Believe It, Or Not!

Well, over the past few days I have been struggling to find motivation or a topic to blog about... And honestly, I still can't! But I'm being peer pressured by [Riot!] so I guess I don't have a choice... :P

Today I went to the Coast of Gold to check out Ripley's Believe It Or Not with the family, which turned out to be quite good fun! I mean, you had your really freaky things in there like masks made of human skulls, shrunken heads, two-headed animals and baby... Not to mention the people with abilities such as: being able to pop their eyes out of their socket way too far, crocodile teeth dentures, enchanting snakes to crawl in the nose and out the mouth, and spending around $375,000 on food every day; yet still starving their mother to death to be able to rule their world... But hey! There's the cool stuff too! :P

Oh, and there was also a Street Performer's Festival on at the same time which was cool cause I got to see a guy on a twelve-foot high unicycle at one point, two girls in black and white riding around on a ribbon-y bike while bopping to a song that this guy is singing at another, a teenage girl singing opera at another, and one of those people who act as statues freak out a little kid... Ahhh gotta love thinking something is a legitimate statue only to have them suddenly move and go "BOO!' at you...

So yeah, I got about three hours driving in today, which puts my total up to about 30-31 hours... Only 69-70 more hours to go! Woo! :P Well, if I think about it... I only need around 40 more hours driving with my family, then 10 hours with a driving instructor and I'm done! /Sigh/ Hopefully I get them real soon so I can drive wherever the heck I want, when I want! :P

So I've read on a couple of my friend's blogs about what they do on their holidays... So why not copy! :P

Well, so far these holidays I don't think I've had a single day just at home yet... I've had One rehearsals, catching up with friends/[Riot!], or going out with family to places... In a way it's been a good thing because it's been able to distract me from the ugly situation I'm in which I am reminded of whenever I have a chance to really think about it...

As you know, I finally told [Carl] that I didn't want to be anything but friends with him, which then turned into him deleting me off of Facebook for reasons unknown to me at the time...

Well, a couple of nights ago I made the stupid mistake to talk to him... I mean, after two years of talking to each other every single day in some way or form to have then gone a week with absolutely zero contact, and having no way of knowing what he's thinking/feeling; I couldn't take it anymore!

Anyway, things started out awkward but okay, until [Carl] just decided to snap at me so I left it at that... The next night he apologised but things quickly turned sour again so I have now blocked him on MSN; and am not planning on talking to him for quite sometime... Except for times when I'll have no choice such as One rehearsals...

I don't know... I'd still love to be just friends with him! But with [Carl] it's either everything or nothing at all... And as much as it sucks, I am not willing to be everything with him right now...

/Sigh/... Well that's certainly not where I wanted this blog to go... But I am struggling to find much else to talk about because this current issue is consuming my thoughts a heck of a lot more than I thought it was...

~It's amazing how comforting three Maltese Terriers are in your time of need~

On The Days I Can't See Your Eyes, I Don't Even Want To Open Mine

So yesterday I was at Southbank with my family... So what did I do? I listened to my iPod, and people watched. Man, the people you see at Southbank is insane! Within five minutes I had already seen two girls modelling in corsets (the amount of guys lining up and snapping pictures was crazy... Like dudes, keep it in yo pants =.=) and someone fast asleep on the grass, using their bag as a pillow... Not to mention the usual sorts of people you come across. This includes; bitchy school girls, bogans, classy arty people, people who hold themselves like a classy person but are wearing bogan clothes, creepy old men who stare at you as you walk by /shudder/ and adorable children who make you want to go and hug them randomly... :D

I did notice that I listened to Manboy quite a bit yesterday after [Tenuto Tuo] reminded me how that song is the reason I listen to most of the music I listen to nowadays! /Reminisces/ Ahhhh Eric Saade, how I love you... <3

Another song I listened to a fair bit was God Damn You're Beautiful by Chester See. I was introduced to this song through one of my old Adelaide friends posting it on their profile. The first time I heard it I was like "Eh", but of course like any good song it eventually won my heart... :) Especially yesterday when I was almost tearing up listening to it!

I would absolutely love it if life could stay the way it is right now, forever... (Fat chance, but you know... Here's hoping! :D) Yesterday I felt no stress at all! I was just wondering round Southbank casually watching people, and listening to songs that made me have to watch myself or people would start looking at me going "WTF!?!?! She's crying/grinning like an idiot? What the heck is that girl on!?!?!". Yeah, Chester See can do that to me... I have no idea how! Maybe it's because it's one of those exceedingly cheesy love songs that I am falling so hard for right now...


Shuddup! Don't judge me! =.=


Random side note: But I felt that I should inform both [Tenuto Tuo] and [Riot!] that I do not appreciate the both of you ganging up on me this afternoon! I know you both will read this, and I would just like to say that I will NOT put my hearts in the air, and I would appreciate it if my boyfriend took me side rather than [Tuo]'s! Kthx.


