Hello Internet!
... I've been watching way too many danisnotonfire videos on YouTube. How do I know? That greeting. Totally not stolen from him... Nope! >.>
Next thing I know I'll be referencing IISuperWomanII, JennaMarbles, NigaHiga and/or all the other YouTubers I devotedly watch...
Anyways, hiiii! This past week hasn't been /overly/ eventful, though I do have a couple of things that have happened and have spurred inspiration for writing; and so, I will be blurting away tonight... This is also removing another procrastination option as I really ought to be doing my Anatomy and Ecology assignments due within a week of each other, over the next three weeks... And the Anatomy one is pretty damn big. Creating an animal is no easy task!
So, firstly... Live Below The Line is over! Finally! The last three days of the week were rather... Interesting having to deal with very little food. I got sick to the point where I would cut down even more on food so I could have a gulp or two of orange juice, or stock up on a bit of meat, just to get a bit of protein/vitamin in me to try kick the sickness as best I could. On Thursday, I had an Anatomy prac where we were looking at the digestive system of a sheep... Now... The week before we had looked at a pig, and I was completely fine with it! The smell was a bit deterring, but I was fine poking and playing with it and all that jazz. This week, the smell was nothing compared to the pig, and it wasn't much different to the week before... But this time was different... The fact that I hadn't eaten anything in four days and was ill, made dealing with the sight and smells of an animal's insides a lot more difficult. I apparently went incredibly pale, then turned a brilliant shade of green, before I left the room to stumble into the bathroom. Nothing happened! Don't worry... As soon as I left the room, I immediately felt better; but I did end up getting a fellow student to go back and grab my books for me, as I didn't want to risk walking back into the room and actually passing out or throwing up... I didn't know which one my body wanted me to do more, but I wasn't fond of either!
I found I didn't get much hunger pain during that week... Though that could be due to the illness taking most of my attention. But I did find a lot of fatigue and, I will admit, crabbiness... I am ashamed to say that I am a first world brat! I honestly admire those in third world countries after last week; because I don't know how they go about their lives so cheery and giving of themselves, no matter what predicament they're in! When I had my food intake severely reduced... Every day I got a bit snappier, bitchier, and sarcastic. Any little thing would irritate me a lot more than it should, and I felt fatigued all the time; which also ramps up my sassiness levels. Thankfully, LBTL ended before I got too bad... But I am still slightly ashamed of myself as a person for having that reaction. I mean, it did teach me a lot! It humbled me and made me aware just how hard it is to live a life like that, and that is the point of the week. But... It's never a nice thought to know what you turn into when the things you want won't, or can't, be given to you.
Nothing much happened last week until the Pitt fancy dinner on Friday night, calling the end of LBTL for us! I attempted to straighten my hair and look decent for the occasion, but my body thought against it as usual. I know I didn't look terrible... But did it have to have been raining that day and evening? It made the weather all humid, and hair-frizzifying (it's a word guys... I swear...) and yeah... I tried to have a good night, but it was a bit difficult I'll admit. There was recording for Pitt MTV which required a lot of telling university students to be quiet and things that... You really shouldn't need to do with uni students really, considering our ages... Then again... I just returned from the bathroom recently where the person who wrote up this week's Pitt notes spelt mascaraed, instead of masquerade... *Twitch* My internal grammar Nazi is not raging at all, nope.
It also turns out that a week of barely eating anything had already shrunken my stomach... As much as I wanted to eat a fair amount of food in celebration, I physically struggled eating more than the amount I had gotten used to eating! It's changed already over the past half week. I'm slowly getting my ravenous appetite back now that my body knows I can eat whatever I like again... Especially ice cream tonight for dinner! Yeee! ^_^
For those who have noticed, I have taken a bit of a different approach to the blog tonight... As much as it's still mostly about my life, what I do, and what I think about that... I'm gonna try not detail exactly what I do every single day... I find that it might be irritating to read, and I'd like to take this blog in a new direction... I do this blog out of my own personal enjoyment, and it's a way of expressing myself where I feel comfortable to do so. Because everyone knows I am a people-hating introverted autistic child who just like to vent all her problems out in a post where she doesn't have to see people's face when finding all this information out :P But yes... I'd like to start discussing things more on here. Sharing my opinion on things, and a more detailed view on particular events that may happen to me. I already have a couple of things I will be discussing a little further down that I mentioned before... And I'm just gonna try keep it up each week if possible!
