Hold On Be Strong

"Can you feel this magic in the air? It must have been the way you kissed me..."


Oh, sorry ^.^ Please don't flatter yourself and think I was referring to you, because I wasn't. I was just listening to Taylor Swift and though, hmm I'm gonna blog, and next thing I know that's my first line. Besides, half the people who read this blog would be a little weirded out if I kissed them... So would I...


Stuff you Blogger for not thinking 'weirded' is a word >.< Wait but it accepts the second one? Asdfghjkl!


Today I travelled the painfully long hour to Gatton to attend the Open Day for the University of Queensland. My first thought? It smells here... Literally. All I could smell at first was the lovely scent of horse and cow manure. I was like, and this is where I'm going for Uni... Ha! But thankfully, the equine and bovine precincts are a fair distance from the main area with the accommodation I may or may not be living in next year... Or the year after? Ugh I hate money >.< Anyways. Another thought I had was "Holy moly, I think this place could even be bigger than the St Lucia campus!" Which is scary... The major difference between St Lucia and Gatton though is St Lucia looks more scarier which the tall, modern, fancy buildings. Gatton is way more laid back. Literally. Most of the buildings look kinda old on the outside, but new on the inside. The atmosphere is relaxing though, which was good for me considering I went round on my own for half the day. Yeah, my family ditched me... >.<


People were walking round with dogs and everything! I think one chick had a baby pig wrapped up in a blanket and was walking round... I have fallen in love with the place. It's my kinda place, ya feel me? Jokes... But seriously. UQ Gatton = Love.


EXCEPT! The sessions they held today. I went to the Vet Science one really keen to get some info... All they gave me was stuff I heard before. I was like, =.= I am at Gatton, the home of animals, agriculture and the like; and the best you can give me is "This is what you'd do in the first year, second year, etc. And this is what you can do once you finish it." I don't know what more I wanted... But everything I was told today, I'd already heard at least once before... Ughhh >.< I ended up not going to the last session and headed home... Good timing though because the rest of my family came back and looked ready to kill each other and go home... Family love FTW guise.


I don't know. I liked but didn't like Gatton at the same time. I'm not entirely sure what it is. Maybe it's the fact that after today I am slightly re-questioning AGAIN What I am going to do. Ugh. There are so many things to work out. The two courses I want to do would mean I would spend at least 9 years in University. If I want to complete them both. This means lotsa $$$. And I don't exactly have money growing out of trees or anything... But I badly want to do them both! Vet Science I have wanted to do my whole life, and the other one (Dual degree of Agribusiness and Applied Science) is a course I am going to use to get there. If I get a GPA of at least 6.0 after my first year in the dual, I can get into Vet Science straight away. But, who knows if I get in that course and fall in love and want to finish it? Not to mention the Asia trip in the fourth year :3 But I try not to base my biased decisions on that... Heh.


The main issue with all of this is my parents. I swear, they are what makes it so freakin' tough going to University. I am currently unemployed, and am seeking out jobs like there's no tomorrow. None of them are taking me. I'm sure [Tenuto Tuo] would agree with me here when I say that it makes it hard trying to do what you want to do and love, only to have your parents say otherwise. I mean, my parents are all for me doing what I want... To an extent. And that extent is money. Which is great! Cause you know, I'm not perfectly capable of paying off my HECS fee once I get a job...


But whatever! Right?
I can't be bothered to go any further into that right now so I'll just move on...


[Riot!] gave me some more songs from the band, Paramore, and I am just gonna say that I hate him for it! I am kidding of course... I just feel like I'm starting to betray my beloved Europop music by listening to a couple of Paramore's songs, that I have fallen in love with, on repeat... I mean, I'll always be loyal to Luan Santana, Darin and Eric Saade; but it's not helpful when you have your best friend trying to convert you to the music he likes... ^.^ Heh, maybe I should reverse the situations... Try Europop on for size [Riot!] ;P


Oh yeah, and guyz my throat is still being a bitch to me >.< Whenever I feel like recording a video to put on Facebook my throat goes "Hahaha no bitch, I'ma make you burn now". This. Sucks.


I have my last ever Athletics Carnival this Friday... I was anticipating this day for an entire year. Being in Year 12 means I can dress up, which is always good fun! But as the day came closer I realised I had no $$ to get a anything that could resemble a costume of some form; and there's also the fact that my life is currently a soap opera whereby I can't hang out with one friend because another will be there. This will also happen on my last ever Night of Celebration so I am so psyched right now about everything! =.= Seriously.


QCS is the week after this one... I'm not overly worried about it. I mean, I'm gonna try my best but in the end what's it going to achieve? I have the rest of the year level who could potentially bring me down, as well as my pretty sucky grades. I'm going to be aiming for an A in the test, but I would happily settle for a B. If I aim for a B then I'll end up getting a C which is definitely not good...
According to [Tenuto Tuo]'s OP calculator thing, if I get a B on the QCS with the current grades I have then I will most likely be looking at an OP 8. It's not as great as I would've expected I could have achieved in years 8 or 9; but in year 12 that's pretty damn good to me! It's a single digit, what's more to love?