Also, wait for it... Wait for it... PERSONAL RECORD!!! And by that I mean, I managed to walk to [Riot!]'s house in exactly eight minutes! :D I used to do it in about 15-20 because I'm fat and lazy, and walk exceedingly slow... Now I am treating it as my physical exercise (because, let's face it, I don't get any other form), which isn't that much, but it's a start mmkayy? ^.^


So how to summarise the day I had today... Hmmm... Well to start with, I arrived at [Riot!]s house to find him asleep... /Aw!/ Then once he had decided he was presentable, the rest of the day was filled with making Easy Mac for lunch (which I seemed to fail at epically), insulting each other's method of eating Cookie's and Cream ice cream, lots and lots of whipped cream (Well for [Riot!] anyway! :P), and his dog trying to pull down my pants... Yeah, thanks for that Roxy! =.=
And what did I do once I got home? Went on MSN and started playing an online game with [Riot!]; because we're cool kids like that! :P  But in all seriousness, I do love being able to spend all day with him, only to go home and still want to talk and be geeky gamers together :D <3


/Yawn/ Well I guess that is a sign that I am tired, therefore I should most likely head off to bed... My dearest father is planning on taking me out driving around Logan tomorrow so I can get some hours up... I'm a quarter of the way guys! After a year and a half... But whatevs! I'm going places! :D


~Fare thee well~

WARNING! Exceedingly Cheesy Post Ahead!

Have you ever had one of those absolutely amazing days, where nothing went wrong and you finally realised that this is what you want and where you want to be? Well, I was fortunate to have one of them today... And what better way to have this happen to you, then when you're with your boyfriend! :)


After all that I have been through recently, it was so nice just to be able to go for a stroll down to Subway with [Riot!]; teasing each other about what we eat/don't eat... We then walked around the lake just talking about anything and everything; followed by resting and duck watching, causing more laughs over mine and his epic fails...
Every second of today, I was loving it! I never feel awkward around him, and even when we're not talking; it's not like either of us feel like we HAVE to talk.


The one thing I realised today is how much I was repressed and how much I actually didn't like being with [Carl]. Before I met him, I was the most innocent year 10 student who wouldn't have a clue about anything! The first day I met [Carl] is when everything changed... The first day we met was the first day we went out, and that night we made out! Yeah, I was as freaked out as you possibly are now... From there, things moved way too quick for my liking. No matter how many times I would tell him. It wasn't too much after the one year mark that I lost my virginity... 


This, is definitely one of the biggest things I regret. Ever since that day I have felt horrible. The fact that [Carl] wasn't even legal to have it; yet he still insisted every single time I saw him to the point where I just gave in... This actually sums up our relationship... The bigger, better-with-words guy repressing and manipulating the small, easy-to-confuse-therefore-manipulate girl to do whatever he wishes...


It's crazy how jealous I am of [Clearly Unfocused] and [Phantomess] because of the innocence they have. I mean, sure they know about stuff, but who doesn't? I don't know exactly what girls picture their first time to be; but I'm sure it wouldn't be one that involved practically being forced into it (though at the time being manipulated into thinking that it's worth doing).


This is one of the reasons why I am so happy right now! I mean, I finally shake [Carl] off after weeks of begging and pining to have me back; and I spend an entire day with [Riot!] just enjoying each others company and sharing the most simplest of moments. I feel like I can start afresh! Turn over a new page where I can pretend that I'm that innocent year 10 student again... It's so comforting to know that I'm with a guy who wants to spend time with me; because he wants to spend genuine time with me! Not one who always seems to have his hormones control his actions... :/


Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile


I've had this song stuck in my head all day and I can't help but smile every time I sing it in my head because it so applies to the how I felt today! I honestly can't remember the last time I blushed because of a compliment I received, or the last time I felt truly wanted.


I'm the kind of person who appreciates and loves all the little things one can do. I don't expect expensive presents; if anything I tend to prefer the cheaper ones because of the simplicity and thought behind them. Not saying there isn't thought behind the expensive ones, but yeah, I'm a special child okay? :P Anyways, so this means that I absolutely love it when I'm with a guy who just grabs your hand and holds it or kisses it; or who gestures to you to hurry up and sit next to them when they already know you're going to already. I guess I'm basically one of those girls that love the things you usually find in movies, or hear in songs... But I'm actually lucky enough to be experiencing such things right now, and it makes me unbelievably happy! :) <3


Well, I have no idea what this post was initially going to be about, but if any of you got bored by the end... Stick it! :P I'm so happy right now, none of you trolls are gonna ruin it! Mmkayy??


~Is it sad to say that I was grinning like an idiot while writing the end of this post?~

Are You Sure You Want To Remove ___ As Your Friend?

Well today I went to the local shopping centre with my usual group of friends, and what's the first thing we do? Go into EB Games... Because we're cool kids like that! :D After that, our activities ranged from sitting out on the grass for awhile, telling numerous dirty jokes, singing Dancing Queen in front of ALDI, going into ALDI to buy some chocolate to (quoting [nath_alex01]) "orgasm" over it, going formal suit shopping for [Tenuto Tuo] and [Sasquatch]... This was followed (once the males had left the complex) by a deep, meaningful conversation between us girls about emotional musicals, why people should act like their true selves around people, and about what makes relationships work. We ended up concluding that relationships work best when the couple have things in common, as well things not.


Who wants to be in a relationship where you're both interested in EXACTLY the same things? It gets incredibly monotonous... Yet, if you have nothing in common at all, the relationship just wouldn't work due to the incessant fighting...


Anyways, so this got me thinking about the upcoming formal... Which made me start grinning stupidly cause I was thinking about how dress and how pretty it'll make me feel when I'm wearing that night... Ahem, anyway! It also got me thinking about who I want to be there with me, as my date. I mean, of course my boyfriend would be first choice! But neither of us are sure yet about whether or not he'll be nearby to attend... As for my second choice in partner; well, I don't have one!


Of course, if worst comes to worst, I can always just go with my groupies! :) It'll be an amazing night regardless of whether or not I have a designated partner by my side...