Maybe some of you want to know what I think about certain topics or debatable issues in the world today..? Who knows! If you want to know ANYTHING at all, post it as a comment on the bottom of this blog. I will read it, and I will most definitely mention it in the next blog post I write. Or, if you know me in real life, tell me in person or Facebook or whatever. Preferably Facebook, or somewhere where I can note it down though... Cause I will forget :P
Anyways! Moving on to one of the topics I really do want to write about! *Ahem*
This week I finally went to a "chime" session for the first time! It's basically a session run each week by Student Life where a group of students come to talk about God, Christianity, etc... [Bestiality] came knocking by my room, and off we went! We were about 10 minutes early, but I didn't mind... I was both excited, yet terrified. As much as I am Christian now and all that jazz... I have almost always had negative experiences in my past with this religion, and some of the churches along with it. It's been pretty difficult getting over those hurdles and accepting to go to yesterday's chime session... But I really do want to work myself back to the point where I am willing to begin attending church again, and other places of worship; because I want to devote more time to Him!
The people there were absolutely lovely and the atmosphere was so relaxed and friendly... I loved it. After an ice breaker, we split into a couple of groups. [Bestiality] and I were with a Student Life leader looking at Soularium cards. I instantly fell in love with this concept. For those clueless... It's a kit of 50 picture cards and five question cards, not that you necessarily have to use the questions they provide... It's all played by ear. The guy asked us to pick a picture to represent how our week has been, how our spiritual journey has been so far, and what we want our relationship with Him to be like in the future. The awesome thing about this is... If anyone had asked those last two questions to me outright, I would've instantly frozen up and not known what to say. I would've felt cornered, and gotten stressed out... But, somehow, this method allowed me to answer the questions relatively effortlessly. Because... I picked a picture that stuck out to me, and I explained why that picture and how it relates. It was a lot easier than having to say the answers right out, that's for sure.
After having done that, we swapped round. [Bestiality] had an event to run, so she left; but I decided to stay for the next half session with a couple of girls. One being the runner of the chime sessions. She talked to us about role-playing as well as touched on evangelism... The girl I was with and I ended up asking a fair few questions, so didn't end up doing any role-playing; which I am relatively relieved about, not gonna lie... The prospect of role-playing daunts me at the moment. I don't feel as though I'm quite ready to do such a thing, and I don't know if I ever truly will... I will happily try it someday though, because I know it helps the learning process a lot. But, maybe not right now? Just... I really do feel quite clueless and lacking in knowledge when it comes to the faith right now; which there's nothing wrong with that! It means I have so much room to grow and learn... But it also means I'm very hesitant when it comes to trying new things currently, because I just don't know how I'll be with them.
I did find myself opening up and discussing recent traumatic events that have happened to me with the girl who runs chime... I guess I was just at the point where I had an opportunity to possibly find answers, or at least seek comfort, with fellow Christians and know that I wasn't going to be judged; which is all I ever want. We discussed how my hesitance to attending church can be perfectly understood, and she helped me by giving me ideas to try and get back on the path leading in that direction which is where I want to go. She offered bible study sessions each Wednesday night, but it can clash with the club nights depending on which night's I'm going... I was unsure as to whether or not I was going to the club tonight, so I didn't think of the study session; but it turns out that I didn't go, so now I kinda feel bad... But ugh! I really should be assignmenting anyway.
But yes! I found the chime session to be amazing for me. It was small, and simple. And I really really want a Soularium kit for myself! It could be a simple get-to-know people game for one... Doesn't even have to be Christianity related! General questions could be asked. Though, I would like to use it for it's true purpose as well... I'd like to use it to see where people are at with their journeys and how they feel about everything... If I was to have any technique when it comes to talking to people about Christianity and all that... It would definitely be through the use of those cards. It's gonna totally be my thing y'all. I wanna do it!
Okay... I'm gonna move on to the next topic now, but I can sorta do a transition because... What happened after chime literally links the two, cause it's awesome like that.
After chime I was walking and talking with a girl I met at uni the year before through choir. She was supposed to be a fellow choral member this year as well but never turned up... Yeah, I'm not gonna go into it; but yes! Fellow choral member! Anyways...
