Hey guys, it has indeed been a while... But as I think I explained in my previous blog, I am currently in the midst of exams and stuff! So, in reality, I shouldn't even really be typing this... I really ought to be studying the heck out of statistics but... After how my Ecology exam went today, I'm kinda in a bit of a very anti-study mood (and I mean more than usual).
This past month has been quite uneventful really... Well, I somewhat lie... The weekend just after my last blog was the much awaited Eurovision Song Contest which I enjoyed watching with [K-Dawg], [Tenuto Tuo], [GoJo], [OldMan], [Phantomess], [Clearly Unfocused], and a couple others. My favourite ended up winning, so I couldn't complain really! The following week consisted of a Biochem prac exam (which I kinda failed.. Yay) as well as the second Ecology assignment being due (yeah, that wasn't exactly the greatest thing I've handed in either...). The week after was the really stressful one though, as it was the week that the massive Anatomy assignment (where we create our own animal) was due with Dinner Under The Stars being the night before... For those who don't know, DUTS is a fancy dinner for all those who live on halls, where we dress all pretty and it's generally masquerade themed; where we dine and be merry. Oh, and the MTV videos are revealed from each hall. They try to act as though that's not what we all go to see, but it's pretty damn obvious. I wait all damn night for those videos, and as soon as it's over and the winner is announced I just wanna go home! :P
So, Pitt came third again... The results were literally almost identical to last year, except Shelton & Riddell swapped around first and second position. Shelton won with Lion King and the Spice Girls. Pretty sure it was LK that won us all over... Including the judges... Damn them!
Since then? I've been studying! And by studying I mean procrastinating the shiz out of everything and only really studying the day before... And I've only had one exam so far out of four so... Yeeaahhh. I really haven't been doing anything with myself. I studied my little heart out for Ecology though in those few hours that I did, but what happened? Yeah, I sat the exam and... There was 12 questions, right? Two of them I could guarantee decent marks for. The rest? Didn't really go over it... At all... I appeared to have studied everything else but... The utter terror that flooded through my body when I was flicking through the paper during perusal was just ugh... It was a lot different to what I (and a lot of other students) were expecting, but I feel as though I was one of the only people in the room who really struggled (aka failed miserably). Which kinda sucks... Cause the exams that are this week, I just really wanna pass! That's all I want! Biochem next week is a different story... I've failed everything in that course so far, so kinda need 76% on the final exam. It's 40 multiple choice questions... So I need to get 31 of them right, and I /should/ just scrape a pass. That is, if my grade calculator isn't telling me fibs.
Anyways! I'm gonna move on! Because Uni is currently depressing the heck outta me.Have you ever had an experience where something may have happened between you and someone, anyone. It was most likely an accident, or something that was initially completely innocent or fine; but you've never regretted it more in your life because of how the people around you took it? Cause I had that the weekend just gone, and I'm still quite irritated about it to be perfectly honest.
Maybe it's because I'm such a blasé person, or my history, or a bit of both that makes me the person I am... But when a certain event went down this weekend (and I am not sharing this on the internet, as there is no need for me too), I had to seriously rethink some things.