ZOMG! I just thought of the most EPIC way of travelling to the formal... In a horse drawn carriage! Okay, so I may be the only one who thinks of this as awesome... But hey! You will never stop the animal lover in me! :D And besides... I think of it as quite cute, romantic and different... (How many people nowadays could say they travelled in that sorta style? Hmmm? Not many because they all go for the limousines or those funky, old cars...).


I don't know... I guess I get all romantic and sappy at the thought of riding in a carriage without a roof, so I can just look at the sky, while snuggling up (Well, saying I'm with a male partner here...) for warmth, while listening to the sounds of horse hooves on the ground... Then again, there'd most likely be cars round going /Zhoom!/ and kinda ruining the mood... But shush! Don't tarnish the image! Hehe...


Soooo, I totes went onto Facebook today... As per usual... And realised that [Carl] had deleted me off of his friends list... My first thought... WTF!?!?!?! No actually, this is pretty much my ONLY thought... I mean, today I finally managed to stay strong and tell him for the last time that I do NOT want to be anything but friends with him at the current time. (Insert celebratory clap here). He was all okay about it. I mean, he wasn't exactly happy, but he wasn't as full on depressive as he has been lately... Which helped me deal with the situation a lot better... So I don't understand why he would've deleted me? I'm not sure if this is his way of dealing with it, or if he's going with a new strategy to win me back? Well, he's also deleted [Riot!] so I'm utterly confused right now...


It always seems like... When I finally can stop stressing over things; whether it be relationship wise or school or anything... Another things pops up straight after! I swear I haven't had a single hour where I haven't been stressing... Well, except for yesterday during the One rehearsal... I would like to thank the group of year 10's, [That Dancer Chick] (<- formally known as Tarsha till she joined the blogging world), and [Riot!] for making that happen! :) It was amazing to finally not have to stress about anything <3


But what happens the next day? I go to a shopping centre with my friends (that isn't the issue of course), only to have [Carl] come over on his break, beg me to see him after his shift, only to have us endure an awkward conversation that ended with me finally getting what I wanted... Only to come home and find he's deleted me on Facebook? I mean, the only reason this is worrying me is because I don't know the reason behind it... I assume it must be pretty big? I don't know... I'm so confused right now :/


I don't even have the guts to call him and find out! :P Yeah, I'm a massive chicken... But it means I taste good, so it's all G! ;)


Well, my fellow symphony writers, I don't have much more to write about this fine evening, so I shall bid you adieu, and go find something to do to make my mind off of current events!


~I'm thinking, what the hell?~

Long Time No Blog...

Hello there strangers! Yes I have been away from the blogging world for quite some time! I blame the education system... You see, they swamped me with so many assignments I couldn't devote my life to anything else really...  Well they're thankfully finished now and it is now school holidays! :D


"Celebrate good times, come on!"


So I just came back from a social gathering at [Tenuto Tuo]'s place... It was myself, [Tenuto], [Clearly Unfocused] and another friend of ours called [Ruska]. (Just clarifying... That is how it's spelt... Right? :S)


Sooooo, we watched Melodifestivalen from 2010 (for those clueless readers, this is the annual Swedish song competition. The winner goes on to represent Sweden in the Eurovision Song Contest. For those of you who don't know what that is... LOOK IT UP!). Anywho, [Clearly Unfocused] and I, by the end of the night, were quite high on Eric Saade... [Unfocused] isn't even keen on Eric, yet she still got high... Ehehe. That is the power of a Manboy! /Swoon/


We also discovered a couple more male singes that were rather ummm... Talented and good looking... :D


Whaaaaat?!?!?! Can't a girl have an innocent little crush on a guy (or multiple, ahem) who lives in a different country (or isn't even real *Cough* [Phantomess], [Clearly Unfocused], [GoJo] *Cough*)? I personally find there's nothing wrong with it! Hehehe...


I am so incredibly glad it's the holidays now! I mean, sure next term is going to be the most difficult, stressful term EVARRRR! What with the QCS test, along with all the other subject exams, as well as performing in One, as well as formal preparations... Ugh, it is going to be a tough term...


BUT! For the next three weeks, the only things I have to worry about is who I'm hanging out with and when! I've already got three (well two now, considering one of them was the Melodifestivalen get-together) requests to hang out with my groupies! (Y'all know who you are), and planning on hanging out with the likes of [Riot!] and [Carl] too :D I can already feel my cheeks hurting from the amount of laughter and fun I'll be experiencing... Is it sad to say I already have a silly grin on my face thinking about it? Oh well, too late now...


Or maybe the grin is because I'm thinking about Måns Zelmerlöw... I mean, pfft! I'm not thinking about him at all no... Oh dear... I have a feeling [Tenuto]'s going to kill me now... Hmmm... For some reason, this doesn't worry me... :P


Have any of you heard of the 30 Day Photo Challenge? If not, look it up... Seriously, stop expecting me to do everything for you! Anyways... I am in the process of it on Facebook. I'm up to Day 21 currently... The thing I've noticed is that I have gotten more and more slack with it as the days go by... At first it was individual pictures of people; then it went to collages (Which I made myself! Quite proud ^^); but they've now turned into random pictures I get off of Google... Yeah, nice [Miss Invisible]... That's pretty much my life story right there! :P Start off all enthusiastic like "HELLS YEAH! IMA DO THIS!", then it goes all "Eh, I cbf...". I really should look into why my work ethic has gone so down hill since... Well, since Grade 10! Yeah, I'm a lost cause... But... Shut up! I could still kick yo ass!


LOL JKS!


