Believe It, Or Not!

Well, over the past few days I have been struggling to find motivation or a topic to blog about... And honestly, I still can't! But I'm being peer pressured by [Riot!] so I guess I don't have a choice... :P

Today I went to the Coast of Gold to check out Ripley's Believe It Or Not with the family, which turned out to be quite good fun! I mean, you had your really freaky things in there like masks made of human skulls, shrunken heads, two-headed animals and baby... Not to mention the people with abilities such as: being able to pop their eyes out of their socket way too far, crocodile teeth dentures, enchanting snakes to crawl in the nose and out the mouth, and spending around $375,000 on food every day; yet still starving their mother to death to be able to rule their world... But hey! There's the cool stuff too! :P

Oh, and there was also a Street Performer's Festival on at the same time which was cool cause I got to see a guy on a twelve-foot high unicycle at one point, two girls in black and white riding around on a ribbon-y bike while bopping to a song that this guy is singing at another, a teenage girl singing opera at another, and one of those people who act as statues freak out a little kid... Ahhh gotta love thinking something is a legitimate statue only to have them suddenly move and go "BOO!' at you...

So yeah, I got about three hours driving in today, which puts my total up to about 30-31 hours... Only 69-70 more hours to go! Woo! :P Well, if I think about it... I only need around 40 more hours driving with my family, then 10 hours with a driving instructor and I'm done! /Sigh/ Hopefully I get them real soon so I can drive wherever the heck I want, when I want! :P

So I've read on a couple of my friend's blogs about what they do on their holidays... So why not copy! :P

Well, so far these holidays I don't think I've had a single day just at home yet... I've had One rehearsals, catching up with friends/[Riot!], or going out with family to places... In a way it's been a good thing because it's been able to distract me from the ugly situation I'm in which I am reminded of whenever I have a chance to really think about it...

As you know, I finally told [Carl] that I didn't want to be anything but friends with him, which then turned into him deleting me off of Facebook for reasons unknown to me at the time...

Well, a couple of nights ago I made the stupid mistake to talk to him... I mean, after two years of talking to each other every single day in some way or form to have then gone a week with absolutely zero contact, and having no way of knowing what he's thinking/feeling; I couldn't take it anymore!

Anyway, things started out awkward but okay, until [Carl] just decided to snap at me so I left it at that... The next night he apologised but things quickly turned sour again so I have now blocked him on MSN; and am not planning on talking to him for quite sometime... Except for times when I'll have no choice such as One rehearsals...

I don't know... I'd still love to be just friends with him! But with [Carl] it's either everything or nothing at all... And as much as it sucks, I am not willing to be everything with him right now...

/Sigh/... Well that's certainly not where I wanted this blog to go... But I am struggling to find much else to talk about because this current issue is consuming my thoughts a heck of a lot more than I thought it was...

~It's amazing how comforting three Maltese Terriers are in your time of need~

On The Days I Can't See Your Eyes, I Don't Even Want To Open Mine

So yesterday I was at Southbank with my family... So what did I do? I listened to my iPod, and people watched. Man, the people you see at Southbank is insane! Within five minutes I had already seen two girls modelling in corsets (the amount of guys lining up and snapping pictures was crazy... Like dudes, keep it in yo pants =.=) and someone fast asleep on the grass, using their bag as a pillow... Not to mention the usual sorts of people you come across. This includes; bitchy school girls, bogans, classy arty people, people who hold themselves like a classy person but are wearing bogan clothes, creepy old men who stare at you as you walk by /shudder/ and adorable children who make you want to go and hug them randomly... :D

I did notice that I listened to Manboy quite a bit yesterday after [Tenuto Tuo] reminded me how that song is the reason I listen to most of the music I listen to nowadays! /Reminisces/ Ahhhh Eric Saade, how I love you... <3

Another song I listened to a fair bit was God Damn You're Beautiful by Chester See. I was introduced to this song through one of my old Adelaide friends posting it on their profile. The first time I heard it I was like "Eh", but of course like any good song it eventually won my heart... :) Especially yesterday when I was almost tearing up listening to it!

I would absolutely love it if life could stay the way it is right now, forever... (Fat chance, but you know... Here's hoping! :D) Yesterday I felt no stress at all! I was just wondering round Southbank casually watching people, and listening to songs that made me have to watch myself or people would start looking at me going "WTF!?!?! She's crying/grinning like an idiot? What the heck is that girl on!?!?!". Yeah, Chester See can do that to me... I have no idea how! Maybe it's because it's one of those exceedingly cheesy love songs that I am falling so hard for right now...


Shuddup! Don't judge me! =.=


Random side note: But I felt that I should inform both [Tenuto Tuo] and [Riot!] that I do not appreciate the both of you ganging up on me this afternoon! I know you both will read this, and I would just like to say that I will NOT put my hearts in the air, and I would appreciate it if my boyfriend took me side rather than [Tuo]'s! Kthx.