Ever been young and naïve and wished for things? Could be anything really... But then you get what you want... Potentially even more, and all of a sudden you realise how much you don't want it. Yeah. I'm going through a major case of that right now. I don't want to go into details. I mean, if you are a devoted reader you could potentially already know the very basics of it. But that's as far as I've divulged into this topic. It is way too personal and complicated to be put on here. I'd never know where to start anyway.

Well, I wanted this to be a positive blog, but I guess nothing turns the way you expect it...

I shall leave you all here until next time fellow amigos.

Oh and please ignore the random colouring of today's blog. Blogger decided to play games with me. >.<

~Love can be hard sometimes~

Hey There Mini Me!

So the latest RAVE lesson was about memories, and it has spurred my friends into writing a letter to their Year 8 self. This has now made me incredibly sentimental and wanting to write one as well... So here goes!

 Dear Jayde,

Yes, because I am you, I know about your obsession with this spelling of our name. Let me tell you now; you eventually grow out of that. You will find a nickname in the end of Year 11 that ends up on your school jersey, and you fall in love with it.

It has been just over two years since you have moved from Adelaide to Queensland and you still hurt bitterly... Believe me when I say that you have to move on. Time flies so quickly, and by Year 12 you will have almost completely forgotten what it was like living in Adelaide as your whole life is now in Queensland.
Don't get me wrong, you still miss and love your best girl friend, though you don't really talk to each other for awhile due to the long distance. But in Year 12 you start growing closer again, and (currently) am planning 18th birthday parties with each other and planning to go to the Melbourne Cup when you are both 18!

Which then would answer another of your questions I am sure you would ask when reading this... Yes, you still adore animals. To pieces! I will warn you that you do go through a tough time in Year 11 where you truly feel as though as you are living life for nothing because you can't get the OP to be a Vet, and there are no other careers out there for you. Yeah, it's nasty, but you make it through! Stronger than ever!

Right now, you are probably singing some Kasey Chambers song to yourself while reading this... Sorry to break it to you, but you do grow off of that kind of music. You still listen to it every now and again and love it as much as always... But you will meet someone this year who will change your music tastes forever.

Your insecurities about your singing voice will continue to plague you. Unfortunately, the feeling of inadequacy never entirely goes away due to so many reasons... But just know that sometime in Year 12, you will feel the best you have ever felt about your voice. It will be short lived, but it will happen, and it will make you feel incredible.

So you are playing Percussion this year with your teacher, Mr Keating. You chose it because it is the easiest to do, and you are not interested at all in learning an instrument... Well, I shall tell you now that in Year 11 this also changes. Influential friends unknowingly encourage you to take on an instrument you fall in love with as soon as you see it lying in it's case. Before even playing it!

Now, by the end of this year you will have your first, true boyfriend. I say this, because all other guys you have 'dated' so far lasted less than a month, and all did it for the dare... Anywho, you and this future guy will be together for nine months and it doesn't end the way you prefer it... This will hurt you a lot, but it is because of this that you learn how to create 'walls' so as you can't get hurt that way again. Or so at least, you can deal with it better. This ability becomes a blessing, but a curse in the future...

Just letting you know, you and future guy do become friends again at one point where you make a big mistake; then you fade out of each other's lives... It's not as depressing as you think. In fact, you barely even notice.

A lot happens this year. Right now, you are thinking that once you are out of school you will become a hermit living by herself in the mountains surrounded by wild animals... As lonely, but awesome this sounds; you will find out sometime in the future that this won't be the case at all. In this year alone, you will form friendships with people who, at first you will take for granted, but very quickly become one of the most important things in your life that you can't live without.


Remember that tall, skinny guy who invited you to sit with him and his larger friend one lunchtime this year just gone because you were on your own? The one who sings Christmas Carols all year round and loves all things history? Well he becomes a good friend over the next few years. Especially in Year 12. He will bring a smile to your face in an instant and you will adore him for it.


As for his larger friend? Yeah, I'm not entirely sure, but you never quite get get to liking him. Especially at the end of Year 11 in a situation with leadership positions... But yeah, all I can say with that is, don't try to get yourself into his good books; because in the end isn't worth it.


Oh, and you will also have met a short, shy, brunette this year. This one is a keeper. Don't you dare take her for granted, as she soon becomes one of your closest of friends. Especially in Physics. Yes, you will do Physics in Year 11 and 12. At the moment it doesn't seem that bad, electric currents and all that. It's pretty darn easy. Trust me, you will have a heart attack in Year 11. No joke.


Oh and you know how Biology is your favourite Science right now? It won't be in a few years... Morris, your favourite teacher currently, will soon become the devil before your very eyes, and going to Biology will bore you to death. Fair warning here.


Instead, your favourite Science becomes Chemistry. You will adore it with all you have because you understand it so well, and you are so interested in it! Physics comes a close second only because the challenge (though it sucks) somehow keeps you interested. And it's always good fun joking around with your brunette buddy, or zoning out with her then totally acing the questions (yeah, you become awesome like that).