So [Clearly Unfocused], [Tenuto Tuo] and I are fighting on Facebook about fangirling over each other's "guys". Yeah... We're not weird at all... We each have a guy who we favour above the others, so we "get" them... Then we start bitching at each other when we feel out man is threatened... Most of the time the arguments end with us agreeing to share... :D Feeling the love! <3


So earlier today I had to go to school (WTF man... First day of holidays and I have to go school!?!?! Fml!) for One rehearsals... All participants had been there the past two days as well... The Thursday and Friday rehearsals dragged on so much... It was quite painful! >.< Though today's was actually really good! I think it was because everyone was all like "Heck yeah! Once I finish this dance/song/band piece I can go home and par-tay!". Yeah, i'm assuming everyone went off to go party it up after the rehearsal! Cause I'm cool like that, yo. I was having so much fun, to be honest I didn't want to leave... Call me sad/pathetic/etc. But I don't care! "I'm gonna lay down my burden... Down by the riverside!" <- Chamber singers FTW people! Word.


So even though I haven't blogged in three weeks, and have been itching too everyday and had so many ideas go through my head where I'd be like "ZOMG! Blog worthy!". I have finally had the chance to blog and what happens? /Mind blank/


Awesomeness...


Oh, and it doesn't help when you're being pressured by [Riot!] to write this quickly so he can satisfy his impatience and read this blog... I hope you're happy! :P


So the other night I went to see [title of show] with my girlfriends and oh my gosh! It was the most funny and heart warming thing I have ever seen! (Oh, and the male main character is totes cute, teehee!). But I mean, seriously... Who doesn't love a musical about two guys writing a musical... About two guys writing a musical! And don't forget the F-bombs, a guy jumping across stage singing "KEY CHANGE!", girl-on-girl action, lots of naughty words, toplessness, pretending to fly, metaphorical vampires, tons of supposed musical references that I got barely any of, and so much more! The saddest thing about it is that it was closing night... And I have a feeling it won't be back for quite some time... /Sadness/


That show is one of the only shows that almost made me cry! I'm the kind of person who doesn't usually cry much... So if I'm watching a movie (Recent Harry Potter one where Dobby dies...) or a musical [tos] and I'm close too, or am crying! They've done a pretty good job! Yeah, so [tos] was absolutely amazing, and I'm so glad I got to see it with my gorgeous friends! :) <3


Well... It's getting late, and I really should be catching up on the hours of sleep I lost over the past couple of weeks due to stressing and assignments... I promise there will not be another three week gap between this blog and the next mmkayy? :P Gotta love education screwing up your blogging and social life... Ugh.


Until next time, dear readers...


~Die, Vampire, Die!~

100 Factual Facts

Yeah, I decided to do one of these...


1) I have one of the most hopeless memories in the world... There are so many things I wish I could remember, but I can't... I always seem to remember small, completely pointless things from my early childhood... Then it's all blank from there.


2) I suffer from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). Not as bad as some people with their hygiene freak-outs to the point of washing all the skin off their hands... But I prefer my right side to my left and if something happens to one side of my body, I have to do it the other to make it even... (For example, I'll scratch an itch on my left leg, even though I have no itch on my right I will scratch it anyways, just to make it even...)


3) I have the most random assortment of music... It ranges from country, to some modern pop, to Europop, to songs from musicals, to random songs from YouTube...


4) I can listen to a song on repeat tons of times and not get sick of it...


5) My parents accuse me of being anti-social because I stay in my room all afternoon without coming out except for dinner... Reality of the situation is that I don't want to be around the family. Every time my brother or sister open their mouths it sets my teeth on edge, and I hate being pestered by them...


6) I am an incredibly independent person... I prefer spending time by myself or with one person I know quite well, then a whole group of people all the time.


7) I am right-handed.


8) I prefer to wear watches/jewellery on my right hand ([Clearly Unfocused] talked about how people generally wear watches on the opposite arm, but I find this quite difficult...).


9) Aaaaand, I'm already stumped on number 9... I'm doing so well! :P


10) If I am frustrated or upset at something, I talk to an imaginary person... I don't imagine a particular image of somebody or anything, I literally just talk to air, but as though someone is there... Yeah, I'm crazy... But it helps keep me sane! Right?


11) I bite my nails, and the skin around them, and I chew the skin in my mouth... [GoJo] and I both share this habit... The thing is, I have tried breaking it, several times! But I can't seem to kick it.


12) I have never watched a TV show religiously. I watched the series Charmed almost all the way through, but I missed episodes here and there, and I haven't watched the last season.


13) I don't watch any TV anymore actually...


14) Methods that I used to use when I was younger to motivate me to do assignments and homework, now fail... My current method involves me mentally screaming at myself things like "ZOMG JADE! HOW ARE YOU GOING TO GET WHERE YOU WANT IF YOU CAN'T WRITE EVEN 500 WORDS ON SEA LIONS IN THE GALAPAGOS?!?" Let's just say, it doesn't work as well as it should...


15) I used to be really ticklish... I can resist it a lot more now, but there are some spots that shall always remain exceedingly ticklish... :P


16) I love words like exceedingly... Or verisimilitude... Or rectify... Or other awesome, big English words that make me sound oh-so-smart! :D


17) I am more of a dog-person than a cat-person... WAY more... Dogs > Cats.


18) When I sit down, the foot is above the ground is constantly twitching. People have tried to stop it, heck even I have tried to stop it! It works for a good 10 seconds, then begins again... This usually gets me marked down in English orals...


19) I used to absolutely love Maths, Science and English. Now Maths makes me depressed, English is okay but confusing with [Mr Noodleton] teaching... And the only Science I like is Chemistry! [CrabbyMenopausalBitch] makes Biology just plain annoying, and Physics is just hard...