Also, wait for it... Wait for it... PERSONAL RECORD!!! And by that I mean, I managed to walk to [Riot!]'s house in exactly eight minutes! :D I used to do it in about 15-20 because I'm fat and lazy, and walk exceedingly slow... Now I am treating it as my physical exercise (because, let's face it, I don't get any other form), which isn't that much, but it's a start mmkayy? ^.^


So how to summarise the day I had today... Hmmm... Well to start with, I arrived at [Riot!]s house to find him asleep... /Aw!/ Then once he had decided he was presentable, the rest of the day was filled with making Easy Mac for lunch (which I seemed to fail at epically), insulting each other's method of eating Cookie's and Cream ice cream, lots and lots of whipped cream (Well for [Riot!] anyway! :P), and his dog trying to pull down my pants... Yeah, thanks for that Roxy! =.=
And what did I do once I got home? Went on MSN and started playing an online game with [Riot!]; because we're cool kids like that! :P  But in all seriousness, I do love being able to spend all day with him, only to go home and still want to talk and be geeky gamers together :D <3


/Yawn/ Well I guess that is a sign that I am tired, therefore I should most likely head off to bed... My dearest father is planning on taking me out driving around Logan tomorrow so I can get some hours up... I'm a quarter of the way guys! After a year and a half... But whatevs! I'm going places! :D


~Fare thee well~

WARNING! Exceedingly Cheesy Post Ahead!

Have you ever had one of those absolutely amazing days, where nothing went wrong and you finally realised that this is what you want and where you want to be? Well, I was fortunate to have one of them today... And what better way to have this happen to you, then when you're with your boyfriend! :)


After all that I have been through recently, it was so nice just to be able to go for a stroll down to Subway with [Riot!]; teasing each other about what we eat/don't eat... We then walked around the lake just talking about anything and everything; followed by resting and duck watching, causing more laughs over mine and his epic fails...
Every second of today, I was loving it! I never feel awkward around him, and even when we're not talking; it's not like either of us feel like we HAVE to talk.


The one thing I realised today is how much I was repressed and how much I actually didn't like being with [Carl]. Before I met him, I was the most innocent year 10 student who wouldn't have a clue about anything! The first day I met [Carl] is when everything changed... The first day we met was the first day we went out, and that night we made out! Yeah, I was as freaked out as you possibly are now... From there, things moved way too quick for my liking. No matter how many times I would tell him. It wasn't too much after the one year mark that I lost my virginity... 


This, is definitely one of the biggest things I regret. Ever since that day I have felt horrible. The fact that [Carl] wasn't even legal to have it; yet he still insisted every single time I saw him to the point where I just gave in... This actually sums up our relationship... The bigger, better-with-words guy repressing and manipulating the small, easy-to-confuse-therefore-manipulate girl to do whatever he wishes...


It's crazy how jealous I am of [Clearly Unfocused] and [Phantomess] because of the innocence they have. I mean, sure they know about stuff, but who doesn't? I don't know exactly what girls picture their first time to be; but I'm sure it wouldn't be one that involved practically being forced into it (though at the time being manipulated into thinking that it's worth doing).


This is one of the reasons why I am so happy right now! I mean, I finally shake [Carl] off after weeks of begging and pining to have me back; and I spend an entire day with [Riot!] just enjoying each others company and sharing the most simplest of moments. I feel like I can start afresh! Turn over a new page where I can pretend that I'm that innocent year 10 student again... It's so comforting to know that I'm with a guy who wants to spend time with me; because he wants to spend genuine time with me! Not one who always seems to have his hormones control his actions... :/


Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile


I've had this song stuck in my head all day and I can't help but smile every time I sing it in my head because it so applies to the how I felt today! I honestly can't remember the last time I blushed because of a compliment I received, or the last time I felt truly wanted.


I'm the kind of person who appreciates and loves all the little things one can do. I don't expect expensive presents; if anything I tend to prefer the cheaper ones because of the simplicity and thought behind them. Not saying there isn't thought behind the expensive ones, but yeah, I'm a special child okay? :P Anyways, so this means that I absolutely love it when I'm with a guy who just grabs your hand and holds it or kisses it; or who gestures to you to hurry up and sit next to them when they already know you're going to already. I guess I'm basically one of those girls that love the things you usually find in movies, or hear in songs... But I'm actually lucky enough to be experiencing such things right now, and it makes me unbelievably happy! :) <3


Well, I have no idea what this post was initially going to be about, but if any of you got bored by the end... Stick it! :P I'm so happy right now, none of you trolls are gonna ruin it! Mmkayy??


~Is it sad to say that I was grinning like an idiot while writing the end of this post?~

Are You Sure You Want To Remove ___ As Your Friend?