This year you will meet some people. And these people are going to change your life forever. Literally.


One of the first people you will become acquainted with will be a strange, pale girl. Believe it or not, you too get married in the future. Not literally of course! I can definitely tell you that your sexual orientation stays exactly where it is. But you and the pale girl become incredibly close friends and this leads to a two-minute wedding ceremony on a beach while on a camp for Biology. As strange as this is to you now, you will be completely fine with it and totally understand once you are in Year 11.


You will also meet a pale male (YAY for rhyming right?) who annoy you to death when you first meet him. Actually he annoys you excessively until about Year 11. He's still just as annoying, but you become better friends, so it's more in jest than annoyance. Year 12 is when you build an unexpectedly close bond with him. Of course, with his personality you will never truly know how he feels, but you will hope that he feels the same. He shows you this T.V. show in Year 12 that you fall in love with after the first episode; so what's not to like about this one?


A tall awkward boy will also cross your path. This boy has the same thing you do, Asperger's. You two become friends, but are always kind of iffy around each other, possibly because you never know what to say. In Year 12 he saves your laptop though, which means he's definitely a keeper! :P He is a very good friend to have around.


You will also meet a shy Asian guy. Now this guy is definitely a keeper. Not kidding. You too become so close and share so much with each other you will struggle knowing how on earth you could live without him.  He is the reason why your music taste changes and he will become the one you can rely on to tell anything too, and vice versa. Don't you dare take this one for granted! EVER!


This year you will do some crazy and fun things. To tell you what those are would ruin it for you. But I will mention that there is a murder mystery in there somewhere... As well as some art work that you will find frustrating, but fall in love with at the same time. Oh! And you will also get a Prep buddy! No joke, this will absolutely make your idea, and you will fall in love... Unconditionally. But unfortunately, as all kids do, eventually she grows up and begins to forget you... Sadness...


After all this, all I can say is have fun. Looking back at the year you are about to go into now, when in Year 12. It seems so far away, yet time has passed so quickly. Don't take what you get for granted. And try not to make too many rash decisions. The amount of hot water you get yourself into over the next few years is insane! >.<


From your friendly neighbourhood future self.


~I kinda really want my Year 8 self to read this now...~

You Must Be Miseducated...

Well hi there! Yes it has been a while... Blame school mmkay???


Hmmm where to start catching you up... Well last time I blogged I was on vocal rest with One coming up the next week.


Well I think it's obvious to say that I am now off of vocal rest, and One finally over... (Hells to the yeah!).


I still detest it extremely, but it must have been somewhat good if my Mum preferred it over The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe which was the school's musical two years ago... I was quite impressed with my solo actually. Every single time I sang The Call before the performances; I sucked. Literally. I hated the song so much! But for some reason, when on stage, I just got into the zone and was being praised by all backstage afterwards all three performances! Even the Saturday matinee where my throat felt like it was on fire and I was straining to get the notes out correctly... But hey! I did it! So WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :3


Okays, so since then my throat has been playing games with me... Before One it had recovered a fair amount, during One it broke down again, afterwards it started recovering, but as of last night into today it is being a bitch again. >.< To be fair, my entire body is playing games with me currently... But is incredibly annoying not being able to sing full blast like I used too... I hate how Laryngitis affects your throat so badly I literally have to re-train my voice to be able to hit notes like I used too... Like, seriously? WHAAAA?!?!?! That's around 15 years of singing down the drain... :/


On the positive side... I HANDED IN MY LAST MATHS ASSIGNMENT EVER TODAY! WOOOOOOOOOOOO! So pumped guyz!


How did we Maths B kids celebrate? Our teacher brings in donuts, lamingtons and cake thingies, and we sit around; eating and talking; for an hour... I love my teacher ^.^

One interesting thing was brought up in our celebratory chat though... And that was to do with a teacher by the name of [Liebenburg] who took over temporarily (till she was kicked out heh) while our actual teacher went on maternity leave. Now. This teacher? Was a bitch. She called an Asian student stupid to her face, and another student a fat slut... Also to her face. She also belittled us with certificates awarding us for being able to light a Bunsen-Burner correctly (YAY us!).
It turns out (according to my Maths teacher) that after [Liebenburg] left, [Maths] found a stack of hand-written letters from [Liebenburg] each individually addressed to each of us students in that class. The content of those letters were so bad that [Maths] was horrified and burned them to save us from having to read them (we were in Year 7 at the time).


All of our reactions (except those who weren't there in Year 7) can be summed up with a :O emoticon... And all of us pretty much immediately started whining that we couldn't read the letters... I mean, I'm sure if I'd read that in Year 7 my little innocent self would have been shattered! But if [Maths] had saved them till now... 5 years from then! I would have laughed my head off reading it! I am burning to know what she wrote in those letters! Unfortunately [Maths] can only remember a part that said "you could do so much better with your life if you got off your ass and worked" or something like that; which is incredibly flattering of her.