20) I wish I could stay the age I am, but retain my younger innocence that I had about two and a half years ago...


21) As much as I do find dirty jokes funny at times... Most of the time I feel slightly uncomfortable... Mostly because (as said earlier) I wish I didn't know half of it.


22) I love the idea of learning another language (apart from hello, goodbye, and counting 1-10), but knowing me... I will most likely get frustrated if I don't learn fast enough and then just give up...


23) I have very low patience with things...


24) I can be very hypocritical... I'll say "patience is a virtue!" to someone and five minutes later be complaining about something not happening as fast as I'd like...


25) I am an agnostic... I ponder both sides of the debate equally. I also find sitting on the fence a lot easier than being involved in the endless battle between Creationists and Evolutionists.


26) I absolutely hate driving... It scares me to no end! I am constantly afraid I'll hit someone, or someone will hit me... And when there's cars either side of me going at 80km an hour (even 60 at times...), I feel insanely claustrophobic and grip the steering wheel for dear life... Strangely, I still drive relatively well through this experience...


27) I am not someone who suffers from severe Claustrophobia, but I do have my moments where I really need to go outside, or away from whoever I'm with just to catch my breath.


28) I absolutely love playing games that involve shooting people... I majorly suck at playing them, but I guess the psychopath killer in me loves being able to chill on a random afternoon, turn the PlayStation (Insert other consoles here) on... And shoot some people!
Muahahahahahaha! }:)


29) I want to travel once I'm out of school... Where I want to go is an entirely different question, and one that I struggle to answer... I think it's because I want to go everywhere... All at once!


30) Although I know it is one of the worst things to do... I sing when I have a sore throat... If anything, having a sore throat seems to make me want to sing even more than usual... And I do, because I can't repress the urge!


31) I am pretty sure my voice is ruined for life due to my current throat battle... For some reason, this doesn't bother me as much as it usually would...


32) I regret starting to play the clarinet so late... It didn't strike me that I wanted to play an instrument until very late last year... Watching [Phantomess] and [Clearly Unfocused] with their epic pro-ness makes me oh-so-jealous! >.<


33) I can't argue for my life... Even if I am right, I cannot form sentences that make sense (to other people, 'cause it always makes sense in my head!), and I end up forgetting what it was initially about and just get frustrated and keep on yelling until the other person gives up... Hopefully! :D


34) I never really get sick. The worst I get is a sore throat and a stuffed up nose for a few days then it passes. Never anything major. This month (pro-longed sore throat & feeling run-down) has been the worst I've ever gotten. (Apart from Chicken-Pox and Conjunctivitis as a child)...


35) I think the reason why I'm not feeling so great is because I don't do half as much physical activity as I used to, and I eat a lot more junk, AND I sit around doing sweet FA a lot more... Not good really.


36) I love the term "sweet FA". ^^)


37) I can't sing a song without getting completely into it, emotions and all... Even if I'm singing it stupidly with friends; a part of me is still singing with my heart and soul completely in the song...


38) It usually results in me getting teary-eyed at sad songs, and full on hyper in faster, more boppy songs...


39) I am finding this list getting more and more difficult to complete...


40) I tend to give up on things easily, so the fact that I am almost half way through this thing and still going impresses me very much.


41) When things get too difficult, I have the ability of being able to completely separate any thoughts or emotions about the incident, and go back on it later. It is a gift and a curse.


42) <- The answer to everything! :D


43) I am terrified of what my friends think of me. I haven't fully explained my current situation to them and I don't spend nowhere near as much time with them as I'd like too... I have way too much on lately...


44) I always cry at the wrong times, but can never cry when I want to... This sucks.


45) Every time I laugh, it sounds different. I can have the craziest, maniacal laugh, or a shy little giggle... I'm a mixed bag of laughs...


46) I would absolutely love to be a part of a musical cast. A major one like WICKED or Cats (wow would that one be fun!).


47) The reality of this happening is incredibly slim...


48) If any of my dogs were to die, I would probably be as devastated as I would be if it were any of my family members... They are such a huge part of my life.


49) I grew up listening to country music such as Garth Brooks and Kasey Chambers. I still listen to them and absolutely love them! I will never tire of their songs. :)


50) I started this a week ago, but due to assignments I completely forgot about completing it till now...


51) ZOMG! I'm past half way!!! :D


52) I have a set routine of doing certain things. I have a very specific order of what I do in the morning, right up to how I brush my teeth. I do the same things every single morning. If I don't, I don't feel right until it's corrected.


53) Talking to my Mum can become the most confusing, random conversations of all time... Sometimes it takes a good 10 minutes for Mum to begin to understand what I'm talking about, then I get confused about what she starts talking about... It's an endless cycle filled with lots of "WHAT!?!" "I don't know, I'm confused..." etc.


54) I can't hate a person. I have never been able to actually hate someone, and I don't plan to. I can dislike someone, but not hate. It sounds all cheesy, or fake. But it is 100% true.


55) <- I like double numbers... Don't know why. They're just cool. :D


56) I judge myself on the actions and decisions I make, more than I judge any other person on whatever they do.


57) I also am my own biggest critic.


58) Nowadays, if music isn't playing I feel rather lost... I play music in the background way too much! :P


59) I am not a morning person =.= I am writing this after getting up at 5am to try and work more on my Physics assignment... In the end, I basically got nothing done.


60) I am not easily distrac... Ooooh! Shiny! :D


61) I hate it when people judge me for my actions when they know nothing about me except my name and what grade I'm in.


