What's happening guys? Nothing? Sweet. You can hear me ramble on about the pointlessness that is my life! YAY! :D
*Ahem* So, yeah.. You want the recent news? Well, the most recent that I can think of is that [Riot!] and I broke up...
Yes! It be true... After basically an entire year apart due to me living at Uni; our relationship seemed to be declining steadily through the second half.. Well... Mostly during the last couple of weeks of Uni/school into the holidays. Long distance relationships are really difficult to keep going... And it got to the point where we were discovering we were keeping things from each other (such as him now being bisexual, which was a bit of a shock... I mean... I don't have anything against that, but; it makes you question things, a lot), and somewhat lying directly to each other about certain things. A great basis for trust, no? But yeah... We were going to end it mutually, and somewhat civilly. But shit went down last night and we ended up snarling at each other through Facebook and calling it quits then and there...
It wasn't the way I wanted to end things with him, that's for sure. As much as I could see that we were failing as a duo, and that we might just not be right for each other; I never EVER wanted to see him hurt, in any way. That's why I find it so difficult to end relationships at times... I always have some residing feelings, as well as an overly caring nature that makes it so damn hard to see them hurting...
But yeah! I'm now a single pringle... For the first time in.. Gawsh... Five to six years? At least? I mean... I had a brief time period between [Carl] and [Riot!], but that was small.. And [Carl] was still chasing after me, so it didn't really feel like I was single at the time...
To be honest, I don't feel the full effects of being single yet. Granted, it's been a day... But I also have University exams and my driving test coming up in two weeks time that have me partially terrified, and are taking up all my focus and energy. But my co-worker and I (who just happens to have gone to the same school that I graduated from, though he left in year ..7? Or 8. One of them!) were talking about New Year's Eve coming up and our previous years, and our plans for this one.
My co-worker, newly dubbed [Quintessential], has recently come out of a relationship himself; and was telling me how he's not interested in getting into another relationship for quite some time... When we had this discussion I was still with [Riot!], but I can definitely see his point now.
I have been in a relationship for the past six years of my life (approximating here); and, to be honest, I am sick of it. I have no interest in settling down again anytime soon. I'm young! I have so much potential, and so much to go out and enjoy! I've lived a pretty sheltered life... I've never been to many parties. Never had the chance to just flirt with a guy for the hell of it, with no intentions of going anywhere. I've never even had a New Year's Kiss and I've bloody had a boyfriend for the past few years! No... Instead, I sit at home with the family watching the fireworks at midnight, then go to bed...
Some people might like that idea, and I did... Up until I was about 16. Ever since then I've been wanting to be in the midst of it all. Soaking up the crazy atmosphere as it turns to a new year, and having a fun new year's kiss! Not 100% sure if I'm completely okay with it being with some random... I know I'd definitely prefer it if it was someone I knew and somewhat had a nice connection with; not necessarily in the relationship way. But yeah... I guess I've just been so shy and awkward with my Asperger's; and now that Gatton has brought me right out of my shell, I just wanna live it up for a while!
Especially this New Year's... I haven't worked out a plan yet; but I am definitely going to look into seeing who'll come out with me to some currently unknown place and party it up with me!
Oh.. And I also received an e-mail from my University saying that I was rejected a room for next year... That was heart breaking. It's hard to describe how I feel about Halls life, and how badly I want to be there next year... Making a difference... Making myself known and improving my life experiences in the process. I'm quite jealous of [Bestiality] who got the job as a Residential Staff member.. I'm obviously happy for her as well! But incredibly jealous as she's now guaranteed a room... Same with [Chappy] getting Res Club. Happy for them, but insanely jealous...
I sent off an e-mail inquiring as to why I got rejected as I think it's due to my GPA currently. It's sitting on a 2 (fail) because I've failed a subject, and my other subjects I've yet to receive a result for because I deferred them... They don't accept people back onto Halls if you've failed overall in the semester... So, even though I'm not going to fail this semester, it currently looks like I have... I am seriously hoping I can go back next year otherwise I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with myself... I mean... I'd have to transit back and forth, which is an hour each way. The time and distance I could relatively handle... The cost for petrol though?! Hideous. I don't even wanna think about it!