It was an accident, and it was innocent. At least, I would deem that innocent; and I'm sure most people would agree with me if they knew the situation. It's... Hard to explain without going into the details of it but... A friend was told of this situation a couple days after it happened, and his reaction literally angered me. It was the kind of reaction you would expect if [K-Dawg] and I had pre-marital sex with each other or something along those lines... (And no, we have not done that; and will not do that. And what we did was nowhere near that bad (at least that's what I think about it.).) Which reminds me! It still amazes me how little faith some people have in either of us. I don't care if you trust both of us, but if you trust at least one of us implicitly; there should be nothing to worry about. Especially when it comes to [K-Dawg]. Anyone who knows him should know he was the strongest morals and beliefs I have ever seen in anyone. And nothin' ain't gonna break through that! Heck, I could probably throw myself at him and he would barely sway (hypothetically guys, again... I would never do that...). And, that's another point. I always feel like I have to justify myself after I say things like that. Should I have too? No! I /should/ be able to say what I please and not feel like I have to justify myself afterward. Heck, I even do it with [K-Dawg]; who probably knows I'm joking, or being stupid. But I do it anyway! Because the new "world" I've been introduced too just has me on edge all the time that I'm gonna do one little thing wrong and it'll all be over. The last four and a half months, gone. Nada. Sayonara! So yes... The event that accidentally occurred over the weekend will most definitely not happen again... I'm not saying that I wanted it to happen often necessarily... But after the reactions and stress I experienced? No thanks. It wasn't even self created. It was all from other people that I got so stressed out over it. I didn't give a damn! I was like "oh... Yeah, we probably shouldn't have done it but.. Hey! It was an accident! We didn't mean to do it, and so long as we're perfectly honest about everything; she'll be apples, yeah?". Hmm... Maybe I was thinking like that. The couple others I was hanging round didn't think the same when they found out... Seriously, I just... I can't get over how much fanfare was created over it... It was, utterly ridiculous. But I'm going to shut up now because yeah... It's hard talking about something without actually stating what it is but... You've gotta trust me when I say I'd really prefer this not to be on the internet guys.
As for what I'm doing right now? Well, apart from typing this up... Trying to find the motivation to keep doing statistics for tomorrow's exam but... Knowing me, I'm gonna end up at Macca's instead having some comfort food and procrastinating as much as I physically can; cause it's all I'm good at!I know this blog isn't overly long... And I've already swayed a little off my previous blog post structure. But, my current mood is kind of affecting that guys sorry! I honestly can't think of any interactive type discussion things (apart from my mini rant up there... Feel free to comment if you understand what I'm goin' on about, and/or have a similar story!) and my life just isn't that interesting currently when I'm not in soap opera dramas.
So. I should really get back to studying at some point tonight so I shall finish off here with well wishes for any fellow student who is struggling through examinations as well, and... Yeah!
P.S. Don't mind the random colour change behind the words... Formatting went a bit cray cray with this one for some stupid reason and I couldn't set it back...
~Just give me a reason, just a little bit enough~
This past month has been quite uneventful really... Well, I somewhat lie... The weekend just after my last blog was the much awaited Eurovision Song Contest which I enjoyed watching with [K-Dawg], [Tenuto Tuo], [GoJo], [OldMan], [Phantomess], [Clearly Unfocused], and a couple others. My favourite ended up winning, so I couldn't complain really! The following week consisted of a Biochem prac exam (which I kinda failed.. Yay) as well as the second Ecology assignment being due (yeah, that wasn't exactly the greatest thing I've handed in either...). The week after was the really stressful one though, as it was the week that the massive Anatomy assignment (where we create our own animal) was due with Dinner Under The Stars being the night before... For those who don't know, DUTS is a fancy dinner for all those who live on halls, where we dress all pretty and it's generally masquerade themed; where we dine and be merry. Oh, and the MTV videos are revealed from each hall. They try to act as though that's not what we all go to see, but it's pretty damn obvious. I wait all damn night for those videos, and as soon as it's over and the winner is announced I just wanna go home! :P
So, Pitt came third again... The results were literally almost identical to last year, except Shelton & Riddell swapped around first and second position. Shelton won with Lion King and the Spice Girls. Pretty sure it was LK that won us all over... Including the judges... Damn them!
Since then? I've been studying! And by studying I mean procrastinating the shiz out of everything and only really studying the day before... And I've only had one exam so far out of four so... Yeeaahhh. I really haven't been doing anything with myself. I studied my little heart out for Ecology though in those few hours that I did, but what happened? Yeah, I sat the exam and... There was 12 questions, right? Two of them I could guarantee decent marks for. The rest? Didn't really go over it... At all... I appeared to have studied everything else but... The utter terror that flooded through my body when I was flicking through the paper during perusal was just ugh... It was a lot different to what I (and a lot of other students) were expecting, but I feel as though I was one of the only people in the room who really struggled (aka failed miserably). Which kinda sucks... Cause the exams that are this week, I just really wanna pass! That's all I want! Biochem next week is a different story... I've failed everything in that course so far, so kinda need 76% on the final exam. It's 40 multiple choice questions... So I need to get 31 of them right, and I /should/ just scrape a pass. That is, if my grade calculator isn't telling me fibs.