Moving on! A random thing I just remembered while on stage performing One. There were Chinese dance performances from the Year 1's and 2's. It was incredibly basic and the lines would switch every minute or so for the adoring parents in the audience who want to see their child dance front row.
Me, acting as the Mum of the family attending the picnic, and my 'husband' [Carl] had to sit on stage for the first half of Act One watching these and other performances. I noticed in these particular dances though that every time the lines would change; the little girls who were coming from the front line to the back, where we were, would look at me and give me the most adorable smiles and I could tell that they were so proud of themselves. I never got bored of them in all three performances because of this. The dance moves were so easy, but come on they're Year 1 and 2! What I looked forward to was the warm feeling I got whenever they looked at me with those shy little grins of theirs. I lost count how many times those adorable girls made me smile!


Ahem, moving on...


Currently, in Senior Symphonic band, we are learning Excerpts from the Firebird and Towards The Western Horizon. TTWH is a bitch of a song! I mean, I love the tune; it's catchy. But playing it? Ugh. Especially when I'm all on my own on Clarinet 3. I mean, Clarinet 3 is good, because you're the bottom so tend to get away with screwing up more cause the conductor has more important parts to focus on. But being Clarinet 3 means that I play both the main melody, and then random parts of the bass line... Switching between these can at times be confusing (at least for me... But I'm a noob guys so leave me alone!) and so I usually end up just sitting there with my Clari in my mouth; no sound being produced, just a puzzled look on my face and "WTF!?!?!?!" going over and over in my mind... Yeah, I love band rehearsals ^.^


In my RAVE lesson yesterday, our teacher told us to write down our best memory from Year 8, worst from Year 9 or 10, and something important we learnt in Year 11. Naturally this ended up in the entire class sitting in a circle talking about all the memories we've had... I found it irritating that I could barely remember anything until someone mentioned a memory. I always have [Clearly Unfocused], [Tenuto Tuo], [GoJo], and [Phantomess] saying things like "OMG! Remember when we did this?!?! It was Year 8." and most of the time I'm like ".......Noooo....???". On the rare occassion I do remember, but most of the time I don't.


The strange thing is that I remember my primary years (in Adelaide) better than my high school years (BrisVegas). Which I don't get, considering I have had so many more worthwhile memories with my amazing friends that I didn't have down in Adelaide... When our teacher asked us to write down one memory from primary school my head was abuzz with memories, but when he asked us to say what was the best thing about Year 8, I couldn't remember a single memory!


Of course, I can now remember a few things, but that's only because we went around the class and people read out their memories which a few applied to me also.
Oh well, I just hope that in the future I can retain enough memories from my school life that I can look back and reminisce on.


Well... I'm impressed with how much crap I've come up with in pieces over the past three and a half hours... But I am still feeling quite sick and rundown, so I shall end my blog post here... If there are any grammar errors in this, you can deal with it because I am too tired to do a grammar check :P


~60 school days left!~

It Hurts!

So I was a good girl for half a week... LOL JOKES! I've only managed to shut up for one day out of the first week of vocal rest. Today I tried a bit of singing in Chamber Singer rehearsal and I sounded terrible, and when I called my Nanna up five minutes ago to wish her a happy birthday she said "Do you have a cold?". It's good to know my vocal chords are THAT bad! =.=


I am so worried about One... I really want my voice to have recovered by then, but even then, I have this nasty feeling my voice won't recover properly in time to produce the sound I want too! :S My very first solo, the moment I've been waiting for, and I go and screw up my vocal chords... /Facepalm/


So ummm... I broke up with [Riot!] yesterday... At least, I'm pretty sure I did. I mean... I gave him a note (considering I shouldn't be talking), and he hasn't come near me since... :/


This sucks. I mean... I did break up with him, but I have my reasons. And those are that we seemed to be better as friends! I guess things just weren't the same when we started going out... And because I've been spoilt with previous boyfriends, I tend to expect way too much now! Which is a horrible thing to do, because look at where it's gotten me! =.=


Don't get me wrong, I still adore [Riot!] and so badly want to stay friends with him; but I realise that I've probably lost him for good now... Which hurts, it really does. He means a lot to me! And we've been through a lot together...


Okay, if none of you completely understood what I just ranted on about here it is in simple terms.


Went out with [Riot!] -> Realised that we just weren't meant to be more than friends -> Broke up with him -> Still want to be friends, but he doesn't even want to talk -> =/


On a more positive note, my dog Beau is the most adorable, goofball ever! ^.^


I swear he knows exactly when I'm feeling down, and comes running in with a stupid grin on his face and jumps all over and is all "I love you [Miss Invisible]! Do you love me? Love me! Love ME! Heheheh, that feels good, keep patting me... Don't stop! What the heck!?!?!"