Well today I went to the local shopping centre with my usual group of friends, and what's the first thing we do? Go into EB Games... Because we're cool kids like that! :D After that, our activities ranged from sitting out on the grass for awhile, telling numerous dirty jokes, singing Dancing Queen in front of ALDI, going into ALDI to buy some chocolate to (quoting [nath_alex01]) "orgasm" over it, going formal suit shopping for [Tenuto Tuo] and [Sasquatch]... This was followed (once the males had left the complex) by a deep, meaningful conversation between us girls about emotional musicals, why people should act like their true selves around people, and about what makes relationships work. We ended up concluding that relationships work best when the couple have things in common, as well things not.


Who wants to be in a relationship where you're both interested in EXACTLY the same things? It gets incredibly monotonous... Yet, if you have nothing in common at all, the relationship just wouldn't work due to the incessant fighting...


Anyways, so this got me thinking about the upcoming formal... Which made me start grinning stupidly cause I was thinking about how dress and how pretty it'll make me feel when I'm wearing that night... Ahem, anyway! It also got me thinking about who I want to be there with me, as my date. I mean, of course my boyfriend would be first choice! But neither of us are sure yet about whether or not he'll be nearby to attend... As for my second choice in partner; well, I don't have one!


Of course, if worst comes to worst, I can always just go with my groupies! :) It'll be an amazing night regardless of whether or not I have a designated partner by my side...


ZOMG! I just thought of the most EPIC way of travelling to the formal... In a horse drawn carriage! Okay, so I may be the only one who thinks of this as awesome... But hey! You will never stop the animal lover in me! :D And besides... I think of it as quite cute, romantic and different... (How many people nowadays could say they travelled in that sorta style? Hmmm? Not many because they all go for the limousines or those funky, old cars...).


I don't know... I guess I get all romantic and sappy at the thought of riding in a carriage without a roof, so I can just look at the sky, while snuggling up (Well, saying I'm with a male partner here...) for warmth, while listening to the sounds of horse hooves on the ground... Then again, there'd most likely be cars round going /Zhoom!/ and kinda ruining the mood... But shush! Don't tarnish the image! Hehe...


Soooo, I totes went onto Facebook today... As per usual... And realised that [Carl] had deleted me off of his friends list... My first thought... WTF!?!?!?! No actually, this is pretty much my ONLY thought... I mean, today I finally managed to stay strong and tell him for the last time that I do NOT want to be anything but friends with him at the current time. (Insert celebratory clap here). He was all okay about it. I mean, he wasn't exactly happy, but he wasn't as full on depressive as he has been lately... Which helped me deal with the situation a lot better... So I don't understand why he would've deleted me? I'm not sure if this is his way of dealing with it, or if he's going with a new strategy to win me back? Well, he's also deleted [Riot!] so I'm utterly confused right now...


It always seems like... When I finally can stop stressing over things; whether it be relationship wise or school or anything... Another things pops up straight after! I swear I haven't had a single hour where I haven't been stressing... Well, except for yesterday during the One rehearsal... I would like to thank the group of year 10's, [That Dancer Chick] (<- formally known as Tarsha till she joined the blogging world), and [Riot!] for making that happen! :) It was amazing to finally not have to stress about anything <3


But what happens the next day? I go to a shopping centre with my friends (that isn't the issue of course), only to have [Carl] come over on his break, beg me to see him after his shift, only to have us endure an awkward conversation that ended with me finally getting what I wanted... Only to come home and find he's deleted me on Facebook? I mean, the only reason this is worrying me is because I don't know the reason behind it... I assume it must be pretty big? I don't know... I'm so confused right now :/


I don't even have the guts to call him and find out! :P Yeah, I'm a massive chicken... But it means I taste good, so it's all G! ;)


Well, my fellow symphony writers, I don't have much more to write about this fine evening, so I shall bid you adieu, and go find something to do to make my mind off of current events!


~I'm thinking, what the hell?~

Long Time No Blog...

Hello there strangers! Yes I have been away from the blogging world for quite some time! I blame the education system... You see, they swamped me with so many assignments I couldn't devote my life to anything else really...  Well they're thankfully finished now and it is now school holidays! :D


"Celebrate good times, come on!"


So I just came back from a social gathering at [Tenuto Tuo]'s place... It was myself, [Tenuto], [Clearly Unfocused] and another friend of ours called [Ruska]. (Just clarifying... That is how it's spelt... Right? :S)


Sooooo, we watched Melodifestivalen from 2010 (for those clueless readers, this is the annual Swedish song competition. The winner goes on to represent Sweden in the Eurovision Song Contest. For those of you who don't know what that is... LOOK IT UP!). Anywho, [Clearly Unfocused] and I, by the end of the night, were quite high on Eric Saade... [Unfocused] isn't even keen on Eric, yet she still got high... Ehehe. That is the power of a Manboy! /Swoon/


We also discovered a couple more male singes that were rather ummm... Talented and good looking... :D


Whaaaaat?!?!?! Can't a girl have an innocent little crush on a guy (or multiple, ahem) who lives in a different country (or isn't even real *Cough* [Phantomess], [Clearly Unfocused], [GoJo] *Cough*)? I personally find there's nothing wrong with it! Hehehe...


