Okay so last blog I left you a week before sitting the QCS test. The decider. The test that all your schooling life has been leading up too!
What a disappointment...
Really, in the end I was more stressed about all the exams and assignments I had due after the test, than I was about the test itself... I mean, sure some parts of the test I was sitting there going "OMFGWTFBBQ!?!?!?!" but overall, it seemed more like I was going to school to procrastinate school work... I still don't feel as though I have sat the QCS test... Feels more like a practice!
I don't know if my view on this is a positive or negative thing, but who cares! It's over! Once this coming weeks exams and assignments are over, I will be a free woman. Actually no... I'll probably just go psycho! Though, that's nothing new...
Anyways! A couple of days ago I got my formal dress back from the fitters and I think I've fallen in love with it even more... I swear every time I see my dress, I fall even more in love. Don't know how it's possible, but it is! What's not to love about a dress that literally hugs your body, outlines every feature, and makes me look like I have boobs? Especially the last one... WINNING! For a girl who doesn't really have much, a dress that can do that was clearly sent from heaven! ^.^
I adore my formal shoes... But they're high heels. I've never really worn heels in my life... Definitely not ones these high. I love the height they give, and how comfortable they feel to my feet, but I can't walk in them yet... I've gotten some practice in, but I still have a lot of "HOLY *** GRAB SOMETHING NOW OR FALL OVER" moments... As entertaining as they may be, I prefer to not have any on the night ^.^
So... There are musicals coming to BrisVegas right? Right. Now... I want to go see these musicals, but I have absolutely ZERO moneys. This sucks Dick from Hotel Sorrento... How can I resist Anthony Warlow?!?!?! By having no money I guess... Still. I wish places would actually hire me so I can earn money so I can look at next year and have more reassurance when it comes to Uni, car, musicals, general spending money; than I do right now.
Currently watching the Riverfire on T.V... I wanna go see this for reals guise! :3 Along with other things... I really should stop wanting things that cost so much $$$. It can't possibly be healthy, and at this rate I am going to become considerably broke, very fast...
CAFFEINE!
I never liked caffeine... Now I especially don't as I'm doing it for my Chemistry assignment... No, I'm not taking it! I'm researching it... Geez.
I went to my local shopping centre with [Riot!] yesterday afternoon. Best afternoon I have had in sooo long! Lately I have had nothing in my life but exams, assignments, sickness, or upcoming QCS. Basically stress, stress, stress and more stress. As soon as I saw a free gap in my schedule I jumped on it and was so thankful I did! The afternoon was spent walking there, getting a drink, briefly looking in Sanity for potential Father's Day gifts, sitting outside talking and listening to music, eating, then walking home. It ended with us saying goodbye, Mum calling me 30 seconds (at 6pm) going hurry up we've booked a table at [MyFavRestaurant] for 6.30!!! So I then sprinted home, got changed and left the house again all within 3-4 minutes... When I got there I ended up having a small bowl of salad of dinner because I had had Subway earlier with [Riot!] because I didn't know we were going out for dinner... Oh well, easier on my parents pockets ^.^
But back to my initial reminiscing... To spend the afternoon with someone who means so very much to me, who can make me smile and stress-free, was amazing in every way. It reminded me of how much life will have to offer me once I have my P's, my own car, and I am out of school. I know this phrase is abused often but the world will literally be my oyster. No matter what OP I get back, I can still get where I want with the right amount of work. I will always have friends who support me and will be there for me no matter what! And, as scary as it can be to think about at times, I will be an individual. Be able to make my own decisions, be accountable for everything I do. I don't know how long I have been waiting for that, but to have it so close is almost unbearable! But worth the wait in the end.
To be honest, my life is a shambles right now. I'm having internal conflicts, friend conflicts, and relationship conflicts... This is one of the reasons why I cannot wait till I am 18 and out of school! I feel as though I will finally have a chance to take control of my life and tell people what I want, and how I want it! Rather than having people manipulate and control me and take advantage of me when I'm vulnerable.
Ahem, moving on... I am about to go watch the movie Rango as I haven't seen it yet! Catch you guys later!!!