Yeah. I loves my Beau ^.^


Ahem, anyways... I had a job interview at McDonald's this afternoon... I failed epically ^.^ It was quite funny. I completely froze on a question that is asked by every single freaking hiring manager... I told myself potential answers throughout the day, and still managed to have a complete mind blank! =.= Oh and she was all, we're going to go to the drive-thru so I can see how you go about serving customers etc. Something along those lines. I can't remember because I was too busy trying not to laugh at this woman's facial expression when she drives up to the window to see, not someone in a Macca's uniform, but some random chick in her school uniform... :P I love the hiring manager though because she was all "Aaaaaand now we run away before we get stuck with 10 cars at the drive-thru" and proceeds to literally run away from the window back to where the original interview was left.


LOLZ.


So um yeah, I don't know what the point of this post was. I guess I had to vent about a couple of issues... And gush over my baby, Beau ^.^


~You're out of my life, it cuts me like a knife~

Calm Down Suzie Baby...

Yesterday a group of fifteen TSAC'ers headed to the St Lucia campus of the University of Queensland... We went by, wait for it... MAXI TAXI! Because we are just that epic, word.


So anyways, my first thoughts walking into UQ went a little something like this...


$#@&!!! THIS PLACE IS MASSIVE! ZOMG I'M GONNA GET LOST HERE! I'M A LONER IN THE FIRST TWO SESSIONS WHAT THE HECK AM I GONNA DO?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!


Yeah... Turns out they had guides leading us around which was incredibly helpful! Especially my first guide... Ehehehehe... Why hello there! And what are you studying here? :P Unfortunately, I didn't have the balls to ask him... It's not like I'd be studying on that campus next year anyways (totes devo) so I'm never gonna see him again /Dramatic sigh/.


But seriously, thank goodness I'm going to go to the Gatton campus! It's gonna be smaller, which I shall find a lot better than walking around that giant of a campus! =.=


So yeah, my first session was Taste Testing As A Part Of Your Day Job which turned out to be quite fun. Our speakers were called Honest and Priscilla, and I made three new friends within five minutes! Mostly because we were put in a waiting room together with a few minutes of nothing to do... But talk! ^.^ All I recall doing is watching a couple of videos on stuffs, listen to Honest talk about burnt milk and tastebuds... I don't think there was really a point to what he was saying, but he's cool anyways! And eating chips and tim tams... Ehehe. Why else would I choose such a session up first?


Next was A Diverse Career With Animals which of course was my main one that I was hanging out for. My speaker was this really nice guy called Sky (or Skye? Eh) and he really helped me decide what I want to do! I mean, things are still a teensy bit sketchy but I'm more grounded with what I want to do...


I AM GOING TO BE A VET! Yeah, I've always wanted to be a vet, but a year or two ago I gave up that dream because an OP 1 is impossible for me to achieve. So my second choice was then a Dual Degree in Agribusiness and Applied Science (majoring in Animal Science and Wildlife Management). But while sitting that lecture, my passion for veterinary science was re-awakened and Sky kept saying how there are back doors in.


So! I have decided! I shall do the Dual Degree like I still want to do. I'm not sure if I'll go through with the whole four years, or cut it off after one (given that I get a GPA of 5.8). I only need to do one year then transfer into Vet Science, but it depends on how much I enjoy the Dual Degree... Oh and the trip to an Asian country in the fourth year is a major keeper for me ^.^


So yeah, I won't know until halfway through next year but it's all G! There's no rush...


Last was A Backstage Pass: Organising A Rock Festival. Yeah I almost fell asleep with this one... It was to do with Events Management which is more [Phantomess]'s kinda thang... I only chose it because it was the most interesting thing for me... Similar to Session 1 really.


So yeah, we got back to school after that to find that English Extension had been cancelled... HECK YEAH! I mean, gosh that sucked... ^.^ 


I was in a good mood! I got home all cheerful! I would have been singing, but I can't... Damn you vocal rest! =.= So yeah, all happy like until I got on my laptop and saw that I had a Facebook inbox from [Carl]. I flipped out. Literally! I jumped, almost screamed and ran across the room hyperventilating and death glaring the laptop. (Yes, I enjoy being melodramatic). All it said was "so hows things......" But that one sentence sent my mind into a whirlwind of confusion and stress...


I won't go into details, but the conversation ended with him requesting me at the school bubbler's this morning so he could vent his anger onto me; the object of his anger and frustration. A part of me understood that he needed to do it, another part of me was like asdfghjkl can I not go through it please? 


But of course I did. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be... For some reason I thought he would come up and slap me and start yelling profanities... Thankfully he didn't. But what he did do was remind me (for the thousandth time) what I did and how I hurt him and everything, and asking me 20 questions. Which I found irritating because he should have moved on by now... Because I had, but now he's brought me back to square one. I'm rethinking and over thinking everything again, and doubting whether I made the right decision.


I mean, I miss aspects of our relationship. How could I not? It doesn't exactly help when I'm now with someone who hasn't had a girlfriend before me... Not that I'm blaming him, it's clearly not his fault! I guess the adjustment is really taking it's toll... To the point where I'm unsure what I want. I seem to have difficulties when it comes to things like this... =.= I never know what I have till it's gone; and I guess I'm one of those people where if I want something, I'll go after it, but once I have it I want something else... Then I get whatever that is but miss what I used to have. I'm so messed up right now, I have no idea what I'm going to do...