62) I enjoy conversing with my friend [TeeGee] about topics such as the one above. ^^


63) I find it quite annoying when I struggle to think of things to put on this list while typing it up, but as soon as I shut down my laptop and head off to go do whatever I'm doing; multiple things come to mind. When I get back on, I've forgotten them. =.=


64) I am very fussy when it comes to desserts... Literally. I pretty much eat chocolate (that's plain milk chocolate mind you) and ice cream; and that's pretty much it.


65) Yes, I am a special child ^^


66) <- Add another 6 on that and that sums me up... Hehe.


67) I have the best immune system in my family. The amount of times my sister gets sick, which makes my brother and Mum sick, and for me not to get sick... Is around 300 out of 365 days in a year...


68) My incessant singing is the main reason for all the sore throats I get. :P


69) Need I say more? Hehe.


70) I am very competitive... And I can be a sore loser at times... I tend to not play many games with people where I could potentially lose, purely for the reason that I want to win. :P

71) People who don't know me that well seem to be intimidated or weirded out by me because I always seem to come across as either depressed, or ticked off...

72) I daydream... A lot! Thus why people seem to think I'm depressed...

73) I hate spiders. They creep me out sooo much! Ick.

74) I had nightmares for weeks involving the scene from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets with the giant spider... Let it be known that I was seven years old at the time... Though I will admit I'm still not entirely happy watching it even now... =.=

75) I don't like movies that originated from books. If I have read the books beforehand I expect so much from the movie, only to find they miss out half the storyline... Though it is entertaining having conversations with my Mum about why on earth certain scenes aren't in the movie, etc.

76) My Mum and I have the most random conversations at times. ^^

78) If I had to pick a favourite between my Mum and my Dad... It would be my Dad... I get along with him a lot better, and he is the reason why I listen to half the music I do! :D

79) I can be a hopeless romantic at times... But when I'm watching movies where they have cheesy love scenes, or kissing scenes in general, I just go "Bleh, move on...".

80) I can be incredibly bi-polar. ^^

81) <- I don't like odd numbers... They irritate me for some unknown reason.

82) <- I like even numbers or multiples of 5. It seems that numbers ending with a five seem to be the only odd numbers I can stand.

83) When I was around six years old, I was going into the spa. My cocker spaniel, Tia, followed me and looked as though she as about to jump in. My brother (quiet as he is) was saying, "No Tia", you know the usual... I turned around and said to him, "[Brother], I'll handle this. P*** off Tia!"

84) My Mum told me of this about half a week ago... She also told me she didn't tell me off because she was laughing too hard...

85) ^^ I have had the best upbringing ever! :P

86) I am finding the school's production of One to be absolutely horrible... I am already embarrassed and we haven't even begun full rehearsals yet. =.=

87) After watching the series, Charmed, I found that every now and again I would begin speaking like on of the three sisters... I switched between sisters all the time, depending on what I was saying...

88) I am sad to say that I no longer do that... It's been too long since I've watched it!

89) <- The age I would like to hope that I reach. If I reach this, my life is complete!

90) Thanks to [Phantomess], I have found that I think in LOL cat... It is actually really difficult to repress the urge to talk in it!

91) I am typing these next few up as fast as I can so I can get out on time for lunch...

92) I enjoy long walks on the beach, and kissing in the rain... Yeah, like every other girl in the world... :P

93) [GoJo] has now had two dreams involving me having a real 'fun' time with two of our guy friends... I am seriously worried.

94) I hate needles. I usually hyperventilate when in the waiting line beforehand... Yeah, it's bad...

95) Yet, I don't mind blood tests...? I don't feel a thing.

96) I tend to say goodbye in other languages more than English...

97) I love how my Biology teacher writes on my draft, "You've worked really hard on this, just work on these suggestions", then goes and fills every single page of my assignment with red pen. =.=

98) ZOMG! I'm so close I can taste it! Not literally, cause that would just be weird...

99) <- Oh yeah, double odd numbers seem to be all cool with me too... Chyeah.

100) I love finally being able to finish a list of 100 things... :D

~Au revoir~

Well Hi!

Hey there! How y'all been?

Yeah, I know I haven't blogged in a while... And believe me I've missed it!!!

The reason why I haven't been able to blog lately is because I was actually working on assignments... *Insert gasp of horror here*.

Oh I know, I know... It's impressive isn't it? :P

Anyways, for this blog I shall give a maybe-not-so-detailed description of random things I can remember over the past few days...

English Extension was actually OK for once... Mostly because our teacher, [Mr Noodleton], was almost as deliriously tired as the rest of us were and ended up cracking dirty jokes that had [GoJo] and I LOL'ing for rest of the lesson... Come on. Fallacious arguments? ... Let's just say [GoJo] and I couldn't read anything with a straight face or mind for the rest of the night... :P

After that, I headed over to [Riot!]'s place so I could tag along to one of his fencing sessions. I've always been interested in fencing; so I was keen to go see an actual training session in progress.

So we get to the place and the first thing [Riot!] and his Uncle do is a bow before entering the building. Here I am awkwardly shuffling in knowing that I don't have to do it, but still praying that no one will see me walk in without having done it... Yeah, nice one...

