Randomness at it's finest!

Hey there fellow Earthlings!

It's been a while... I know... My laziness amazes me. Honestly! I even had a discussion with my Father about this recently about how I'm seriously hoping that now all exams are over and everything; that I can really get my life rolling, and actually keep on top of shiz! ... Starting tomorrow ;)

Naaa, but seriously... Exams are done and dusted for the year, as is Uni... Finally... And what did I receive a day before my final exam? A letter from Halls telling me that I have been accepted next year... YAY! Or.. Perhaps not... As it was a conditional acceptance. Basically, I have to pass the two exams I just sat and have to arrange a meeting with the Head of Halls at the start of next year... The meeting I don't have an issue with. It's the passing that I'm worried about. It had me stressing to the point where I couldn't sleep that night and I had to be up at 6am... To arrive at Uni at 7:30am... When the exam didn't even start till 11:15am! (Oh the joys of no public transport being available that early...)

Let's just say that by the time I got home (after a two hour exam and three hour public transport trip), I was ready for a very loving relationship with my bed... Thank goodness the feeling was mutual ;)

Hmm.. What else... Ooh! I now have my P's and my very own car! :D Yes! I now am the proud owner of a (slightly banged up) '99 Ford Festiva Trio... I am now also crying at the expenses that come with owning a car... :P

I kinda flipped out in the test when going for my P's... The guy I was with was very subtle, and didn't directly ask me to do certain things as my Indian driving instructor was... So the difference threw me off a little, but I still passed with only two non-criticals so... Pretty happy :)

So the other day I saw [Carl] post a status on Facebook that simply stated 'Defying Gravity'... Me, being the WICKED lover I am, and the fact that the first time I went to see it was with him; was going to like his status due to these reasons.. Until I saw that he had tagged his girlfriend in it... Yeah... And the comments underneath:


Girlfriend: 'Bahahahahaha omg I so wanna go see wicked again :('
[Carl]: 'i will take you :3'

Now... This hurt. And this hurt a frickin' lot.

Of course I don't, necessarily, mind the idea of [Carl] having moved on and, obviously, if he is to go see WICKED again; I will not be his partner... I guess it's just the fact that he had posted it like that on Facebook so easily; along with all the sickeningly love sick puppy statuses and wall posts they've been posting to each other... It just got too much! I started thinking about that day...

It was amazing.! No matter what has gone down between [Carl] and I... I will always remember that day. I was dressed in a short green dress, and he was dressed somewhat smartly as well... I remember both of us being so blown away by Defying Gravity that we had both practically melted into our seats, unable to move... I hold that memory very dear to my heart, as I do with many memories... Cause that's what they're there for... To look back on and reminisce on happily! Not with any resentful thoughts just because the relationship turned sour... I can't stand the idea of looking back on that day and thinking of it negatively... I mean... What good does it do?

So [Dancer] invited me to a get together themed around her leaving us to go to another state for six months... I met a few people there, and we hit it off right away; heading down to the local Macca's and sitting on a 'spider's web'  in a children's playground watching YouTube videos and singing along to random songs... Before this we went to a Prayer session, which I have never attended before... I was willing to give it a try though, and actually had a pretty good time!

As much as the whole church/prayer groups/gatherings sort of thing isn't really how I roll... It was nice to be able to sing some hymns and focus on him for a small while, along with huddling in a small circle with a few of the girls and giving thanks for different things in our lives. It was a touching experience, yet completely overwhelming... There were hardcore believers there, and I just know that I'm not at that same level as they are... I also was never entirely sure what to do or say, but that's why I had [Dancer] there with me ;P

Oooh! Random story here... About, oh I don't know, a couple of weeks ago...? Another of [Carl]'s exes inboxed me out of the blue. We're not friends or anything, but she sent me a message asking me to put her mind at ease by just letting her know if we had done anything while they were dating... ([Carl] and I were friends at this point so, she had a fair reason to be wary).

So, I let her know that nothing of the sort had gone down; and we then began a beautiful conversation about potatoes... Running kids over... Work... Life in general... Getting to know each other a bit... And the expected side comment about [Carl] here and there as he was the initial starter to the whole thing, and the reason we are now speaking :P

So I have a co-worker who, since our very first shift, I have gotten along with insanely well. The two of us run amuck at Subway, making incredibly dirty jokes pretty much all the time, and basically just never stop laughing and having a good time! I don't think I have ever let myself feel such little shame and open up so quickly as I have with him; and apparently he doesn't go round chatting to people like he does with me either!