We ended up sitting outside a little away from the chapel where chime was held and talked for two hours... We're females! Do you expect anything less..? :P
So yes... We were talking about Christianity at first, seeing as we both had been at the chime session. We talked about our personal views on topics, as well as our thoughts on shallow minded people that can't be mature and accept that not everyone will agree with them and all that jazz... It was nice to have a friendly debatable conversation on issues like that. For instance, she is against gay marriage and I am not. She isn't against gay people... It's more her religious beliefs and views influence her views on what a marriage is and things like that. As I discussed with her... She made valid points, which I can see where she came from; but for me, it's different! At least she wasn't a complete homophobe! And she accepted that if gay marriage is to be allowed in Australia that she's not going to hate it. It doesn't affect her personally, so she can just allow it to be; but not bring attention to it, like any mature human should do really...
ANYWAYS! Back to the original point...
We didn't stay on such topics for very long... We very quickly turned to a conversation that involved the both of us basically fangirling over our boyfriends... We caught up on how each couple met. First kiss, how long we've been together, all the usual sappy jazz... I swear, I'm not normally this cheesy and that... But, for some reason, when talking to her that day; I just became this excitable, giggly mess that was n'awwwing over everything her and her partner did and was receiving the same from her.
Is it age? Cause I swear... I used to be the biggest tomboy ever who thought I'd be forever alone, and would live in the forest with all these animals; and be an animal whisperer or something stupid... Basically, I was totally okay with not having a man in my life at that point. But, the older I've gotten the more girly I've gotten... And dependent! What happened?! Darn it all... And I guess since dating [K-Dawg] it's gotten chronically worse.
Especially lately. I've been predominantly thinking about long-term relationship type things... Not with [K-Dawg] so-to-speak... Just in general. Like... I never really thought about weddings and marriage... Some girls have their dream wedding planned out by the age of 10 years old... I was just happy playing Crash Bandicoot and Spyro at that age... Now I'm almost double that age (ew, oldness...) and have only recently started pondering it... And you know what? I'm clueless! Utterly clueless! There is one thing I have always known, even as a kid... And that is that I don't want my wedding in a church or chapel. It might have to do with the fact that I wasn't religious when I made this decision... But I think it's more the fact that I want to be outside somewhere. The thought of being inside with a whole heap of people unsettles me... At least, if it were outside with the same number of people; it would seem so much more open, and I would be much more okay with it. Plus! You can get some wicked sights depending on where you have it... On a mountain overlooking a city? A beach with all the waves? And the sand... Which is a bit of a turnoff not gonna lie... Maybe not the beach... Ick. Anyways, you get my point!
Bringing [K-Dawg] into this now... It gets a fair bit worse, jus' sayin'... Never have I been so attached to a guy so quick, and for such a prolonged time either... I'm an easily set off person. It doesn't usually take much... And with previous relationships, it hasn't taken too long for my boyfriend at the time to tick me off; and for me to have partially snapped at them, or I took some time out away from them... But with [K-Dawg] that hasn't happened yet! I spend all week waiting for the weekend to arrive, then as soon as I'm heading back to uni; I'm missing it already and complaining to myself about how far away the next one is... I can't lie and say I'd have a good day if he hasn't messaged me at some point that day... It hasn't happened yet.. Thankfully! But, just saying... :P
I can't believe I'm admitting this stuff on the internet... Where has this blog gotten too [Miss Invisible]? Honestly! Embarrassing...
May as well continue I suppose. Can't get much worse! :P
I guess I'm just getting to that age where I want to start settling down and getting my life really together... At this rate, I am most likely going to be adding on another year of university so I can finish all the subjects without over-stressing myself... So what does that mean for me? Another year of putting everything on hold..? Is everything riding on my finishing the degree? If so... Yaaayyy... I really don't like that thought...
I honestly can't give you a specific age where I want to be married... But I know I'm totally okay with it being sooner than I originally felt, if it happens that way. But... Not too soon. I mean... Being engaged after half a year of dating, yeeaaahhh... Probably not :P Need at least some time to really get to know each other. Not just the honeymoon period where everything is happy and cheesy all the time. I don't even know where this post is going... My mind is a bit all over the place tonight! Absolutely no idea why... I hope you can keep up with what the heck I am saying, cause I'm struggling and I'm the author! If I have grammar errors or something doesn't make sense... I'm too lazy to proof this, so I'm not gonna check. But feel free to ask questions for me to clarify any confusing points, cause I'm sure there are a fair few...
