Sunday, 7 July 2013

Mixed Dreams

Hola!
 
*Cries as I haven't been outside the country in 16 years & wishes she could use terms like that in their native countries*
 
Anywho! How y'all been? I apologise for the lateness (as usual), but I genuinely forgot that I have a blog... Awkward...
 
Exams are over, and I am currently halfway through the holidays! Woo!
 
The rest of the exams weren't overly fantastical either, with the last one involving me not really trying at all considering I had practically already failed the subject.
 
Turns out that I didn't do as badly as I thought. I passed three out of the four; the three I was hoping to pass. But I only just scraped the pass, with Biochem earning me a 1. It's pretty damn impressive getting a 1... I mean... I don't even know how I managed it, because to get a 1 is like literally not trying /at all/ and I did actually put some effort into it... I could have gotten a 2 guys, seriously...
 
However... Due to my recent results... This drags my GPA down to being an overall fail right now... And do you know what that means? I got an e-mail from the Uni saying I have a month to plead my case as to why I should be allowed to continue studying the course, before they throw me out of it. And the only way I can get back in is by pleading my little heart out...
 
So yay! At least I do have genuine reasons to provide them so... Hopefully this will just blow over, and I can continue studying, and actually screw my head on straight now. At least, here's hoping.
 
Not much else is really new, except I have another job! Subway wasn't providing me with the hours I need in order to have enough money to pay the residential fees to stay at Uni next year; so I dropped off a fair few resumes, and Coffee Club was the only one to get back to me! Which is amazing, cause the store is much closer to home and the skills that can be learned are always good to have on your resume for future jobs.
 
After a fail interview, and a mildly successful trial; I got the job! However, I haven't left Subway as of yet because... Like I said... I really need the money. So, for as long as I can handle having two jobs; that's what I'm gonna do!
 
My brother has just gone off on his first individual trip in the form of a ski trip organised by the school he goes too... And my Mum just flew off to NSW to go visit our grandparents as we recently discovered that Poppy has cancer. So the house is feeling a little empty at the moment with just us two girls and Dad... And with the sister going back to school this week, I'm basically gonna have the house to myself for the next two weeks during the day *Mischievous dance*
 
One thing that did happen at work (Subway) the other night... Was workplace harassment. And it shocked me!
 
Mostly because it was something most people might deem as insignificant, or not really anything to worry over... But when I saw the mood of my co-worker's face as I told him what happened earlier that day... It infuriated me that I didn't see it as harassment earlier and put a stop to it myself. Why didn't I? Because, like I said... I even thought it wasn't anything major. However, I quickly learnt that lesson.
 
The situation? A female co-worker, and the victim were chatting outside of work; when she found a picture of him shirtless with a towel on, on an 18+ website when he's not over 18 himself. Now... This had been done as a dare a fair while back, and I knew of this myself as he had told me during a work shift once (another reason why I didn't think much of it), but nobody had actually seen it. The female co-worker then shared the image with our assistant manager, who then shared it with me in a shared shift and tried to have a laugh about it. When the conversation turned to me telling him what had happened earlier that day... He told me that that's the reason he left his last job, and that he couldn't possibly work at Subway anymore with the thought of people having seen that image behind his back etc.
 
If anyone knows this guy... You would know that he is a generally always upbeat, silly, fun-loving guy who always brings a laugh to the workplace... So, when you have the rest of the shift filled with silence, you know something has gone down. I haven't seen anyone so despondent and unwilling to work, as he was that night... And I couldn't stop kicking myself for indirectly being a part of it. Sure, I didn't share the image myself and nor would I have. But it was the fact that I didn't see it as harassment, and verbally kicked the backside of my assistant manager who was showing me it at the time. Now? We're most likely going to lose one of our best junior employees, and will be stuck with all the newbies that none of us really enjoy working with. Just over a picture... Food for thought guys.
 
So, err... I should try bring the conversation to a lighter tone because even I'm being affected by it all over again...
 
How many of you have a dream? Like... A dream so powerful it can keep you up at night, and you feel like you're just burning with the desire to reach it. Did you have a dream, and you achieved it? How did you feel?! Different? Or did you realise that it wasn't actually a dream, just a want? What's the difference?
 
Yeah... I've had this on my mind a fair bit lately. For those who know me, it would be pretty obvious that my mind has been racing about musical theatre vs. animals... And yes, I will probably forever struggle with this. But hey... I still have the rest of my life... Right?
 
Ooh! Random side note. But I figured, since I could actually remember one for once, that I would share a dream I had with you all... So you can laugh at the craziness that is my brain, okay? Okay.
 
~I was staying in an Asian family's house to throw a big pool party for a reason I do not know, and didn't know in the dream either... All of the people I would normally invite to a party, however, weren't there. Instead, there were a lot of people I would never dream of inviting... People I've had negative experiences in the past with, or just general acquaintances that I never really talked too... But they were all happy & cheery & nice to me... I remember there were two pools; one in the backyard and one in the front.. And we all started out in the back pool with snorkels and stuff... We then went out the front of the house where there was an ice cream stall set up; so we all lined up to get some... I was at the back of the line, but when I got to the front I realised that the ice cream guy was danisnotonfire (a freaking cute as YouTuber, for those who don't know). I vaguely remember flirting a bit with him, before we ended up kissing... (Smooth [Miss Invisible]. Cheatin' on yo' boyfriend in your dream...). And then I went off to find everyone else again; who were now split across the two pools. I couldn't decide who to go with so I went inside where I heard a voice from a corner that had a small handmade fort made out of blankets. I couldn't see him, but I recognised his voice as another YouTuber (kickthepj); & we then had random conversations about things I don't remember before I realised that I had to pack up & leave soon to go home. He said that I was a really awesome person & gave me a black beanie with kickthepj written across it, & two matching gloves. Then I vaguely remember packing & trying to find danisnotonfire before I woke up...~
 
I'm fairly sure there were more details in that dream, but... Considering I remembered that much? That's an achievement guys! And [K-Dawg], I still love you even though I appear to have locked lips with my YouTube crush in my dream... Heh... >.>
 
Alright, well I think you have experienced enough of the insanity that is my mind today... And I also cannot think of anything more to write about so... Woo! Blog post endings!
 
Have fun with your life now guys ^_^
 
~Oh the taste of a poison paradise~

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