Anyways! I'm gonna move on! Because Uni is currently depressing the heck outta me.Have you ever had an experience where something may have happened between you and someone, anyone. It was most likely an accident, or something that was initially completely innocent or fine; but you've never regretted it more in your life because of how the people around you took it? Cause I had that the weekend just gone, and I'm still quite irritated about it to be perfectly honest.
Maybe it's because I'm such a blasé person, or my history, or a bit of both that makes me the person I am... But when a certain event went down this weekend (and I am not sharing this on the internet, as there is no need for me too), I had to seriously rethink some things.
It was an accident, and it was innocent. At least, I would deem that innocent; and I'm sure most people would agree with me if they knew the situation. It's... Hard to explain without going into the details of it but... A friend was told of this situation a couple days after it happened, and his reaction literally angered me. It was the kind of reaction you would expect if [K-Dawg] and I had pre-marital sex with each other or something along those lines... (And no, we have not done that; and will not do that. And what we did was nowhere near that bad (at least that's what I think about it.).) Which reminds me! It still amazes me how little faith some people have in either of us. I don't care if you trust both of us, but if you trust at least one of us implicitly; there should be nothing to worry about. Especially when it comes to [K-Dawg]. Anyone who knows him should know he was the strongest morals and beliefs I have ever seen in anyone. And nothin' ain't gonna break through that! Heck, I could probably throw myself at him and he would barely sway (hypothetically guys, again... I would never do that...). And, that's another point. I always feel like I have to justify myself after I say things like that. Should I have too? No! I /should/ be able to say what I please and not feel like I have to justify myself afterward. Heck, I even do it with [K-Dawg]; who probably knows I'm joking, or being stupid. But I do it anyway! Because the new "world" I've been introduced too just has me on edge all the time that I'm gonna do one little thing wrong and it'll all be over. The last four and a half months, gone. Nada. Sayonara! So yes... The event that accidentally occurred over the weekend will most definitely not happen again... I'm not saying that I wanted it to happen often necessarily... But after the reactions and stress I experienced? No thanks. It wasn't even self created. It was all from other people that I got so stressed out over it. I didn't give a damn! I was like "oh... Yeah, we probably shouldn't have done it but.. Hey! It was an accident! We didn't mean to do it, and so long as we're perfectly honest about everything; she'll be apples, yeah?". Hmm... Maybe I was thinking like that. The couple others I was hanging round didn't think the same when they found out... Seriously, I just... I can't get over how much fanfare was created over it... It was, utterly ridiculous. But I'm going to shut up now because yeah... It's hard talking about something without actually stating what it is but... You've gotta trust me when I say I'd really prefer this not to be on the internet guys.
As for what I'm doing right now? Well, apart from typing this up... Trying to find the motivation to keep doing statistics for tomorrow's exam but... Knowing me, I'm gonna end up at Macca's instead having some comfort food and procrastinating as much as I physically can; cause it's all I'm good at!I know this blog isn't overly long... And I've already swayed a little off my previous blog post structure. But, my current mood is kind of affecting that guys sorry! I honestly can't think of any interactive type discussion things (apart from my mini rant up there... Feel free to comment if you understand what I'm goin' on about, and/or have a similar story!) and my life just isn't that interesting currently when I'm not in soap opera dramas.
So. I should really get back to studying at some point tonight so I shall finish off here with well wishes for any fellow student who is struggling through examinations as well, and... Yeah!
P.S. Don't mind the random colour change behind the words... Formatting went a bit cray cray with this one for some stupid reason and I couldn't set it back...
~Just give me a reason, just a little bit enough~