Random point that I just remembered because this year's Swedish entry is currently playing on my iTunes...
EUROVISION IS ALMOST HERE!
Well... Actually... If you're in Europe, it would have already started; along with anyone who watched the live streamings from Europe. For people, like me, who is waiting for the Australian SBS broadcast this weekend... SO CLOSE! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I am trying to stay away from anywhere on the Internet that can give away spoilers, as I don't want anything ruined for me... Last year, I was happily checking Facebook when [Mr Awesome] popped up with a message saying "Hey! You happy that Sweden won?" (Oh yeah.. Sweden won last year in case you didn't know guys...) And all I could do was sit at my computer like O.O
I hadn't watched the final yet... It was that night that I was going to watch and find out... The country I was going for happened to be Sweden last year, so I was relatively happy; and I figured Sweden had it in the bag anyway (to which Loreen absolutely smashed everyone with her amazingness), but COME ON! I didn't wanna know! I wanted to be biting my nails anxiously while watching the voting and freaking out whenever any country looked like they could beat Sweden... I wanted to have a heart attack and stress myself out way too much over a show aired on the other side of the world! And that opportunity was taken away from me! ... *Sigh*
Just so long as it doesn't happen again this year... [Mr Awesome]! Don't you dare blurt out to me the winner again this year, or so help me! I will fly over to South Australia and burn you in flames! ... I kid, I kid... But seriously. Everyone. Please. Let an Australian girl watch the entirety of the Eurovision Song Contest without having anything spoiled for her, so she can have an amazing night with [K-Dawg], [Phantomess], [GoJo], [Tenuto Tuo], [Clearly Unfocused], and a couple other peeps on Sunday watching the final together; as well as playing a non-alcoholic Eurovision drinking game, cause we are just awesome like that ;P
So, again... I'm not entirely sure where this blog ended up; but I'm pretty damn sure I did not originally intend it to unfold like this... But hey! Since when does it ever? ^_^
I might go work on a bit of Anatomy now... Or go on a Maccas run, because I've been denied for far too long; and my body is craving it... Yeah, it's that bad... Don't judge me and my eating habits!
... *Shifty eyes*
...*Waves* Byeeee
~Give my love to the leprechauns~
... I've been watching way too many danisnotonfire videos on YouTube. How do I know? That greeting. Totally not stolen from him... Nope! >.>
Next thing I know I'll be referencing IISuperWomanII, JennaMarbles, NigaHiga and/or all the other YouTubers I devotedly watch...
Anyways, hiiii! This past week hasn't been /overly/ eventful, though I do have a couple of things that have happened and have spurred inspiration for writing; and so, I will be blurting away tonight... This is also removing another procrastination option as I really ought to be doing my Anatomy and Ecology assignments due within a week of each other, over the next three weeks... And the Anatomy one is pretty damn big. Creating an animal is no easy task!
So, firstly... Live Below The Line is over! Finally! The last three days of the week were rather... Interesting having to deal with very little food. I got sick to the point where I would cut down even more on food so I could have a gulp or two of orange juice, or stock up on a bit of meat, just to get a bit of protein/vitamin in me to try kick the sickness as best I could. On Thursday, I had an Anatomy prac where we were looking at the digestive system of a sheep... Now... The week before we had looked at a pig, and I was completely fine with it! The smell was a bit deterring, but I was fine poking and playing with it and all that jazz. This week, the smell was nothing compared to the pig, and it wasn't much different to the week before... But this time was different... The fact that I hadn't eaten anything in four days and was ill, made dealing with the sight and smells of an animal's insides a lot more difficult. I apparently went incredibly pale, then turned a brilliant shade of green, before I left the room to stumble into the bathroom. Nothing happened! Don't worry... As soon as I left the room, I immediately felt better; but I did end up getting a fellow student to go back and grab my books for me, as I didn't want to risk walking back into the room and actually passing out or throwing up... I didn't know which one my body wanted me to do more, but I wasn't fond of either!
I found I didn't get much hunger pain during that week... Though that could be due to the illness taking most of my attention. But I did find a lot of fatigue and, I will admit, crabbiness... I am ashamed to say that I am a first world brat! I honestly admire those in third world countries after last week; because I don't know how they go about their lives so cheery and giving of themselves, no matter what predicament they're in! When I had my food intake severely reduced... Every day I got a bit snappier, bitchier, and sarcastic. Any little thing would irritate me a lot more than it should, and I felt fatigued all the time; which also ramps up my sassiness levels. Thankfully, LBTL ended before I got too bad... But I am still slightly ashamed of myself as a person for having that reaction. I mean, it did teach me a lot! It humbled me and made me aware just how hard it is to live a life like that, and that is the point of the week. But... It's never a nice thought to know what you turn into when the things you want won't, or can't, be given to you.
