an independent age, and I may have absolutely no idea what I'm going to study at Uni... The gap year will give me a chance to get a real taste of life, while clearing my mind from any stresses or worries to give me time to think... To think about anything! When I come home from that trip, I want to be a changed person... For the better of course! But I want to know what I want with my life, and how I'm going to go about getting there.
Hopefully everything will work themselves out for the better and my future is filled with those visions I have... Even if there's just the one I'll be insanely happy for the rest of my life! :)
~With some fine tuning, these notes will be playing a beautiful melody once more~
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