Ahem, moving on... This afternoon at school the year 12's were told we had this QCS practice thingy... SO we head in and there's this guy... My first honest thought when I first saw him and heard him speak? 'He's  a fuddy duddy snob who could be gay..." But no, he's married... But the snob part is correct. He was insulting pretty much every school except for Brisbane Girls because they're the top or something... He was incredibly over-the-top and (personally) he tended to use wrong tone of voice in situations... At one point he said "there's always one stupid ranga" referring to a guy in my class; and continued to refer to him as Ranga for half the time until he decided it was worth learning his name.


The title is one line I distinctly remember him saying... Suzie is his wife... Yeah, the way he said that line was quite creepy... As well as him saying at least twice, can you pee? Referring to the PEEL paragraphing technique... It was just weird. Just weird. I don't feel sorry for the year 11's (potentially year 10 and onwards too?) who will be getting him more next year. Heh.


So this fine evening what am I doing? Well... Facebook, iTunes and Blogger really. That's how much of a life I have! :P But I am hoping I can plan an outing with someone to go see the last Harry Potter movie this weekend, as well as go to an Expo. I guess homework fits in there somewhere ^.^


~I've been there, I thought she was the one, until I realised that she was gone...~

Can You Seriously Be Any More Immature?

Today was the first day of the third term at my school... And wow did I have mixed feelings all day! Like a yo-yo. Literally.

Okay, my day started at 6am (ew) so I could get to school at 7:10am because the Symphonic band was supposed to perform in the Assembly and that was the latest I could get there to ensure I was on time for the pre-show rehearsal. Turned out there was no Assembly. Oh that's cool! Just wake me up early for no damn reason! =.=

First up I had a Spare lesson. Yay for spares at the very start of a term so I can do no work! :D So yeah, I ended up chillbanging with ma peeps that lesson... We mostly checked out the Uni courses we're currently considering and looked at a couple of our assessment items coming up this term (depressingly).

English was supposed to be next but instead we had a guy called Adam (nickname - Dipper - see [GoJo], at least I can remember his name! ;P) from Elevate Education talking to us about new methods of memorising info... I don't know about everyone else, but all I can remember is a knight in shining armour resuscitating me and men - snake... Hehehehehehe good times giggling with [GoJo] about that one! ^.^

Morning Tea was good because I got to spend it with friends (FINALLY!). Well... It WAS good... Up until the last couple of minutes where I went to go ask [That Dancer Chick] is choir was definitely on this afternoon... She, as well as [Italy!] and another of her friends were sitting with [Carl]. I started talking to [TDC], but felt the cold shoulder from [Carl] the entire time... And by that I mean he was turned in the complete opposite direction of me and didn't say a word. The only time he spoke was after he looked at his watch. He then said "Well it's class time we better go" then left faster than I've seen anyone leave for a while...

This hurt me. I mean, I get that he's not the biggest fan of me at the moment, and I don't expect him to be! But the fact that he couldn't even face me. (FACE ME LIKE A MAN!) <- Pretty sure that was what I was thinking the entire time... It's childish really. Utterly childish. After two years of being together he can't even acknowledge that I exist. This shocks me to the point that it kinda hurts... Oh, but it makes me kinda laugh at the same time because it's so immature! And I am going to lurrrrrve watching his "oh-so-great" acting for One... Remembering that we are 'married' in it. Let's see how he gets through that one aye?

So yeah back to my oh-so-interesting day... Maths was after the break, and for the first half I was sitting there not understanding the work, which made me feel stupid; which then made me almost begin crying in class. (Yeah I was emotional today guyz, no idea why). But then I started to get it which made me feel better... But still gotta long way to go!

Chemistry followed which was uneventful... Though we're learning about drugs this term! ;) Ehehehe... Sadly, it's the organic kind... /Sigh/ First they don't let us have alcohol when learning about it last term, and now they won't let us learn about the real stuff! :P I keed, I keed...

Lunch was spent with [Riot!] talking about how his English teacher asked if he knew what love felt like, as a teenager... This was followed by him saying "and not with your hands"... I wasn't there, but all I can say is... LOL! Gotta love the teachers at our school... ^.^ So yeah, I think that's the only thing I can remember from Lunch... :P

Physics was okay, we watched YouTube. It was educational mmkay? It was about Nuclear Fusion... Or something. I lost focus after a while... Mainly near the end when [Clearly Unfocused] and I were telling [nath_alex01] off for being racist against the physicist in the video...

After school was spent singing at Choir. It was going fairly well up until my voice decided to go "HAHA JOKES! I'ma play games wit chu". Which is understandable... I have had a sore throat for about three months now, but it's hard to get rid of it when I have vocal groups as well as my One solo demanding my voice... I went to the doctor's (again) this afternoon. I went a couple of weeks ago and was given antibiotics. Today she told me that last time I had a 'bite' of Laryngitis, but this time there isn't anything really wrong. So we came to the conclusion that I've just strained my voice by continuing to sing and talk excessively more than I should have been... Which I agree! I've cut back my singing, but I still sing more than I should... So now I am going on complete vocal rest for the next couple of weeks so /hopefully/ my voice will have recovered in time for my solo performance! (Literally I think I will have just under a week to practice once my rest ends...)