Nothing much happened last week until the Pitt fancy dinner on Friday night, calling the end of LBTL for us! I attempted to straighten my hair and look decent for the occasion, but my body thought against it as usual. I know I didn't look terrible... But did it have to have been raining that day and evening? It made the weather all humid, and hair-frizzifying (it's a word guys... I swear...) and yeah... I tried to have a good night, but it was a bit difficult I'll admit. There was recording for Pitt MTV which required a lot of telling university students to be quiet and things that... You really shouldn't need to do with uni students really, considering our ages... Then again... I just returned from the bathroom recently where the person who wrote up this week's Pitt notes spelt mascaraed, instead of masquerade... *Twitch* My internal grammar Nazi is not raging at all, nope.
It also turns out that a week of barely eating anything had already shrunken my stomach... As much as I wanted to eat a fair amount of food in celebration, I physically struggled eating more than the amount I had gotten used to eating! It's changed already over the past half week. I'm slowly getting my ravenous appetite back now that my body knows I can eat whatever I like again... Especially ice cream tonight for dinner! Yeee! ^_^
For those who have noticed, I have taken a bit of a different approach to the blog tonight... As much as it's still mostly about my life, what I do, and what I think about that... I'm gonna try not detail exactly what I do every single day... I find that it might be irritating to read, and I'd like to take this blog in a new direction... I do this blog out of my own personal enjoyment, and it's a way of expressing myself where I feel comfortable to do so. Because everyone knows I am a people-hating introverted autistic child who just like to vent all her problems out in a post where she doesn't have to see people's face when finding all this information out :P But yes... I'd like to start discussing things more on here. Sharing my opinion on things, and a more detailed view on particular events that may happen to me. I already have a couple of things I will be discussing a little further down that I mentioned before... And I'm just gonna try keep it up each week if possible!
Maybe some of you want to know what I think about certain topics or debatable issues in the world today..? Who knows! If you want to know ANYTHING at all, post it as a comment on the bottom of this blog. I will read it, and I will most definitely mention it in the next blog post I write. Or, if you know me in real life, tell me in person or Facebook or whatever. Preferably Facebook, or somewhere where I can note it down though... Cause I will forget :P
Anyways! Moving on to one of the topics I really do want to write about! *Ahem*
This week I finally went to a "chime" session for the first time! It's basically a session run each week by Student Life where a group of students come to talk about God, Christianity, etc... [Bestiality] came knocking by my room, and off we went! We were about 10 minutes early, but I didn't mind... I was both excited, yet terrified. As much as I am Christian now and all that jazz... I have almost always had negative experiences in my past with this religion, and some of the churches along with it. It's been pretty difficult getting over those hurdles and accepting to go to yesterday's chime session... But I really do want to work myself back to the point where I am willing to begin attending church again, and other places of worship; because I want to devote more time to Him!
The people there were absolutely lovely and the atmosphere was so relaxed and friendly... I loved it. After an ice breaker, we split into a couple of groups. [Bestiality] and I were with a Student Life leader looking at Soularium cards. I instantly fell in love with this concept. For those clueless... It's a kit of 50 picture cards and five question cards, not that you necessarily have to use the questions they provide... It's all played by ear. The guy asked us to pick a picture to represent how our week has been, how our spiritual journey has been so far, and what we want our relationship with Him to be like in the future. The awesome thing about this is... If anyone had asked those last two questions to me outright, I would've instantly frozen up and not known what to say. I would've felt cornered, and gotten stressed out... But, somehow, this method allowed me to answer the questions relatively effortlessly. Because... I picked a picture that stuck out to me, and I explained why that picture and how it relates. It was a lot easier than having to say the answers right out, that's for sure.