So... We met up today, after my work shift, with no plan whatsoever. We ended up just driving around the suburbia near my house and just chilling at different parks... Having tickle wars, making the most random and ricidulous of noises, wrestling and falling into prickly bark, being eaten alive by mozzies, multiple grammatical mistakes, and running from rain... We also went to Macca's where [Carl] just happened to be working... Thankfully, I don't think he paid much attention due to him being on the Drive-Thru... But yeah... I had fun! He is one of the most random guys I have ever met, but is so damn funny...

I'll admit, I may have developed a small crush... I'm not thinking too much of it at the moment though because I don't want to ruin the friendship we have; and the fact that he only broke up with his most recent girlfriend yesterday... And also considering that it's so soon after [Riot!]... Ha! One minute I'm telling myself I wanna be single and free, and the next I'm falling for my crazy co-worker... Figures! :P

Oh, and before some people decide to ask... Yes, he is younger than me! Approximately a year or so... So the younger-than-me trend is still in full swing :P And I should probably give him a blog nickname... Hmmm... How's about [Boltin']? I think that suits just fine... Oh! And did I mention that he has a six-pack! ;) Not that that matters or anything but... Come on... SIX PACK! Hehehehehe.

So yeah... That's a rather quick catch up of the going's on in my life right now! It is currently Christmas Eve Eve and I have a few things planned out this week, so pretty keen!

Christmas Eve: Planning on wrapping presents, as well as the usual tradition between [Dancer]'s family and mine where they come over to our place for the night and we have a good ol' time playing silly games and eating cake that appears to have a little too much rum in it...

Christmas: Well duh... Need I say more? It's Christmas! :D PRESENTS!!! Wooo! Hahaha. And the tradition continues with [Dancer] as we then go to their place (or is the other way round? We go to theirs on the eve, and they come to ours on Christmas..? I don't know.. It's one way ;P) that night and basically do the same thing all over again! Except with an exchange of gifts as well ;D

Boxing Day: As far as I'm aware... [Phantomess] is organising a belated, cheesy, Christmas gathering at a nearby park which should be fun! Also, a high school friend has invited me to his 19th party at a hotel in the city... I really would love to go! My only dilemma is whether I'll have someone to talk too or not there, seeing as most of the people that are going to be there I either won't know or where the 'popular' kids at my school, when I was in the nerdier crowd...

27th: During the day? Nothing... But that night? Subway is having a work Christmas party and what are we doing..? LASER TAG! I swear... This week just keeps gettin' better and better! :D

28th: MY BIRTHDAY BITCHES! *Ahem* Yes... In case you didn't notice the words in bold, I am turning the ripe old age of 19 that day! ... No, I have nothing planned... Yes, I will most likely spend that day vegging out on the couch Facebooking and playing the online game I have recently gotten hooked into... You know Wizard101? The game I am basing my fanfic off of? Well.. They have another branch called Pirate101 and, let's just say, it's better than W101... :P

After that, I don't really have any plans! I would like to say that I have New Years Eve plans, but sadly I do not... At this rate it looks like I'll be waiting till next year for the New Years Kiss! ;P

I must fly now my birdies... But I shall (hopefully) find the motivation to write another blog after my birthday or, if not, then New Years... K? K.

~It ain't super smart to leave me alone...~

A Crazy Cat's Tale

What's happening guys? Nothing? Sweet. You can hear me ramble on about the pointlessness that is my life! YAY! :D

*Ahem* So, yeah.. You want the recent news? Well, the most recent that I can think of is that [Riot!] and I broke up...

Yes! It be true... After basically an entire year apart due to me living at Uni; our relationship seemed to be declining steadily through the second half.. Well... Mostly during the last couple of weeks of Uni/school into the holidays. Long distance relationships are really difficult to keep going... And it got to the point where we were discovering we were keeping things from each other (such as him now being bisexual, which was a bit of a shock... I mean... I don't have anything against that, but; it makes you question things, a lot), and somewhat lying directly to each other about certain things. A great basis for trust, no? But yeah... We were going to end it mutually, and somewhat civilly. But shit went down last night and we ended up snarling at each other through Facebook and calling it quits then and there...

It wasn't the way I wanted to end things with him, that's for sure. As much as I could see that we were failing as a duo, and that we might just not be right for each other; I never EVER wanted to see him hurt, in any way. That's why I find it so difficult to end relationships at times... I always have some residing feelings, as well as an overly caring nature that makes it so damn hard to see them hurting...

But yeah! I'm now a single pringle... For the first time in.. Gawsh... Five to six years? At least? I mean... I had a brief time period between [Carl] and [Riot!], but that was small.. And [Carl] was still chasing after me, so it didn't really feel like I was single at the time...