Yeah... I'm already irritated at the fact that I can't sing and it's been four hours... This is going to be fun! =.=

~There goes phone calls with the best friend...~

Festivale!

Yesterday (after goodness how long I've been waiting) I went to go see the Abbey Medieval Festival.


Oh. My. Gosh.


There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that I will go next year!!! It is absolutely amazing! I can't begin to describe it! x3

Umm well to start with? The atmosphere! You can tell that everyone there (apart from maybe the bratty kids, but they're always like that) wanted to be there and was interested in what was there... And some of the costumes were awesome!!! There were some where it was like "Woah, bitch please... Put that away". Well maybe not quite that bad :P But there were also some where I was like ":O I can haz? Now?"


There was a jousting championship being held throughout the day and I watched the first session. There were two guys and a girl from Poland, and a girl from NSW, Australia... Let's just say I was going for the Aussie :3 She got through as well as one of the Polish guys, but I don't know who won the final championship thingy at the end of the day, because I would have been somewhere else...


One of the main reasons I went was to see [Riot!] fence; as well as hunt for a birthday present for him... Let's just say the hunt was fruitless =.= Must he be so annoying to buy for?!?!?! Maybe he wouldn't be so annoying if he weren't buying things throughout the day, leaving me with less options... Ugh. But I wasn't thinking about that when he was actually fencing... :3


What!?!? Don't tell me you wouldn't be distracted if you're boyfriend (ignore this next bit if you're a straight male) was fencing (you know, like fighting with a sword) in an outfit that's not too shabby... Ehehehe ^.^ Oh? I'm the only one? Eh, whatever... I like me some eye candy ^.^ Okay, I'm gonna shut up now...


LOL JOKES! I still have shiz to talk about :3 LOL at your life readers!


Ahem. Anyways... [Riot!] showed me around to a few stalls and one of the jewellery ones caught my eye... So what did I do? Well... After 10 minutes of having a mental battle over two similar necklaces I wanted which were both pentagrams, I chose one with... A fairy! Damn straight!


Shut up... I love fairies!!! For as long as I can remember I've always had an interest in them... I even have a collection of fairy figurines I used to play with... But I don't collect them anymore! Pfft, that would be just childish... :P Though I will admit some still catch my eye every now and again /Facepalm/ I really need to grow up...

So anyways, this fairy is silver with a gold dress, and gold shoes and hair. It's a kinda chunky sort of necklace with a long chain. Both of those aspects I normally hate on a necklace, but this one is different somehow. Ever since I bought it, I've kinda fallen in love with it :3 I didn't even want to take it off last night when I went to go to sleep! I did though, because I don't want to break it or anything... I could even go as far as saying I honestly feel as though I am wearing a guardian angel type thing around my neck... I have no idea how or why! I bought this necklace yesterday... The initial reason behind it was to stop the pentagram quarrel with myself... Now I can't see me wearing anything else! :P

Ahem, I really should move on... Gypsies! Yeah there were gypsies at Abbey. Not that I necessarily believe in what they believe in, but I found their dresses and jewelerry pretty, and what they slept in was small, but cute and quaint. Not that you'd catch me in them... No power points or internet!?!? Schhh no thank you!


Oh and there were at least to women walking around on stilts dressed as tree nymphs... They were pretty! :3


There was also some cannon thing going off every now and again... Sometimes I'd be all "Yeah, I didn't jump... WIN!" Then other times (like when we were unaware we were 30m away from the thing) I'd be like /Jumps/ "Ahhh! What the heck!?!?!" much to [Riot!]'s amusement I'm sure... :P


On a random tangent, I slept over [That Dancer Chick]'s house last night and met her Italian exchange student who is to be staying in Oz for the next 6 months... I shall call her [Italy!] (inspired I know, but don't judge me. I'm tired.) and she's really nice! :) She knows a fair amount of English, though every now and again [TDC] and I were left doing hand signals and trying to explain what some words were to her. I had a look through her Italian-English dictionary and attempted to learn some words, though the constant correction of pronunciation from [Italy!] reminded me that I really suck at learning other languages... :P I'm sure if I truly put my heart in it I could, but that's the problem... Which language do I want to learn more!?!?! D:


Anywho, I told her that if she [TDC] was ever away or unable to be found, she could always come hang with me! (If my friends have an issue with this, which I'm sure they wouldn't, they can stick it hehe).


Anyways, dinner is ready and I am starving!!! Om nom nom... Until next time! :D


~You're gonna be pop-u-who-lur...~

89 Truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Water... Cause I'm awesome like that!
2. Last phone call: To my dearest mother giving her the ingredients for tonight's dinner...
3. Last text message: [Riot!].
4. Last song you listened to: Quad City Stomp. Which would be playing as I type.
5. Last time you cried: I almost cried while watching Tangled with [That Dancer Chick]. But I can't remember the last time I actually cried...