After having done that, we swapped round. [Bestiality] had an event to run, so she left; but I decided to stay for the next half session with a couple of girls. One being the runner of the chime sessions. She talked to us about role-playing as well as touched on evangelism... The girl I was with and I ended up asking a fair few questions, so didn't end up doing any role-playing; which I am relatively relieved about, not gonna lie... The prospect of role-playing daunts me at the moment. I don't feel as though I'm quite ready to do such a thing, and I don't know if I ever truly will... I will happily try it someday though, because I know it helps the learning process a lot. But, maybe not right now? Just... I really do feel quite clueless and lacking in knowledge when it comes to the faith right now; which there's nothing wrong with that! It means I have so much room to grow and learn... But it also means I'm very hesitant when it comes to trying new things currently, because I just don't know how I'll be with them.
I did find myself opening up and discussing recent traumatic events that have happened to me with the girl who runs chime... I guess I was just at the point where I had an opportunity to possibly find answers, or at least seek comfort, with fellow Christians and know that I wasn't going to be judged; which is all I ever want. We discussed how my hesitance to attending church can be perfectly understood, and she helped me by giving me ideas to try and get back on the path leading in that direction which is where I want to go. She offered bible study sessions each Wednesday night, but it can clash with the club nights depending on which night's I'm going... I was unsure as to whether or not I was going to the club tonight, so I didn't think of the study session; but it turns out that I didn't go, so now I kinda feel bad... But ugh! I really should be assignmenting anyway.
But yes! I found the chime session to be amazing for me. It was small, and simple. And I really really want a Soularium kit for myself! It could be a simple get-to-know people game for one... Doesn't even have to be Christianity related! General questions could be asked. Though, I would like to use it for it's true purpose as well... I'd like to use it to see where people are at with their journeys and how they feel about everything... If I was to have any technique when it comes to talking to people about Christianity and all that... It would definitely be through the use of those cards. It's gonna totally be my thing y'all. I wanna do it!
Okay... I'm gonna move on to the next topic now, but I can sorta do a transition because... What happened after chime literally links the two, cause it's awesome like that.
After chime I was walking and talking with a girl I met at uni the year before through choir. She was supposed to be a fellow choral member this year as well but never turned up... Yeah, I'm not gonna go into it; but yes! Fellow choral member! Anyways...
We ended up sitting outside a little away from the chapel where chime was held and talked for two hours... We're females! Do you expect anything less..? :P
So yes... We were talking about Christianity at first, seeing as we both had been at the chime session. We talked about our personal views on topics, as well as our thoughts on shallow minded people that can't be mature and accept that not everyone will agree with them and all that jazz... It was nice to have a friendly debatable conversation on issues like that. For instance, she is against gay marriage and I am not. She isn't against gay people... It's more her religious beliefs and views influence her views on what a marriage is and things like that. As I discussed with her... She made valid points, which I can see where she came from; but for me, it's different! At least she wasn't a complete homophobe! And she accepted that if gay marriage is to be allowed in Australia that she's not going to hate it. It doesn't affect her personally, so she can just allow it to be; but not bring attention to it, like any mature human should do really...
ANYWAYS! Back to the original point...
We didn't stay on such topics for very long... We very quickly turned to a conversation that involved the both of us basically fangirling over our boyfriends... We caught up on how each couple met. First kiss, how long we've been together, all the usual sappy jazz... I swear, I'm not normally this cheesy and that... But, for some reason, when talking to her that day; I just became this excitable, giggly mess that was n'awwwing over everything her and her partner did and was receiving the same from her.
Is it age? Cause I swear... I used to be the biggest tomboy ever who thought I'd be forever alone, and would live in the forest with all these animals; and be an animal whisperer or something stupid... Basically, I was totally okay with not having a man in my life at that point. But, the older I've gotten the more girly I've gotten... And dependent! What happened?! Darn it all... And I guess since dating [K-Dawg] it's gotten chronically worse.
Especially lately. I've been predominantly thinking about long-term relationship type things... Not with [K-Dawg] so-to-speak... Just in general. Like... I never really thought about weddings and marriage... Some girls have their dream wedding planned out by the age of 10 years old... I was just happy playing Crash Bandicoot and Spyro at that age... Now I'm almost double that age (ew, oldness...) and have only recently started pondering it... And you know what? I'm clueless! Utterly clueless! There is one thing I have always known, even as a kid... And that is that I don't want my wedding in a church or chapel. It might have to do with the fact that I wasn't religious when I made this decision... But I think it's more the fact that I want to be outside somewhere. The thought of being inside with a whole heap of people unsettles me... At least, if it were outside with the same number of people; it would seem so much more open, and I would be much more okay with it. Plus! You can get some wicked sights depending on where you have it... On a mountain overlooking a city? A beach with all the waves? And the sand... Which is a bit of a turnoff not gonna lie... Maybe not the beach... Ick. Anyways, you get my point!