While [Riot!] was training, his Uncle (who had the class afterwards) was explaining me to the basics (and the not-so-basics) of fencing and what the different groups were doing... I was standing there completely confused by most of the terms he was using, but stood there smiling and nodding in agreement... Like the model woman I am! :P

All I remember are the order of the first half of classes you go in... Beginner, Novice, Scholar, Free Scholar... Yeah [Riot!] can rant at me for getting them wrong and remind me of the ones after that all he wants laterz... (So according to [Riot!] I have the first few right, which is a good sign! He just reminded me of the last three but I can't be bothered writing them in... :P)

The head of the fencing school is called the Maestro. Now I absolutely love this guy! (Not in any romantic way whatsoever because he's relatively older than me, has a wife and several kids (as informed by [Riot!]) and yeah, so ew.). But watching him randomly join a Scholar group in practice and do the moves with them was awe-inspiring... He performs the moves so effortlessly and dance-like it was actually quite hypnotizing!

At one point he was against the second highest fencer there (who I believe is in the Swordsmen class), and I was amazed at the speed and precision of them!

I think I was literally sitting there doing a :O face, not able to move. When they finished, I felt quite dizzy strangely...

RANDOM NOTE! I am currently listening to the song Jack Sparrow (I have mentioned this before...) But but but... It is such a damn catchy song! :D

 Michael Bolton: "Life is a box of chocolates, and my name is Forrest Gump. Though I may not be the sharpest tool in the shed... I give Jenny all of my love!"

Lonely Island: "Not good enough..."

Michael Bolton: "Okay then I'm a legal aide, Erin Brockavich is my name!"

Lonely Island: "No..."

Michael Bolton: "And you can call me Scarface... Snortin' mountains of Cocaine!"

Lonely Island: "Ugh, good enough..."

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

Anyways, moving on...

I have been reading all my friend's blogs and all have them have done a "100 Things About Me" theme... I'm tempted to do one myself, but I'm not sure if I want to become a conformist :P Or if I could actually finish the list...


I just realised how amazingly boring my life is currently... Most likely because I have assignments calling out to me in a creepy voice, saying how they are due in a day or two... Yet, I still don't find the motivation to do it! Instead, I go on Facebook, read blogs, talk to people on the phone, or on Windows Live Messenger.


Yesterday afternoon was another two hour rehearsal for the school musical thingo. Yeah, I'm still confused as heck about what's going on... All I remember from yesterday is being told that I get to be a stay-at-home Mum who is wearing a hippie-like outfit because I'm the 'Earth' element... Whatevs, I just like the idea of dressing up like a hippie! :D


Maybe I should dress up like that for the Inter-clan Athletics Carnival coming up... Naaaaaaa... But, I have no idea what I am going to dress up as! D: Oh well, I have three weeks in the holidays to figure it out...


"These tear dro-o-ops, that drip drop drip drop..." Oh Safura I love you! :)


So I am sitting in Spare currently, (after [Riot!] ditched me cause he's too chicken to face [TheLau]), and the most awesome sub teacher ever [Innes] is covering for a... Not so loved teacher [Kingy] while he's on paternity leave... (Nawwwws at having a baby though!)


Soon, most of the musos at our school will be headed out to Redbank to perform All That Jazz and Quad City Stomp for our adoring audiences... Eh, I just want time out of school! But in all seriousness, I hope we do well for our teacher's sake... I'm terrified she's going to pass out one day from over-stressing... Or maybe not! She could be one of those invincible teachers that never seem to get seriously injured or die... Like [CrabbyMenopausalBitch]...


Okay, no one is as bad as [CrabbyMenopausalBitch]...


KEY CHANGE! :D Both a reference to the production of [tos] which I shall be seeing very soon with all my groupies! :D It is also a reference that [Tenuto Tuo] would understand... "Now I wait, in the cold, and this is getting old..." Alsou FTW!


Ooooh! Now it's Lipstick! :D


Okay okay... I shall move on from bantering about songs...


Except now I have run out of things to talk about... Hmmm...


Considering I haven't blogged in a fair while I would think I would have more to talk... And I did! I remember all last week something would come up and I would be all like ZOMG! BLOG WORTHY! But then I go to start a blog and sit there going 'uhmmmmm...' Yeah, I love how my brain works! =.=


So, I should probably wrap this up... (Finally, it's taken me over two days to write this thing :P)...


Go forth with the wise words of Jedward.


~"You gotta know just how to treat this miss, or she'll be dismissed..."~

A Potentially Pointless Post...

"Here I come, da da dum..." I totally do not have the song Lipstick by Jedward in my head at all, no... *Shifty eyes*... As well as Taken By A Stranger by Lena Meyer-Landrut... Hehehe...


So in case you didn't know already... The Eurovision Song Contest has been and gone... Turns out that Azerbaijan won... To which my reaction was WHAAAAAA?!?! Because, let's face it, it wasn't my most favourite of songs...


One of my favourites was Popular by Eric Saade for Sweden. Though he isn't the best when it comes to singing live, it's still a catchy song and of course... I loves me some Eric Saade! ^^)


I actually liked quite a fair few songs this year! I actually wanted a few countries to win... But one of them was NOT Azerbaijan... Let's just say that the stage next year will be nowhere near as epic as the stage was in Düsseldorf this year... *Sigh*


Moving on... [Carl] showed me a new song from the Lonely Islands a couple of days ago called Jack Sparrow. It features Michael Bolton. Though I have never heard of him before in my life, I absolutely have fallen in love with his voice... And the fact that he is referred to as a "cinephile" which means someone who is quite fond of films...


The song is the most random thing I have ever heard... You have the Lonely Islands singing about being in a club and trying to hook up with these girls (you know, the usual kind of music we have nowadays...), then you have Michael just randomly start singing about Jack Sparrow! The first time I heard this I was literally LOL'ing for quite some time...