I am so incredibly glad it's the holidays now! I mean, sure next term is going to be the most difficult, stressful term EVARRRR! What with the QCS test, along with all the other subject exams, as well as performing in One, as well as formal preparations... Ugh, it is going to be a tough term...


BUT! For the next three weeks, the only things I have to worry about is who I'm hanging out with and when! I've already got three (well two now, considering one of them was the Melodifestivalen get-together) requests to hang out with my groupies! (Y'all know who you are), and planning on hanging out with the likes of [Riot!] and [Carl] too :D I can already feel my cheeks hurting from the amount of laughter and fun I'll be experiencing... Is it sad to say I already have a silly grin on my face thinking about it? Oh well, too late now...


Or maybe the grin is because I'm thinking about Måns Zelmerlöw... I mean, pfft! I'm not thinking about him at all no... Oh dear... I have a feeling [Tenuto]'s going to kill me now... Hmmm... For some reason, this doesn't worry me... :P


Have any of you heard of the 30 Day Photo Challenge? If not, look it up... Seriously, stop expecting me to do everything for you! Anyways... I am in the process of it on Facebook. I'm up to Day 21 currently... The thing I've noticed is that I have gotten more and more slack with it as the days go by... At first it was individual pictures of people; then it went to collages (Which I made myself! Quite proud ^^); but they've now turned into random pictures I get off of Google... Yeah, nice [Miss Invisible]... That's pretty much my life story right there! :P Start off all enthusiastic like "HELLS YEAH! IMA DO THIS!", then it goes all "Eh, I cbf...". I really should look into why my work ethic has gone so down hill since... Well, since Grade 10! Yeah, I'm a lost cause... But... Shut up! I could still kick yo ass!


LOL JKS!


So [Clearly Unfocused], [Tenuto Tuo] and I are fighting on Facebook about fangirling over each other's "guys". Yeah... We're not weird at all... We each have a guy who we favour above the others, so we "get" them... Then we start bitching at each other when we feel out man is threatened... Most of the time the arguments end with us agreeing to share... :D Feeling the love! <3


So earlier today I had to go to school (WTF man... First day of holidays and I have to go school!?!?! Fml!) for One rehearsals... All participants had been there the past two days as well... The Thursday and Friday rehearsals dragged on so much... It was quite painful! >.< Though today's was actually really good! I think it was because everyone was all like "Heck yeah! Once I finish this dance/song/band piece I can go home and par-tay!". Yeah, i'm assuming everyone went off to go party it up after the rehearsal! Cause I'm cool like that, yo. I was having so much fun, to be honest I didn't want to leave... Call me sad/pathetic/etc. But I don't care! "I'm gonna lay down my burden... Down by the riverside!" <- Chamber singers FTW people! Word.


So even though I haven't blogged in three weeks, and have been itching too everyday and had so many ideas go through my head where I'd be like "ZOMG! Blog worthy!". I have finally had the chance to blog and what happens? /Mind blank/


Awesomeness...


Oh, and it doesn't help when you're being pressured by [Riot!] to write this quickly so he can satisfy his impatience and read this blog... I hope you're happy! :P


So the other night I went to see [title of show] with my girlfriends and oh my gosh! It was the most funny and heart warming thing I have ever seen! (Oh, and the male main character is totes cute, teehee!). But I mean, seriously... Who doesn't love a musical about two guys writing a musical... About two guys writing a musical! And don't forget the F-bombs, a guy jumping across stage singing "KEY CHANGE!", girl-on-girl action, lots of naughty words, toplessness, pretending to fly, metaphorical vampires, tons of supposed musical references that I got barely any of, and so much more! The saddest thing about it is that it was closing night... And I have a feeling it won't be back for quite some time... /Sadness/


That show is one of the only shows that almost made me cry! I'm the kind of person who doesn't usually cry much... So if I'm watching a movie (Recent Harry Potter one where Dobby dies...) or a musical [tos] and I'm close too, or am crying! They've done a pretty good job! Yeah, so [tos] was absolutely amazing, and I'm so glad I got to see it with my gorgeous friends! :) <3


Well... It's getting late, and I really should be catching up on the hours of sleep I lost over the past couple of weeks due to stressing and assignments... I promise there will not be another three week gap between this blog and the next mmkayy? :P Gotta love education screwing up your blogging and social life... Ugh.


Until next time, dear readers...


~Die, Vampire, Die!~