Bringing [K-Dawg] into this now... It gets a fair bit worse, jus' sayin'... Never have I been so attached to a guy so quick, and for such a prolonged time either... I'm an easily set off person. It doesn't usually take much... And with previous relationships, it hasn't taken too long for my boyfriend at the time to tick me off; and for me to have partially snapped at them, or I took some time out away from them... But with [K-Dawg] that hasn't happened yet! I spend all week waiting for the weekend to arrive, then as soon as I'm heading back to uni; I'm missing it already and complaining to myself about how far away the next one is... I can't lie and say I'd have a good day if he hasn't messaged me at some point that day... It hasn't happened yet.. Thankfully! But, just saying... :P
I can't believe I'm admitting this stuff on the internet... Where has this blog gotten too [Miss Invisible]? Honestly! Embarrassing...
May as well continue I suppose. Can't get much worse! :P
I guess I'm just getting to that age where I want to start settling down and getting my life really together... At this rate, I am most likely going to be adding on another year of university so I can finish all the subjects without over-stressing myself... So what does that mean for me? Another year of putting everything on hold..? Is everything riding on my finishing the degree? If so... Yaaayyy... I really don't like that thought...
I honestly can't give you a specific age where I want to be married... But I know I'm totally okay with it being sooner than I originally felt, if it happens that way. But... Not too soon. I mean... Being engaged after half a year of dating, yeeaaahhh... Probably not :P Need at least some time to really get to know each other. Not just the honeymoon period where everything is happy and cheesy all the time. I don't even know where this post is going... My mind is a bit all over the place tonight! Absolutely no idea why... I hope you can keep up with what the heck I am saying, cause I'm struggling and I'm the author! If I have grammar errors or something doesn't make sense... I'm too lazy to proof this, so I'm not gonna check. But feel free to ask questions for me to clarify any confusing points, cause I'm sure there are a fair few...
Random point that I just remembered because this year's Swedish entry is currently playing on my iTunes...
EUROVISION IS ALMOST HERE!
Well... Actually... If you're in Europe, it would have already started; along with anyone who watched the live streamings from Europe. For people, like me, who is waiting for the Australian SBS broadcast this weekend... SO CLOSE! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I am trying to stay away from anywhere on the Internet that can give away spoilers, as I don't want anything ruined for me... Last year, I was happily checking Facebook when [Mr Awesome] popped up with a message saying "Hey! You happy that Sweden won?" (Oh yeah.. Sweden won last year in case you didn't know guys...) And all I could do was sit at my computer like O.O
I hadn't watched the final yet... It was that night that I was going to watch and find out... The country I was going for happened to be Sweden last year, so I was relatively happy; and I figured Sweden had it in the bag anyway (to which Loreen absolutely smashed everyone with her amazingness), but COME ON! I didn't wanna know! I wanted to be biting my nails anxiously while watching the voting and freaking out whenever any country looked like they could beat Sweden... I wanted to have a heart attack and stress myself out way too much over a show aired on the other side of the world! And that opportunity was taken away from me! ... *Sigh*
Just so long as it doesn't happen again this year... [Mr Awesome]! Don't you dare blurt out to me the winner again this year, or so help me! I will fly over to South Australia and burn you in flames! ... I kid, I kid... But seriously. Everyone. Please. Let an Australian girl watch the entirety of the Eurovision Song Contest without having anything spoiled for her, so she can have an amazing night with [K-Dawg], [Phantomess], [GoJo], [Tenuto Tuo], [Clearly Unfocused], and a couple other peeps on Sunday watching the final together; as well as playing a non-alcoholic Eurovision drinking game, cause we are just awesome like that ;P
So, again... I'm not entirely sure where this blog ended up; but I'm pretty damn sure I did not originally intend it to unfold like this... But hey! Since when does it ever? ^_^
I might go work on a bit of Anatomy now... Or go on a Maccas run, because I've been denied for far too long; and my body is craving it... Yeah, it's that bad... Don't judge me and my eating habits!
... *Shifty eyes*
...*Waves* Byeeee
~Give my love to the leprechauns~
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