Especially when later on you have Michael dress up and sing about Jack Sparrow, Forrest Gump, Erin Brockavich (Yes, that is a scary one...) and Scarface (while throwing around cocaine...). I mean... What's not to love? :P


Of course the language in the song isn't the best at times... (Especially the very last line). But the song is insanely catchy! I didn't think it would get in my head and stay there as much as it has... Of course, this makes it difficult to think... What with all the other Eurovision, Eric Saade, WICKED, and other random songs from anything beginning with Chamber Singers to (what I think) is classic music that I have grown up with (mostly my Dad's music (which is a fair amount of country...)).


I'm not entirely sure what the point of this post was... But I am running out of time (Spare lesson) so I shall end it here! :D


~This is the tale of Captain Jack Sparrow~

Whaaaaa?

So this weekend my parents organised a weekend away to Mooloolaba... I was never keen on this idea, but I was especially not keen when I found out that we would be taking the dogs with us (3 sulky dogs in a car for 2 hours equals -.-), I would be missing out on the Eurovision party that [Tenuto Tuo] held last night, and that I would not be able to communicate with anybody except for [Carl].
It's not that I don't like talking to [Carl]! It's just that I wanted to talk to other people as well... But I couldn't unless I wanted to waste all my credit within two days... Let's just say I was going through major internet deprivations all weekend... >.<


The most interesting part of this weekend would have been the body art... Sure I wasn't keen on the idea that there were girls wearing nothing but underwear and paint in front of me, but the actual art was beautiful! Oh, and there were also guys wearing nothing but shorts (short shorts...) so I was cool with it I guess... ;P


I just found out that [Tenuto Tuo] is now single... First reaction? :O Whaaaaaaaaaa?


I literally started crying while reading his last blog (ever)... No idea why, but I did... I absolutely adored them as a couple and (at times) was quite jealous of what they had! But what's done is done, and I know for a fact that [Tenuto Tuo] will move on and find someone else and be oh-so-happy! :) And that's all I want for my best friend. <3


Anyways, I know this is a bit short but I don't really know what to talk about... I mean, there's heaps! But I don't know what exactly to put into this post... So I shall just leave it here for now...


~You'll come back, when they call you, no need to say goodbye...~

We Want Zheroooooo!!!

So (as mentioned yesterday) Channel 10 and the Fatality Free Friday Foundation came to our school... Robbing us of precious time that could've been used to learn Maths & Physics *cough*, only to make us say "We want zero!" Jumping up on the zero... The sentence refers to the number of deaths on the road...


Anyways, so my gorgeous [Phantomess] was interviewed along with a fellow male student... But only the guy was shown on TV... When it was over I was like "Whaaaaaa? Why wasn't [Phantomess] on there? What is this!". Then I totally flipped out and threw the TV out the window... Yeah sure... If this was an extremely over-exaggerated movie of a dramatic genre... But let's just say I did 'cause it makes me look totally buff... Hehehe.


On another note... We we're watching the movie Fireproof in RAVE this afternoon... The movie bored me to death... But the idea of the 40 day challenge intrigued me... Oh right, some of you may have no idea what I am talking about... My apologies!


Basically this dude is a total a**hole to his wife and has been for quite some time... They are both at each other's throats constantly, then the wife says she wants a divorce. He thinks she's been treating him badly, and that he hasn't done anything at all wrong etcetera; and he tells his Dad about how they're getting a divorce and how she's a b***h and other stuff...


So his Dad hands over a small notebook that contains the "Love Dare" telling him to ask his wife to wait 40 days; giving him time to complete the challenge...
In the notebook it lists things to do for 40 days... For example:
Day 1: "If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all." So you know he just had to keep his mouth shut all day...


Then the days continued with different things he would do to try to win her back. Buy roses, learn about her (here he organises this beautiful dinner and she totes rejects him and goes to bed. I think I found this bit too funny...). About half way through he has to start getting rid of all the bad things like any addictions he has (he watched porn all the time... So he ended up smashing the whole computer with a baseball bat (I swear he smashed too many things in that movie with the bat... I reckon that addiction needed to go too!)).


Anyways, so yeah I was just thinking about how whether or not that really works or not... (Turns out in the end it was a way to get Caleb (the dude potentially getting the divorce) to become Christian so I was like uhhh great...).
If I leave out the Christianity bit, I'm curious as to how whether or not that would really work... Or whether or not a guy would put effort into something like that to save a marriage... Etcetera, etcetera... My mind goes on pointless rambles I swear...


Oh yeah... And he gets his girl back in the end...Happily ever after, and all the usual stuff you hear.... Blech, where's some creativity people?!?


On a random note... My single rein is now over... (So soon she cries!). I'm kidding [Riot!]! :P Yes, that would be the lucky fellow ;P. [Phantomess] knows exactly what I'm talking about when I say that I am the best damn girlfriend/wife material round ;) hehehehe...


No, no... In all seriousness now... Ehhhh, what am I kidding... I'm in no serious mood! Jeez, what world do you live in if you expect me to be all serious like? :O Shame on you...


On another random note... [Phantomess] you better get yourself [tos] tickets verrrry soon, so [Clearly Unfocused] can get the rest of ours, so I can get all hyped up for it chyeahhh? :D Coolz, it's agreed... Hehehe.


Oooooooh! That reminds me... All my musically talented friends :) We need to convince [BlueEyes] to let us go see Doctor Zhivago! I tried... And failed... She didn't even notice my attempts... I was totes devo ;(.


So ummm... I might leave your confuzzled minds so you can retain some sanity again from another one of my pointless rants! :D


~Who knows where this symphony's going...~