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone: Why yes.
7. Been cheated on: Yes to that too.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yis.
9. Lost someone special: Massive yes to this one. Referring to recent tales.
10. Been depressed: Yes... Those were dark times...
11. Been so drunk you threw up: Yeah totally...


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Jade Green.

13. Sky Blue.

14. Most other blues too come to think of it! :3

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU-(2011):

15. Made a new friend?: Yes.
16. Fallen out of love?: No.
17. Laughed until you cried? Yes, mostly with [That Dancer Chick]. :P
18. Met someone who changed you? Not so far this year I don't think... Not majorly anyway.
19. Found out who your true friends were? Pfft. I found that out years ago ^.^
20. Found out someone was talking about you? Oh yes... What with recent rumours flying round about me with the whole [Carl] situation... Yes, I've heard lovely things.
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list?: Why yes.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life: Actually pretty much all of my Facebook friends I have met at one point or other in real life! I only have less than 10 people who I've never met before...
3. Do you have any pets: Yes. Three dogs; Chelsea, Max and Beau. We did have a bird called Alex but he flew away after Mum forgot he was still in the cage while cleaning it outside. Yeah smart Mum! :P Oh well, it was my sister's bird and it annoyed me...
25. What time did you wake up today: Around 11am. Damn I love holidays! :D
26. What were you doing at midnight last night: Playing Solitaire on my phone...
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for: QCS to be over! And the formal! And graduating so I can get the heck out of school! :3 Oh and to go on The Amazing Race with [TenutoTuo] hehe...
28. Last time you saw your Mother: About quarter of an hour ago... Because she called me downstairs about something... I forget what.
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Something I don't wish to discuss on here...
30. What are you listening to right now: Stay the Night - James Blunt.
31. Have you ever talked to some one named Tom: Why yes, yes I have! At least three actually.
32. What's getting on your nerves right now: My hair. It irritates me. I need a haircut... A new colour would be nice! But I have no $$$ =/
33. Most visited web page: Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, Yahoo Mail and Google.
34. Nicknames: To mention them would potentially give away my identity... Which I refuse to do!
36. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
37. He or She: I believe I am a she.
38. Elementary? Playford Primary School.
39. Middle School? Playford Primary -> Woodcrest State College -> TSAC
40 High School?  TSAC
41. Hair Color? Gosh knows! It's multicoloured... Literally!
42. Long or short? Long.
43. Height? Short :3
44. Do you have crush on someone? Hahahaha. Pretty sure I do! ;P
45. What do you like about yourself? Ummm, I struggle answering this question.
46. Piercings? Yeah no...
47. Tattoos? Haha! No.
48. Righty or lefty? Righty.
49. First surgery: Haven't had one yet.
50. First piercing: I don't have a piercing!?!
51. First best friend: [Pinnuck!]
52. First sport you joined: Pretty sure it was Netball...

RIGHT NOW:

53. Eating: Oxygen :3
54. Drinking: Water vapour in the air.
55. I'm about to: Go and play an online game...
57. Waiting for: [Riot!] to get online! =.=
58. Want kids? Yes I do :)
59. Want to get married? Of course!
60. Career? Ugh, I don't completely know anymore... Something with animals.

WHICH IS BETTER :

61. Lips or eyes? Eyes.
62. Hugs or kisses? Hugs.
63. Shorter or taller: Taller.
64. Older or Younger?: Well... I could go either way.
65. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic.
66. Nice stomach or nice arms? What the heck!?!? Oh right never mind. Umm... I'm gonna go with both.
67. Sensitive or loud?: Sensitive.
68. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
69. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hehe. Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. Kissed a stranger: No! Though I'd love to see their face afterwards if I did :P
71. Drank hard liquor: LOL no.
72. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope, don't have them!
73. Sex on first date: Bitch please... No.
74. Broken someone's heart: Yes... But it's not like I ever wanted too!
75. Had your own heart broken: Oh yeah.
76. Turned someone down: Heh, yes.
77. Cried when someone died: Yes.
78. Fallen for a friend: Yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

79. Yourself: Not really...
80. Miracles: Yeah.
81. Love at first sight: Yes I do.
82. Santa Clause: Hells yeah!
83. Kiss on the first night: No, not really...


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

84. Had more than one bf/gf at one time: Excusez-moi? No way!
85. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes! Well there's multiple :3 Some of them are in other countries though... D;
86. Did you sing today? When do I not sing? :P
87. If you could go back in time, how far would you go and why? I would go back to around January/February when WICKED was in Bris Vegas. And I would watch it. Over, and over, and over again! :3
88. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? Oh gosh ummm... I really don't know! Actually come to think of it. I would relive the 17th of October. Why? Because that was the night of the Paramore concert I attended with [Riot!]. Good times :)
89. Are you afraid of falling in love? Well, it's a bit late to be worrying about that... :P


~Stolen from [sarahmay]~