~This heart, it beats, beats for only you~
What a disappointment...
Really, in the end I was more stressed about all the exams and assignments I had due after the test, than I was about the test itself... I mean, sure some parts of the test I was sitting there going "OMFGWTFBBQ!?!?!?!" but overall, it seemed more like I was going to school to procrastinate school work... I still don't feel as though I have sat the QCS test... Feels more like a practice!
I don't know if my view on this is a positive or negative thing, but who cares! It's over! Once this coming weeks exams and assignments are over, I will be a free woman. Actually no... I'll probably just go psycho! Though, that's nothing new...
Anyways! A couple of days ago I got my formal dress back from the fitters and I think I've fallen in love with it even more... I swear every time I see my dress, I fall even more in love. Don't know how it's possible, but it is! What's not to love about a dress that literally hugs your body, outlines every feature, and makes me look like I have boobs? Especially the last one... WINNING! For a girl who doesn't really have much, a dress that can do that was clearly sent from heaven! ^.^
I adore my formal shoes... But they're high heels. I've never really worn heels in my life... Definitely not ones these high. I love the height they give, and how comfortable they feel to my feet, but I can't walk in them yet... I've gotten some practice in, but I still have a lot of "HOLY *** GRAB SOMETHING NOW OR FALL OVER" moments... As entertaining as they may be, I prefer to not have any on the night ^.^
So... There are musicals coming to BrisVegas right? Right. Now... I want to go see these musicals, but I have absolutely ZERO moneys. This sucks Dick from Hotel Sorrento... How can I resist Anthony Warlow?!?!?! By having no money I guess... Still. I wish places would actually hire me so I can earn money so I can look at next year and have more reassurance when it comes to Uni, car, musicals, general spending money; than I do right now.
Currently watching the Riverfire on T.V... I wanna go see this for reals guise! :3 Along with other things... I really should stop wanting things that cost so much $$$. It can't possibly be healthy, and at this rate I am going to become considerably broke, very fast...
CAFFEINE!
I never liked caffeine... Now I especially don't as I'm doing it for my Chemistry assignment... No, I'm not taking it! I'm researching it... Geez.
I went to my local shopping centre with [Riot!] yesterday afternoon. Best afternoon I have had in sooo long! Lately I have had nothing in my life but exams, assignments, sickness, or upcoming QCS. Basically stress, stress, stress and more stress. As soon as I saw a free gap in my schedule I jumped on it and was so thankful I did! The afternoon was spent walking there, getting a drink, briefly looking in Sanity for potential Father's Day gifts, sitting outside talking and listening to music, eating, then walking home. It ended with us saying goodbye, Mum calling me 30 seconds (at 6pm) going hurry up we've booked a table at [MyFavRestaurant] for 6.30!!! So I then sprinted home, got changed and left the house again all within 3-4 minutes... When I got there I ended up having a small bowl of salad of dinner because I had had Subway earlier with [Riot!] because I didn't know we were going out for dinner... Oh well, easier on my parents pockets ^.^
But back to my initial reminiscing... To spend the afternoon with someone who means so very much to me, who can make me smile and stress-free, was amazing in every way. It reminded me of how much life will have to offer me once I have my P's, my own car, and I am out of school. I know this phrase is abused often but the world will literally be my oyster. No matter what OP I get back, I can still get where I want with the right amount of work. I will always have friends who support me and will be there for me no matter what! And, as scary as it can be to think about at times, I will be an individual. Be able to make my own decisions, be accountable for everything I do. I don't know how long I have been waiting for that, but to have it so close is almost unbearable! But worth the wait in the end.
To be honest, my life is a shambles right now. I'm having internal conflicts, friend conflicts, and relationship conflicts... This is one of the reasons why I cannot wait till I am 18 and out of school! I feel as though I will finally have a chance to take control of my life and tell people what I want, and how I want it! Rather than having people manipulate and control me and take advantage of me when I'm vulnerable.
Ahem, moving on... I am about to go watch the movie Rango as I haven't seen it yet! Catch you guys later!!!
~This heart, it beats, beats for only you~
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