I'm headed to the beach tomorrow with my high school group of friends, and I'm pretty keen! :) Haven't caught up with everyone in oh so long... The baby of the group, [Phantomess], is also finally turning 18 and hosting a birthday shindig on Saturday; so more catching up will occur then as well! Which reminds me... Really should go buy my dear husband a present! Ahhh, procrastination at it's finest [Miss Invisible].
... I don't really have much else to talk about tonight really. Not until some worthy action occurs so I can inform y'all about it anyways... Which won't be until exam time onward, as I won't be doing anything overly fascinating until then apart from study; as entertaining as you all would find that to read, I'm sure ;P
I can safely say though, that I am slowly finding peace with everything. I'm going to hurt after [Riot!] for a bit, but I'll move on... I'm happy for [Carl] and his new found girlfriend (even though their puppy love so openly spread over Facebook is rather annoying, as I find all relationships like that...); and I'm single and ready to mingle! Watch out for this crazy cat y'all ;D Hehe.
I'm also planning on continuing work on my fanfic after the exams are over; regardless of the fact that I based my main character off of [Riot!]. I love this fanfic to pieces and am not going to give it up. I'll still base it off of him, and I'll still write the story as it was always to be written; nothing's going to affect that..
And I'm also planning on really looking into continuing my self-learning of Italian and completely start fresh with Spirit Science. I looked into it a while back briefly, but have never found the effort to actually do something about it. It really interests me and compliments my beliefs quite well; so I really want to delve into that and learn as much as possible!
Random side note... [Dancer] came back from a two week trip to China and can I just say how insanely jealous I am of her?! I mean... China would be such a pretty place to go too!!! D': But the worst part? She got to hand feed a tiger cub... If I didn't love her, I would have killed her out of jealous by now! ;P Kidding of course, but damn... You lucky thing!!! O.O
Anyways... I'm going to let y'all go now! Have fun in the real world kiddies, and always stay safe! ;P
~I'm feeling so shady lately~
*Ahem* So, yeah.. You want the recent news? Well, the most recent that I can think of is that [Riot!] and I broke up...
Yes! It be true... After basically an entire year apart due to me living at Uni; our relationship seemed to be declining steadily through the second half.. Well... Mostly during the last couple of weeks of Uni/school into the holidays. Long distance relationships are really difficult to keep going... And it got to the point where we were discovering we were keeping things from each other (such as him now being bisexual, which was a bit of a shock... I mean... I don't have anything against that, but; it makes you question things, a lot), and somewhat lying directly to each other about certain things. A great basis for trust, no? But yeah... We were going to end it mutually, and somewhat civilly. But shit went down last night and we ended up snarling at each other through Facebook and calling it quits then and there...
It wasn't the way I wanted to end things with him, that's for sure. As much as I could see that we were failing as a duo, and that we might just not be right for each other; I never EVER wanted to see him hurt, in any way. That's why I find it so difficult to end relationships at times... I always have some residing feelings, as well as an overly caring nature that makes it so damn hard to see them hurting...
But yeah! I'm now a single pringle... For the first time in.. Gawsh... Five to six years? At least? I mean... I had a brief time period between [Carl] and [Riot!], but that was small.. And [Carl] was still chasing after me, so it didn't really feel like I was single at the time...
To be honest, I don't feel the full effects of being single yet. Granted, it's been a day... But I also have University exams and my driving test coming up in two weeks time that have me partially terrified, and are taking up all my focus and energy. But my co-worker and I (who just happens to have gone to the same school that I graduated from, though he left in year ..7? Or 8. One of them!) were talking about New Year's Eve coming up and our previous years, and our plans for this one.
My co-worker, newly dubbed [Quintessential], has recently come out of a relationship himself; and was telling me how he's not interested in getting into another relationship for quite some time... When we had this discussion I was still with [Riot!], but I can definitely see his point now.