To be honest, I don't feel the full effects of being single yet. Granted, it's been a day... But I also have University exams and my driving test coming up in two weeks time that have me partially terrified, and are taking up all my focus and energy. But my co-worker and I (who just happens to have gone to the same school that I graduated from, though he left in year ..7? Or 8. One of them!) were talking about New Year's Eve coming up and our previous years, and our plans for this one.

My co-worker, newly dubbed [Quintessential], has recently come out of a relationship himself; and was telling me how he's not interested in getting into another relationship for quite some time... When we had this discussion I was still with [Riot!], but I can definitely see his point now.

I have been in a relationship for the past six years of my life (approximating here); and, to be honest, I am sick of it. I have no interest in settling down again anytime soon. I'm young! I have so much potential, and so much to go out and enjoy! I've lived a pretty sheltered life... I've never been to many parties. Never had the chance to just flirt with a guy for the hell of it, with no intentions of going anywhere. I've never even had a New Year's Kiss and I've bloody had a boyfriend for the past few years! No... Instead, I sit at home with the family watching the fireworks at midnight, then go to bed...

Some people might like that idea, and I did... Up until I was about 16. Ever since then I've been wanting to be in the midst of it all. Soaking up the crazy atmosphere as it turns to a new year, and having a fun new year's kiss! Not 100% sure if I'm completely okay with it being with some random... I know I'd definitely prefer it if it was someone I knew and somewhat had a nice connection with; not necessarily in the relationship way. But yeah... I guess I've just been so shy and awkward with my Asperger's; and now that Gatton has brought me right out of my shell, I just wanna live it up for a while!

Especially this New Year's... I haven't worked out a plan yet; but I am definitely going to look into seeing who'll come out with me to some currently unknown place and party it up with me!

Oh.. And I also received an e-mail from my University saying that I was rejected a room for next year... That was heart breaking. It's hard to describe how I feel about Halls life, and how badly I want to be there next year... Making a difference... Making myself known and improving my life experiences in the process. I'm quite jealous of [Bestiality] who got the job as a Residential Staff member.. I'm obviously happy for her as well! But incredibly jealous as she's now guaranteed a room... Same with [Chappy] getting Res Club. Happy for them, but insanely jealous...

I sent off an e-mail inquiring as to why I got rejected as I think it's due to my GPA currently. It's sitting on a 2 (fail) because I've failed a subject, and my other subjects I've yet to receive a result for because I deferred them... They don't accept people back onto Halls if you've failed overall in the semester... So, even though I'm not going to fail this semester, it currently looks like I have... I am seriously hoping I can go back next year otherwise I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with myself... I mean... I'd have to transit back and forth, which is an hour each way. The time and distance I could relatively handle... The cost for petrol though?! Hideous. I don't even wanna think about it!

I'm headed to the beach tomorrow with my high school group of friends, and I'm pretty keen! :) Haven't caught up with everyone in oh so long... The baby of the group, [Phantomess], is also finally turning 18 and hosting a birthday shindig on Saturday; so more catching up will occur then as well! Which reminds me... Really should go buy my dear husband a present! Ahhh, procrastination at it's finest [Miss Invisible].

... I don't really have much else to talk about tonight really. Not until some worthy action occurs so I can inform y'all about it anyways... Which won't be until exam time onward, as I won't be doing anything overly fascinating until then apart from study; as entertaining as you all would find that to read, I'm sure ;P

I can safely say though, that I am slowly finding peace with everything. I'm going to hurt after [Riot!] for a bit, but I'll move on... I'm happy for [Carl] and his new found girlfriend (even though their puppy love so openly spread over Facebook is rather annoying, as I find all relationships like that...); and I'm single and ready to mingle! Watch out for this crazy cat y'all ;D Hehe.
I'm also planning on continuing work on my fanfic after the exams are over; regardless of the fact that I based my main character off of [Riot!]. I love this fanfic to pieces and am not going to give it up. I'll still base it off of him, and I'll still write the story as it was always to be written; nothing's going to affect that..
And I'm also planning on really looking into continuing my self-learning of Italian and completely start fresh with Spirit Science. I looked into it a while back briefly, but have never found the effort to actually do something about it. It really interests me and compliments my beliefs quite well; so I really want to delve into that and learn as much as possible!

Random side note... [Dancer] came back from a two week trip to China and can I just say how insanely jealous I am of her?! I mean... China would be such a pretty place to go too!!! D': But the worst part? She got to hand feed a tiger cub... If I didn't love her, I would have killed her out of jealous by now! ;P Kidding of course, but damn... You lucky thing!!! O.O

Anyways... I'm going to let y'all go now! Have fun in the real world kiddies, and always stay safe! ;P

~I'm feeling so shady lately~