I have been in a relationship for the past six years of my life (approximating here); and, to be honest, I am sick of it. I have no interest in settling down again anytime soon. I'm young! I have so much potential, and so much to go out and enjoy! I've lived a pretty sheltered life... I've never been to many parties. Never had the chance to just flirt with a guy for the hell of it, with no intentions of going anywhere. I've never even had a New Year's Kiss and I've bloody had a boyfriend for the past few years! No... Instead, I sit at home with the family watching the fireworks at midnight, then go to bed...
Some people might like that idea, and I did... Up until I was about 16. Ever since then I've been wanting to be in the midst of it all. Soaking up the crazy atmosphere as it turns to a new year, and having a fun new year's kiss! Not 100% sure if I'm completely okay with it being with some random... I know I'd definitely prefer it if it was someone I knew and somewhat had a nice connection with; not necessarily in the relationship way. But yeah... I guess I've just been so shy and awkward with my Asperger's; and now that Gatton has brought me right out of my shell, I just wanna live it up for a while!
Especially this New Year's... I haven't worked out a plan yet; but I am definitely going to look into seeing who'll come out with me to some currently unknown place and party it up with me!
Oh.. And I also received an e-mail from my University saying that I was rejected a room for next year... That was heart breaking. It's hard to describe how I feel about Halls life, and how badly I want to be there next year... Making a difference... Making myself known and improving my life experiences in the process. I'm quite jealous of [Bestiality] who got the job as a Residential Staff member.. I'm obviously happy for her as well! But incredibly jealous as she's now guaranteed a room... Same with [Chappy] getting Res Club. Happy for them, but insanely jealous...
I sent off an e-mail inquiring as to why I got rejected as I think it's due to my GPA currently. It's sitting on a 2 (fail) because I've failed a subject, and my other subjects I've yet to receive a result for because I deferred them... They don't accept people back onto Halls if you've failed overall in the semester... So, even though I'm not going to fail this semester, it currently looks like I have... I am seriously hoping I can go back next year otherwise I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with myself... I mean... I'd have to transit back and forth, which is an hour each way. The time and distance I could relatively handle... The cost for petrol though?! Hideous. I don't even wanna think about it!
I'm headed to the beach tomorrow with my high school group of friends, and I'm pretty keen! :) Haven't caught up with everyone in oh so long... The baby of the group, [Phantomess], is also finally turning 18 and hosting a birthday shindig on Saturday; so more catching up will occur then as well! Which reminds me... Really should go buy my dear husband a present! Ahhh, procrastination at it's finest [Miss Invisible].
... I don't really have much else to talk about tonight really. Not until some worthy action occurs so I can inform y'all about it anyways... Which won't be until exam time onward, as I won't be doing anything overly fascinating until then apart from study; as entertaining as you all would find that to read, I'm sure ;P
I can safely say though, that I am slowly finding peace with everything. I'm going to hurt after [Riot!] for a bit, but I'll move on... I'm happy for [Carl] and his new found girlfriend (even though their puppy love so openly spread over Facebook is rather annoying, as I find all relationships like that...); and I'm single and ready to mingle! Watch out for this crazy cat y'all ;D Hehe.
I'm also planning on continuing work on my fanfic after the exams are over; regardless of the fact that I based my main character off of [Riot!]. I love this fanfic to pieces and am not going to give it up. I'll still base it off of him, and I'll still write the story as it was always to be written; nothing's going to affect that..
And I'm also planning on really looking into continuing my self-learning of Italian and completely start fresh with Spirit Science. I looked into it a while back briefly, but have never found the effort to actually do something about it. It really interests me and compliments my beliefs quite well; so I really want to delve into that and learn as much as possible!
Random side note... [Dancer] came back from a two week trip to China and can I just say how insanely jealous I am of her?! I mean... China would be such a pretty place to go too!!! D': But the worst part? She got to hand feed a tiger cub... If I didn't love her, I would have killed her out of jealous by now! ;P Kidding of course, but damn... You lucky thing!!! O.O
Anyways... I'm going to let y'all go now! Have fun in the real world kiddies, and always stay safe! ;P
~I'm feeling so shady lately~
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Don't worry, he's not bisexual because of you. People come to these realisations all the time.
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